Chapter 6: Confessions
When I got back to our dorm room, Alexis was asleep. I fretted about how to tell her what had happened between Ty and me until I fell asleep too. When I woke up, she wasn't in her bed. I walked down the hall to the communal bathroom and hopped in the shower. The hot water relaxed the tension I was feeling. The previous evening's events replayed in my mind and I found myself absent-mindedly running my soapy hands all over my body. I was starting to feel good.
"Layla, is that you in there?" It was Alexis' voice.
"Um, yeah. Alexis?"
"Yeah, listen, we need to talk." She pulled back the shower curtain. She was wrapped in a white towel, which was one piece of fabric more than I was wearing. She saw my surprise and said, "I'm sorry to barge in on you, but I need to tell you something and it can't wait. I've been about to burst all week and if I don't confess right now, I'm going to explode."
"Um, okay. Do you mind if I shower while we talk?" She shook her head. "I need to confess something to you too."
"Fine. But me first." She took a deep breath. "Last weekend after you told Ty and I about your amazingly hot threesome, we, well, we got really turned on and that led to some great sex."
"Yeah, I know."
"Then... wait, you know?"
"Yeah, I took off my headphones and listened to you. It was hot. I got myself off to the sounds of you and Ty fucking."
"Oh, okay. Um, wow. That's cool. I'm glad we didn't bother you. Well, that kind of makes the next part a little easier to tell you. So anyway, the next morning, Ty and I talked about how hot your adventure sounded. Then, we started discussing whether we would want to try something like that. He's really into it. I mean, he wants to do it soon. I'm intrigued, but I'm also kind of scared. I mean, I like to see it in porn and read about it in spicy stories, but I'm worried that in real life emotions might get messy. I mean, what if he likes the other girl more than me? What if I feel jealous?"
"Yeah, those are all real possibilities, I suppose. That didn't happen to me, but I was with total strangers."
"Exactly! At one point, I asked him, 'If we went through with this, who would we do it with? A stranger? Or someone we know?'" She paused for a while and drew in her breath. "He answered with a specific suggestion. He said a name."
"Alexis, I need to confess something to you."
"Wait. Just let me finish, then you can go." I tried to interject, but she cut me off. "I need to get this out. Layla, he wants to have a threesome with
you
! I've suspected for a while that he was attracted to you. He'll sometimes make a comment, or I'll catch him looking at you. I just knew. But when he actually said that he thought that you were hot and he wanted to have sex with you, I kind of freaked out."
"Alexis, I..."
She waved me off. "I haven't actually talked to him for a few days. During that time, I've done a lot of self-reflection. And I came to a realization. While I'm worried about the feelings of jealousy, envy, inadequacy, betrayal, and all that, those aren't the feelings that I'm most freaked out about. What I'm most terrified of are my feelings for... you."
My eyes got big and my jaw dropped open. I did not expect that at all. I stood there naked and motionless with the water running down my body, not knowing what to say.
Her eyes traveled down my body, paused at my breasts, continued to my crotch, paused again, and then slowly came back up until she looked me in the eyes. "You know that I have always thought that you were hot, right? When I compliment your body, it isn't just some trite girl-power sisterhood rhetoric. I actually mean it. I think you're hot. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy being Ty's girlfriend. I mean, I love him, and he's good to me and he's good in bed. I'm happy with him. I really am.
She paused but I didn't know what to say. I just stood there exposed and dripping.
She shifted her weight, played with her hair, and then continued. "I've never been with a girl before, but I confess that I have kind of been curious about girls for a while. I've never told anyone before, but girl-on-girl erotica and porn always gets me going. So do menage-a-trois scenes. I think I actually want to try it. When Ty suggested that we have a threesome with you, I freaked out not because I didn't want to do it. I freaked out because I realized that my secret fantasy might actually be possible. I didn't know how to deal with it, so I ran and hid. I'm sorry to lay all this on you all of a sudden, but I just had to confess. I'm sorry. Don't be angry. Are you mad?"
"No, I'm not mad, I promise. It's fine. Really. Okay. My turn to confess. Last night, I was wearing remote controlled vibrating panties."
It was her turn for her eyes to get big and her jaw to drop. "You were wearing what?!" she asked incredulously.
"It's a long story. I'll tell you the whole tale later. Anyway, I ran into Ty at the Rendezvous. He confessed to the same thing that you just told me." I saw her mouth form the word 'oh' but no sound came out. "As he was talking, the vibrations in my panties got increasingly more intense. I had to excuse myself to go to the ladies' room to, uh, take care of myself before it was too late. But I was already unsteady on my feet. He helped me across the room, but I was too far gone. Before I got inside the bathroom, I was overcome by a massive orgasm. As I came, I grabbed him by the neck and kissed him." She covered her mouth with her hand. "I'm so sorry, Alexis. I didn't mean to. It just happened. I wasn't thinking clearly. Then I ran into the bathroom. When I came out, he was gone. I'm so sorry, Alexis. That's all that happened. I swear. Are you mad?"
She stood there for a moment as neither of us said anything. Finally, she asked, "Do you have feelings for him?"
"No, absolutely not. I mean, I think he's cute. I like him as a friend, but he is your boyfriend. I was just overcome by the drinks, the vibrations, and his confession that he wanted to have sex with us."
