(This is a work of fiction with all characters above the age of 18 )
Part 1. Singapore Sling.
I had never been abroad before, never even on a flight before, period. My first time in the air was on a bank training to Singapore, with a couple of days in Bangkok on the return leg. I was excited, but anxious, a little wistful that he wouldn't be coming with me as he had exams coming up. As the flight took off I closed my eyes, gripping my seat, fearful, till we were up aloft, flying for the first time.
After arriving at Singapore, we checked in at the hotel and I was allotted a room on the 18 floor. It had a beautiful view of the sea and was bigger than my home back in Bombay. I decided to clean up and and have a shower after the long flight, going into the bathroom to check it out. It was sheer luxury with a bathtub and a range of fancy toiletries. I divested myself of my clothes and almost jumped in surprise on viewing my reflection in the full length mirror.
As I viewed my self naked for the first time and struck a couple of poses that would be worthy of a centerfold, it was an exhilarating feeling. I was a little too self conscious of my looks, but viewing myself unclad felt sexy too. I started appreciating my curvy figure, my pert bosom, my fleshy navel, my shapely calves, my toned legs, ending at my thighs with my pussy veiled under a layer of soft downy hair. It was slightly erotic as well, my nipples stiffenned to points and I felt a tingling between my thighs as a wetness started seeping out of my pussy.
I ran the hot water in the tub, adding the scented bath bubbles, relaxing there after a long red eye flight. How I wished he was here, as I soaped my body, feeling incredibly lonely. I had never touched myself intimately before, and I was as good a girl as could be. But i just couldn't control myself, as my longing for release got too much.
As I lathered soap all over myself, my breasts were incredibly sensitive to my touch and so was my pussy. I could feel a nub at the top, which I learnt later was my clitoris standing out. A current of delight ran across my entire being as I scrubbed it with my soapy hands. I closed my eyes, imagining him running his hands over my body. I lay back enjoying these new sensations as my loins responded to my touch, eyes closed, moaning, as my fingers increased their pace, working up a rhythm.
I imagined his naked body next to mine, pushing his engorged penis into my welcoming womb despite my weak protestations, my fingers pushing in and out of my sticky depths. Suddenly my loins started vibrating, and my whole hand was enveloped in a gush of fluids issuing from within. I almost blacked out from the intense sensations, as wave after wave of pleasure washed over me.
I felt alive, my whole body tingling with excitement. All the tiredness, stress and worry was gone, replaced with a new glow of confidence. It was the first time that I had pleasured myself thus and also the first time I had experienced what it was to orgasm.
I was brought up in a very sheltered and conservative milieu where sex was a bad word and any display of feelings frowned upon. Even falling in love wasn't something that was encouraged. Your parents were supposed to find a match for you, and generally you went along with whatever they thought was fit. But, even though I had bucked the trend fallen in love, my parents were understanding and supported me in my choice. Being financially independent was a great boon too.
I am sure my parents would be scandalized if they knew what I had just been upto. I had spent my entire life sleeping with my parents and hadn't noticed even a whiff of sexual undercurrent between them. Although love was present aplenty, there were no physical manifestations of the same. Indeed any physical display of affection was frowned upon in the entire Indian context. As a result I had grown up with the impression that having sexual thoughts or feelings of any type were bad and to be frowned upon, a sin. Despite this aversion, how India had become the second most populous nation in the world was one of the greatest mysteries of our age, given our inherent prudishness.
Even though I was feeling on top of the world after my first experience of masturbation, due to my conditioning, an element of guilt was nagging me, as if I had committed an unpardonable crime. It was very much akin to the feeling when I had my first period. Though it was me who was in pain, it felt that I had done something very bad that needed to be hidden, not talked about. As I attained puberty, developing breasts and hair sprouting in my groin and armpits, this societal guilt kept being piled on. With the result that a very important part of the psyche was being repressed.
The pleasure that I had felt when I climaxed in the tub was the release of all the repressed urges that I had been unconsciously harboring for years. I had finally attained my freedom, become a woman in the real sense of the word, though I didn't quite realize it back then.