Forces of Nature
"Come on Lilith! You never want to do anything. It will be fun. It's a sorority party, with a chance of being asked to join."
"Why would I want to go to a party with the possibility of being asked to join a sorority? I don't want to be in a damn sorority."
"Sororities aren't like they have been portrayed in movies and books. They might have been that way at one time but not anymore, or at least, most aren't. They can be helpful with academic pursuits and having been in a sorority in college can be a plus on your resume when you are pursuing a job."
"Bullshit. They are an archaic, rich, elitist, pompous societal enclave, full of wealthy, better-than-you, stuck-up bitches."
"Geez Lilith, tell me how you really feel," Heather said. Only half-joking.
"Sorry, probably a bit over the top."
Heather laughed, and said, "Just a bit. So, just go to have fun, fuck the whole sorority aspect of the party. Who knows you might get lucky and find some better-than-you, stuck-up bitch, that wants you to fuck her. How about that."
Ouch, Heather knew where to stick the pin. It was the beginning of our freshman year at our state university. She had been my friend for years. She knew I was a lesbian. She knew I was an introvert, not that I was afraid of people, but I was comfortable being alone, or at small, quiet gatherings. She also knew that my romantic life sucked. I had not been in a relationship for over a year, and almost that long since I had even had sex.
"Why would I want to fuck some sorority bitch?"
"Because you could strike a blow to the aristocracy for the peasants of the world! You know, the four F's; find 'em, finger 'em, fuck 'em, forget 'em. Who knows, maybe you could break some poor rich bitch's heart."
"OMG Heather! I am not like that. I don't want to hurt anybody."
"I know that Lilith. But I bet you would like to drive one to multiple orgasms overnight."
I couldn't help myself and broke out into a loud, raucous laugh, "Well, yes, maybe that."
"Is that a yes?"
"Yeah. I give up. Let's go to a party. Like you said, maybe I will get lucky. If not, it's not like I have had women throwing themselves at me recently. I'll even act like I'm having fun."
"Yay! Who knows, you might even actually have fun. Just be open-minded, please?"
"I will do my best to keep my proletariat bias in tow."
"That is all I can ask. Now for tonight's attire; a nice dress, please? Stockings preferred. Maybe some make-up?"
I groaned, "The things I do for you."
"Bite me, bitch."
I snickered, "I can do that, and I can dress appropriately. Give me thirty minutes, minimum."
"I will be there in forty-five. And, Lilith, thank you. We will have fun."
"You are welcome, Heather. I will try hard to have fun and not be a downer."
"Forty-five. Bye."
"Bye."
Well, crap, now I have to figure out what I want to wear.
I started flipping through my, limited, dresses. I finally chose an A-line light blue dress, with a fairly deep cleavage bodice, and a flared mid-thigh skirt. With my smallish breasts I can display a lot of cleavage without displaying an indecent amount of my breasts.
Stockings? I ended up picking thigh-high, sheer grey hose.
Bra? None.
Panties? A pair of light blue mesh low rise thong.
Shoes? Black kitten-heeled slingback sandals.
I stripped and went to the bathroom, holding my panties and sat them on the counter. I ran some water till it got warm and stopped the sink letting it fill with water. I grabbed a washcloth and a towel, tossing the washcloth in the water and placing the towel on the counter. I squeezed the water from the washcloth, putting some liquid soap on it and gave myself a spit-bath. I had showered earlier in the day, but I figured a quick once-over cleaning of my face and body wouldn't hurt. I rinsed the washcloth, wiped the soapy wetness from my body and finished drying off with the towel.
I stood there looking in the mirror. My black hair, in an angled bob with bangs, was clean and laying as I wanted it to do, framing my face. My skin is a bit pale, which with my black hair framing my face as a contrast, I feel that it is an attractive look.
My breasts stood proud on my chest. They were, as many people size breasts, a handful, not much more. With quarter-sized areolas and medium pink nipples, that when aroused were, maybe, half-an-inch in length.
I walked and swam as exercise, so my body was fit with slight muscular definition, soft to touch but firm at the same time.
My hips flared out from my abdomen nicely, not too wide, if you ask me. My mons pubis rose out my pubic bone, perhaps, a bit more than most women's, covered in black semi-trimmed pubic hair.
My legs, one of my best attributes I think, are firm, muscular, and long. They are firm, but with a softness to the skin.
Overall, I feel good about my appearance. Am I boastful, maybe, but I really do feel that I am quite attractive by American society's norms. Which begs the question why am I struggling with a lack of sex? It's my fault. I know that. My personality makes it difficult for me to be spontaneous and outgoing, so I continually resist the advances of other women for casual sex. I want a connection, an emotional connection, not just a physical attraction. I have, on very few occasions, had a one-night stand which, while satisfying a needed sexual want, always end up with me feeling unsatisfied and angry at myself for having had a sexual encounter for no other reason than to have sex. I want more, but at the same time I tend not to make the effort to make that emotional connection I so desire.
Okay, enough introspective examination, I need to finish getting ready for a sorority party I don't want to go to.
I pull on panties, go out to my bedroom and sit at my "vanity". It is not a vanity, per se, it is just a desk with a mirror hung on the wall, but it works for me.