It had been building up for some time. We had been drifting apart; our separate interests were taking us down differing paths in life and we both knew it.
"One last fuck then" Erik said after I told my husband that my mind was made up on moving to London from our home in Copenhagen.
I laughed as I took my bra off. "It doesn't have to be the last Erik."
"No true" he replied slipping out of his underpants. "But last as real husband and wife."
"Yes I guess so" I said taking my panties off and moving to the bed.
We laid down looking at each other.
"When will you actually relocate there?"
"As soon as the agency says, probably next week part time then permanently next month" I told him as I grasped his deliciously familiar cock and he sucked my achingly sensitive nipples.
*
Erik and I are both Danish although I spent much of my early life overseas in America, the UK and the Middle East for my dad was a geophysicist in the oil industry. We have been married for nearly twenty years and by choice have not had children. Being Danish our sexual activities have not been restricted by marriage. Us Scandinavians have a totally different outlook on sex and being faithful than certainly the British and Americans and most southern Europeans. We are more open and liberal, we see sex as something to be enjoyed, shared and used as hobby. Hence, we do not generally accept that man is or should be monogamous. We believe having other partners and indulging in same sex pleasures are acceptable. Most of us do have other partners, enjoy experimenting with sex, getting involved in group sex and visiting sex clubs. We don't see these sort of things as being deviant or activities that should be done covertly or behind one's partner's back. What we do believe in though is being open and honest with your partner.
That's at the heart of our open and liberal attitude on sex. It doesn't always work of course and some do have affairs, some fall for a friend when partner swapping and some want to indulge in activities that do not appeal to their partner and thus seek it elsewhere. For some time I had suspected that Erik was not open and honest with me and had felt that he was probably shagging some of the undergraduates at the university.
On the face of it our break up had nothing whatsoever to do with sex, far from it and it wasn't the first time we had parted, it was the third. I work in advertising handling accounts. For some time I had been the account manager for Scandinavia for a French lingerie company Lejaby; they made exquisite and very sex lady's intimate apparel. The agency for which I worked was part of a large group that had just won the global account and they had asked for me to be the European Account Manager. There was just one problem, well two actually. I would be almost constantly travelling and I had to be based in London.
Erik hated London, in fact he hated all cities. We had a small apartment near Tivoli in Copenhagen and a cabin in the country. He was a writer and a university lecturer and he point-blank refused to move to London and I refused to give up the chance of the big job. So we agreed to part and hence, the last fuck.
I think it was quite a relief to him that I would be leaving Copenhagen and that he could live in the apartment during the week and go to the cabin at the weekends having what visitors and taking what companions he wished with him.
*
"I'll stay at the cabin until you leave, then we can sort things out" he'd said packing a case.
"Yeah that'll be fine, no rush, the agency are providing me an apartment."
We were both financially pretty comfortable so there was no rush to sort out our financial affairs or start selling property in the slow market.
When he'd gone and I looked at his empty wardrobes and thought of what lay ahead for I knew this time it was over. Realising the difficulties that I would have to go through with the divorce and being a 43 year old single woman was disturbing, but at least I knew there would be no money worries.
I mooched around the flat in a daze most afternoon and I felt lonelier than I ever had before. It was a relief then, when one of my neighbours turned up to return a box set of Mad Men we had lent them. She appeared shocked when she saw me and I realised that my earlier crying must be apparent.
"God Michy what's the matter?" As I went to reply I felt the emotion welling up in me and I began to cry again.
Girchen came in and I found myself telling her about what had happened. She was aware of some of our previous difficulties and as she had been supportive before I suddenly found it all pouring out as we sat in the kitchen drinking a cup of tea that she had made. I told her that this time it was almost certainly over. I explained about the opportunity and Erik's stubbornness and that this time we were finished.
She was very understanding and a helpful listener so she was just what I needed at that particular time. Very organised and matter of fact Girchen just sort of took over. She's a tall, slim, willowy blonde with the most incredible legs and wonderfully pert bum. Not by any means beautiful as she has a rather hooked nose and eyes that are slightly oriental she does, though have a way about her mainly brought about because of her height and truly excellent posture.
"Right you're coming to mine for dinner, Tomas and the kids are away, and I think we'll get well and truly plastered" she said making me smile for the first time as she added, "go and get yourself bathed and changed and come round when you're ready."
An hour or so later I was in her house dressed in a white blouse and blue, denim jeans with heels. I had bathed and washed my hair. Already I felt better and as she poured me a glass of white wine from a half-empty bottle that I suspected she had already drunk, I began to feel even bettwre. We had steak and salad and yes we did drink a fair amount before going into her lounge and sitting side by side on one of the large sofas drawn up around a blazing wood fire.
We talked and talked becoming slightly more tipsy and open with each other recounting past experiences and affairs that we'd had. Our legs occasionally touched and several times her hand rested on my knee or wrist as she accentuated points but, as is this is quite normal during 'girly' chats, I saw nothing untoward with the gestures merely taking them as acts of kindness and affection on her part.
My mood swings, though, were quite volatile. One moment I was laughing and joking about things and then I would find myself becoming weepy again, more at the loneliness and the longer-term prospects of being single in my forties.
I remember as clearly as if it were yesterday what then happened. I started crying and Girchen took me in her arms to soothe me and cuddled me to her. It felt so comfortable and reassuring being in her arms and I just stayed there for some time feeling better and more confident all the time. I can recall her holding me, the smell of her perfume, the feel of her hands on my back, the soothing touch as she stroked my hair and the pressure on my breasts and legs from her body.
Whilst I enjoyed it there were no thoughts whatsoever in my mind of anything sexual and the emotions she was touching were all to do with my state of mind the spectre of life alone after all these years. That is until she lifted my head up and, looking me in the eye, murmured in a very husky voice.
"In any case, love, who needs men?"