They'd been watching the movie for thirty minutes now.
Ling's eyes were on the screen, but her awareness was sweeping the room, back and forth. She'd draped herself along the sofa, covered in her duvet. Elisa was nestled into a cushion on the floor below her, head resting against the arm, just below her own, enveloped in her own duvet.
They'd had a busy week, and Ling hadn't run into Elisa alone in the apartment, but movie night was a scheduled Friday item; sacrosant. This month they were watching
Bound
, so they hadn't invited anyone out of the core three. Guilty pleasures are allowed to remain private, which also explained the unpalatable sweet rosΓ© they were sharing.
Alex was sprawled in the basket chair to the side, as was his want. Male pride, strong metabolism, or (more probably) taxi logistics preventing him bringing his own duvet.
Ling knew the movie fairly well, from that age of college where alternative lifestyle art was a fascination. What she was
really
watching, more surreptitiously, was Elisa, trying to gauge how she was reacting to her closeness. So far, there was no reaction that she could sense.
She thought perhaps she should have felt relieved, that their closeness hadn't seen any obvious awkwardness after recent events, but she also couldn't lose the sense of disappointment.
Attempting to feign whimsical realignment, she let her arm fall off the sofa, beside Elisa. And let it lay there a while.
Alright.
She knew there was
something
here, with Elisa. She would normally talk to her friends, or failing that strangers on the internet; advice, analysis.
Well, normally, she'd just talk directly with Elisa about her feelings.
This was different, though. Ling couldn't articulate why, but she had a strong feeling that vocalizing any of this would somehow destroy it, like trying to cage a thought or grasp a cloud. They would all agree it was a silly emotion, or a product of too much time together, and laugh it off, and then seal it somewhere without oxygen to die.
So vocalization was off the table. And that was why she'd been reached out, silently, slowly, over the minutes, letting her arm drift closer and closer.
Until it touched Elisa's arm.
When Ling first made contact she felt the skin grow taut under her touch and knew that tensions it had spread throughout Elisa's body, like ice cracking on a lake. She felt a moment of almost sickening vertigo.