Courtney had always been intrigued by thoughts of being with another woman. In her small town though, it was a taboo never to be acted upon. She dated plenty of guys in High School, even allowing one to take her virginity, yet, none of those relationships were fulfilling for her. She felt something was missing, a void that would be filled by time spent with her close female friends, yet even then, she knew there was something more, something unattainable at the time. When she left home for school, traveling halfway across the country, she finally found herself free to discover what she had always dreamt and thought of, yet, did not know what to do.
Courtney was an attractive 5' 6", with short curly brown hair, brown eyes, pale white skin, an athletic figure with 34b breasts. She felt freed from the rules and regulations and societal norms that governed her hometown. She felt freed to finally act out and experience things. Yet, she was filled with a nervousness, an inability, to take that first step despite her overwhelming desire to do just that. She preferred the anonymity of a chat room for lesbians, than the close personnel interaction offered by the University's Rainbow Alliance. Besides, how do you find someone, when its taboo and not to be talked about. The restrictions of her youth built up a number of obstacles to her dreams. Obstacles that had to be battered down.
It was in a lesbian chat room that Courtney first came out into her own. She signed on as acuriousgirl06 and typed a quick hello into the room. She was assaulted by numerous messages from men, a fact that surprised her. After all, this was a lesbian chat room, what type of men hung out there. But she slowly began to talk to a few of the other women there. Most just said hello and asked a question or two before moving into deeper or heavier discussions with other members.
After being on for about fifteen minutes and just saying hello to a few woman, Courtney was beginning to consider changing rooms, when Michellez signed on. "A/S/L," the new person asked on the screen.
Courtney typed, "18, F, __."
"25, F, __" Michellez responded. "How are you" she asked.
Courtney soon found herself whispered by Michellez. "My name is Michelle, yours?"
"Courtney, Michelle's a beautiful name."
"Thank you, where in __ are you from?"
"I'm a student at ______ in ______" she responded.
"Really, I went there, I teach about twenty miles away now."
After about ten minutes of discussing the school and being in college, Courtney asked, "So, this may sound stupid, but are you a lesbian?"
"Yes," Michelle wrote, "and I guess you are curious and want to know what it's like?"
"Yes and yes." Courtney typed.
"Well, let me tell you, it is beautiful. It can be difficult, not everyone understands, but to be with another woman is such a fulfilling and powerful moment. First, you are being true to yourself. Second, it is so right, you are made for each other, you know what the other needs more than a man would. Third, it is so intense. My first experience was in high school and I've never looked back. I couldn't.
"Sounds pretty deep and wonderful."
"It is, you really don't know how wonderful until you experience it for the first time. Then it is everything you've ever dreamed about, desired and wanted."
For three weeks Courtney and Michelle met daily online to talk. There were moments when the topics were very sexual, but for the most part, it dealt with the depth and power of lesbian love, or opening and accepting that part of one's identity. They talked about movies, books, clothes, and crushes. Pictures were exchanged. Courtney found herself moved by her conversations with Michelle. She felt her desire to taste, touch, and experience another woman growing each and every day. The first time she looked at Michelle's picture, her breath was taken away. She felt herself grow wet looking at the tall curvy blond. She found herself admiring her new friends round face w/ short blond hair, her tan skin and long strong legs, her large breasts, wide hips, and in one particular photo – her tight ass. While she had admired some of her high school friends and saw them as attractive, she had never looked at one of them in this way. She found herself imagining being held by Michelle as their naked bodies lay together.
Three Weeks Later
"I think we should meet." Michelle typed.
"Really?" Courtney responded.
"Yes, I want to meet you, to talk to you."
"And show me?" Courtney asked
"Yes, and show you" after a long pause Michelle typed, "and make love to you."
Courtney just stared at those words, feeling that an emotional barrier was about to be crossed. She wanted it. She felt her body yearning for this lesbian touch, she could feel her entire body aching for it from her toes to her head. But, if it was really such a life-changing event, how different would she be? What would her parents' response be? Her friends? Yet, the feeling was undeniably strong.
"When?" Courtney felt herself type.
"Friday afternoon? There is a café three blocks from my house, we could meet there."
"Yeah, Friday afternoon will work, what time?"
"Is 4 good, it's a half-day on Friday?" Michelle asked.
"That is great, do I need to bring anything?" Courtney asked.
"Only that beautiful body of yours" Michelle typed, knowing that Courtney would be flushed by the comment. "Course, you might want to bring an overnight bag, just in case?" Michelle worried that would drive Courtney off, but Courtney wanted this.
"You might be right, I hope." Courtney responded.
Friday
Courtney arrived at 4 at the small Coffee Shop halfway between downtown and her school. She was dressed for a casual meeting, wearing a pair of jeans and a red long-sleeve polo shirt. She wore her brown hair down. Taking a deep breath she entered the shop. She briefly looked around and saw Michelle, who waved, sitting in a corner. She breathed deeply again as she saw Michelle. Michelle wore a sleeveless black top, blue jeans. Michelle rose and hugged Courtney. Courtney responded to Michelle's embrace by pulling her in tight as well. Taking their seats they stared at one another and began to talk. Initially the conversation focused on the mundane, about the day and recent happenings. Michelle reached across the table and took one of Courtney's hands in her own. They sat, talking animatedly for a half hour and the conversation gradually became more and more intense.
"It will be intense, unlike anything you've ever experienced. Some people will look at you differently for your choice, so it has to be right for you. But it will be the most powerful, exhilarating and freeing experience in your life. There is nothing like it," Michelle explained. "Are you sure you want to do this?"
Courtney sat holding Michelle's hand, breathing slowly, contemplating what Michelle had said. "Yes" she finally responded.
"Just to be sure, wait here 10 minutes after I leave and follow me. I live two blocks east and one block south, 322 Miller, 4E. If you are truly sure, I'll be waiting to ring you up." Michelle rose from her seat, smiled at the seated Courtney, leaned down and whispered in her ear, "I do hope to see you there." She walked out.