Chapter 6: Confessions
When I got back to our dorm room, Alexis was asleep. I fretted about how to tell her what had happened between Ty and me until I fell asleep too. When I woke up, she wasn't in her bed. I walked down the hall to the communal bathroom and hopped in the shower. The hot water relaxed the tension I was feeling. The previous evening's events replayed in my mind and I found myself absent-mindedly running my soapy hands all over my body. I was starting to feel good.
"Layla, is that you in there?" It was Alexis' voice.
"Um, yeah. Alexis?"
"Yeah, listen, we need to talk." She pulled back the shower curtain. She was wrapped in a white towel, which was one piece of fabric more than I was wearing. She saw my surprise and said, "I'm sorry to barge in on you, but I need to tell you something and it can't wait. I've been about to burst all week and if I don't confess right now, I'm going to explode."
"Um, okay. Do you mind if I shower while we talk?" She shook her head. "I need to confess something to you too."
"Fine. But me first." She took a deep breath. "Last weekend after you told Ty and I about your amazingly hot threesome, we, well, we got really turned on and that led to some great sex."
"Yeah, I know."
"Then... wait, you know?"
"Yeah, I took off my headphones and listened to you. It was hot. I got myself off to the sounds of you and Ty fucking."
"Oh, okay. Um, wow. That's cool. I'm glad we didn't bother you. Well, that kind of makes the next part a little easier to tell you. So anyway, the next morning, Ty and I talked about how hot your adventure sounded. Then, we started discussing whether we would want to try something like that. He's really into it. I mean, he wants to do it soon. I'm intrigued, but I'm also kind of scared. I mean, I like to see it in porn and read about it in spicy stories, but I'm worried that in real life emotions might get messy. I mean, what if he likes the other girl more than me? What if I feel jealous?"
"Yeah, those are all real possibilities, I suppose. That didn't happen to me, but I was with total strangers."
"Exactly! At one point, I asked him, 'If we went through with this, who would we do it with? A stranger? Or someone we know?'" She paused for a while and drew in her breath. "He answered with a specific suggestion. He said a name."
"Alexis, I need to confess something to you."
"Wait. Just let me finish, then you can go." I tried to interject, but she cut me off. "I need to get this out. Layla, he wants to have a threesome with
you
! I've suspected for a while that he was attracted to you. He'll sometimes make a comment, or I'll catch him looking at you. I just knew. But when he actually said that he thought that you were hot and he wanted to have sex with you, I kind of freaked out."
"Alexis, I..."
She waved me off. "I haven't actually talked to him for a few days. During that time, I've done a lot of self-reflection. And I came to a realization. While I'm worried about the feelings of jealousy, envy, inadequacy, betrayal, and all that, those aren't the feelings that I'm most freaked out about. What I'm most terrified of are my feelings for... you."