Author's Note: Again, there is not much sex in these chapters as Calie and Leah are trying to figure out where their relationship is going. Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me and continue to read Forbidden Feelings.
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Friday morning, I slept until my alarm went off. That is a rarity for me; usually my internal clock gets me up about ten minutes before the alarm goes off. As I turned off the annoying buzzing, I realized that I had a craving in my mouth...a craving for Leah. I rolled back onto my pillows and thought about the dream that I woke up to.
I was waiting by our front window for Leah to get home. When I saw her pass my house and pull into her driveway, I went outside and called her over. As soon as we were back behind closed doors, I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her. Without leaving her lips, I unbuttoned her blouse and slid it off. Then I went for her bra. As soon as that was on the ground, I helped her take off her pants and panties. I helped her to lay down on the floor, both of us too excited to go upstairs to the bedroom. As soon as she was on the floor, my lips moved south. Down her neck...down the valley between her breasts...down her stomach...searching for her core. As soon as my mouth touched her lower lips, and I got a taste of her sweet juice, my alarm went off...that annoying buzz that woke me from a wonderful dream. No wonder I had a taste for Leah in my mouth, but I knew that I was not going to be able to quench that thirst tonight...
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That night, after eating pizza and drinking some beers, Meghan, Liam, Leah, Travis, Gabriel, and myself all settled down to watch The Day After Tomorrow. We sat like we usually did: Gabriel in the reclining chair, I sat on the floor leaning against the chair; Liam laid down on the couch with Meghan laying between his legs, head on his chest; Travis sat on the love seat, with Leah sitting on the floor, head against his leg. I noticed that Travis was using one hand to rub Leah's neck. Now I knew what she meant when she said that she was jealous when she saw Gabe and me together. I felt the same thing watching Travis massage Leah.
We turned on the movie, but I couldn't concentrate. I kept watching Leah out of the corner of my eye. Although Travis had moved his hand by now, I still couldn't help wishing I could get closer to her. The way the hood from her sweatshirt curled up around her made her look so innocent...so beautiful...so relaxed. I couldn't stop my thoughts as they wandered back to last week...yet again.
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Travis, Leah, Gabriel, and I left Liam and Meghan's house together. Gabe and I held hands on the short walk back to our house, while Travis and Leah walked in front of us, side-by-side. As we reached our house, Travis and Leah stopped to say goodnight to us.
"Will you take a walk with me?" Leah asked me as the guys started talking.
"Sure," I responded.
Because the guys were still talking, I let go of Gabriel's hand and followed Leah. Both of us walked in silence with our hands tucked into the front pockets of our hooded sweatshirts.
"It's so nice out here, isn't it?" Leah said finally.
Although it was mid-September now, the temperature rarely went below seventy at night. Fall weather seemed like a long way off.
"Amazing for this time of year," I responded as I started chuckling.
"What's so funny?" Leah questioned while giving me a confused look.
"Are we back to small talk about the weather?" I replied.
"Yeah, I guess we are," Leah said laughing.
We walked quietly for another hundred yards or so.
"So, what's new with you?" I asked.
"Same stuff, different day, you know?" Leah replied.
"Yeah, same here," I responded. "It seems like it is just work, work, and more work. You know?"
"Yeah, I know exactly what you mean," she said.
"Oh, by the way, I'm in a charity softball game tomorrow for the city fire and police departments. My dad is the Fire Chief," Leah informed me, "You two interested in coming to watch?"
"Sounds fun." I replied, "Is Travis going with the kids?"
"Of course, and if he's lucky, he might get to play. Assuming we're short a person." Leah responded laughing, "Oh, and tickets are five dollars with all proceeds go to the fire company and police force, with a fifty/fifty split."
"Sweet. What time and where?" I asked.
"Game starts at one, and we play at the high school softball field," Leah answered. "Oh, and by the way, I'm the best damn third baseman ever. I could take on A'Rod any day.
"Well, at least you're hotter," I stated.
"I won't deny that," Leah replied.
"Alright then," I said, "We'll be there."
We walked in silence again, and even though it was dark, I could still tell that something was bothering Leah. Leah stayed silent, and I let her be, so that she could gather her thoughts. But, after a while, the silence got to be too much.
"What's up?" I questioned as we turned a corner.
"Can we talk about Monday night?" Leah whispered hesitantly.
"What about it?" I asked her, even though I really just wanted to forget all about it and pretend that it never happened.
"Listen, Calie, I'm really sorry," she started, "I thought about what happened, and I was really trying to make you jealous."
"Why?" I asked, surprised, although not shocked.
"I didn't want you to leave," Leah answered.
"I told you I wasn't going anywhere." I replied.
"I know," Leah said, "I was just afraid that you would after what I confessed to you on Sunday. I wanted you to realize what you were going to miss if you did."
"Leah, I'm not the jealous type," I admitted, "You and Kelly didn't make me jealous, just pissed off and pushed me further away."
"I know, I'm sorry," she replied sincerely, "I really wasn't thinking."
"Ya know," I said, changing the subject, "I dreamt about you last night.
"Oh really?" Leah responded, "Now I'm intrigued, go on.
"I woke up, craving you. It was as if I could still taste you," I replied.
"Wow!" Leah exclaimed laughing, "We could always get together sometime, and satisfy that craving of yours."
I couldn't tell if she was joking or not, but either way, I wasn't sure if I was ready to let my guard down again and chance getting hurt again. I had really missed being with Leah...and the feel of her in my arms...and under my tongue. But was it really worth it?
We reached my driveway and saw that the guys had already gone inside for the night. Leah and I stopped walking and just stood in the drive. Both of us not knowing what to say next, but neither one of us wanting to leave each other's company. The guilt from Tuesday night, my kiss with Lexi, washed over me. I knew it meant nothing, but it still felt so wrong. I wanted to confess everything to Leah.
"Can we keep walking?" I asked, "I'm not ready to go in yet."
"Of course," Leah answered.
We passed Leah's house and two others without saying a word. As we walked, the urge to tell Leah everything that happened on Tuesday night with Lexi and Austin grew, but I didn't know where to begin.
"So what's new with you?" Leah asked breaking the silence.
