(This is a work of fiction with all characters above the age of 18 )
Part 1. Singapore Sling.
I had never been abroad before, never even on a flight before, period. My first time in the air was on a bank training to Singapore, with a couple of days in Bangkok on the return leg. I was excited, but anxious, a little wistful that he wouldn't be coming with me as he had exams coming up. As the flight took off I closed my eyes, gripping my seat, fearful, till we were up aloft, flying for the first time.
After arriving at Singapore, we checked in at the hotel and I was allotted a room on the 18 floor. It had a beautiful view of the sea and was bigger than my home back in Bombay. I decided to clean up and and have a shower after the long flight, going into the bathroom to check it out. It was sheer luxury with a bathtub and a range of fancy toiletries. I divested myself of my clothes and almost jumped in surprise on viewing my reflection in the full length mirror.
As I viewed my self naked for the first time and struck a couple of poses that would be worthy of a centerfold, it was an exhilarating feeling. I was a little too self conscious of my looks, but viewing myself unclad felt sexy too. I started appreciating my curvy figure, my pert bosom, my fleshy navel, my shapely calves, my toned legs, ending at my thighs with my pussy veiled under a layer of soft downy hair. It was slightly erotic as well, my nipples stiffenned to points and I felt a tingling between my thighs as a wetness started seeping out of my pussy.
I ran the hot water in the tub, adding the scented bath bubbles, relaxing there after a long red eye flight. How I wished he was here, as I soaped my body, feeling incredibly lonely. I had never touched myself intimately before, and I was as good a girl as could be. But i just couldn't control myself, as my longing for release got too much.
As I lathered soap all over myself, my breasts were incredibly sensitive to my touch and so was my pussy. I could feel a nub at the top, which I learnt later was my clitoris standing out. A current of delight ran across my entire being as I scrubbed it with my soapy hands. I closed my eyes, imagining him running his hands over my body. I lay back enjoying these new sensations as my loins responded to my touch, eyes closed, moaning, as my fingers increased their pace, working up a rhythm.
I imagined his naked body next to mine, pushing his engorged penis into my welcoming womb despite my weak protestations, my fingers pushing in and out of my sticky depths. Suddenly my loins started vibrating, and my whole hand was enveloped in a gush of fluids issuing from within. I almost blacked out from the intense sensations, as wave after wave of pleasure washed over me.
I felt alive, my whole body tingling with excitement. All the tiredness, stress and worry was gone, replaced with a new glow of confidence. It was the first time that I had pleasured myself thus and also the first time I had experienced what it was to orgasm.
I was brought up in a very sheltered and conservative milieu where sex was a bad word and any display of feelings frowned upon. Even falling in love wasn't something that was encouraged. Your parents were supposed to find a match for you, and generally you went along with whatever they thought was fit. But, even though I had bucked the trend fallen in love, my parents were understanding and supported me in my choice. Being financially independent was a great boon too.
I am sure my parents would be scandalized if they knew what I had just been upto. I had spent my entire life sleeping with my parents and hadn't noticed even a whiff of sexual undercurrent between them. Although love was present aplenty, there were no physical manifestations of the same. Indeed any physical display of affection was frowned upon in the entire Indian context. As a result I had grown up with the impression that having sexual thoughts or feelings of any type were bad and to be frowned upon, a sin. Despite this aversion, how India had become the second most populous nation in the world was one of the greatest mysteries of our age, given our inherent prudishness.
Even though I was feeling on top of the world after my first experience of masturbation, due to my conditioning, an element of guilt was nagging me, as if I had committed an unpardonable crime. It was very much akin to the feeling when I had my first period. Though it was me who was in pain, it felt that I had done something very bad that needed to be hidden, not talked about. As I attained puberty, developing breasts and hair sprouting in my groin and armpits, this societal guilt kept being piled on. With the result that a very important part of the psyche was being repressed.
The pleasure that I had felt when I climaxed in the tub was the release of all the repressed urges that I had been unconsciously harboring for years. I had finally attained my freedom, become a woman in the real sense of the word, though I didn't quite realize it back then.
After an evening get together and buffet dinner, I went back to my room for the night. After making a call back home, I decided to get a proper rest as the conference started tomorrow. But though the plush bed was very comfortable with soft pillows and a comforter, I just couldn't get any sleep. I tossed and turned, drank some water, pushed aside the covers and pulled them up again.
Was it the fact of never having slept alone before in my life, or being in a strange land or in a strange bed, or fear of the unknown or was it just jet lag, which I heard about but never experienced before? All these thoughts going through my mind at a rapid pace, vanquished whatever chance of sleep there was, and I was wide awake in the pitch black night, stars above and city lights below mirroring each other. I looked out with a longing, his face coming to mind, an ache of separation, which I couldn't bear anymore.
As a diversion, I switched on the television and as the pale blue reflection filled the room, flicked the channels on the remote. I had never seen porn before, even a slight indication of a love scene made me turn away embarrassed. Here the late night entertainment, was direct, in your face, completely hard core, nothing left to the imagination. Contrary to my good girl image, I was transfixed and imagined myself and him, transposed in the same scene.
My hands unconsciously began to mirror what was going on in the screen, on my body. Mercury rising, I felt a hot flush all over, throwing off the covers, first touching myself through my nightie and when it became an impediment divesting myself of it too. I was writhing as I pleasured myself all over, moaning and sighing as I felt a current of arousal course through my body and a wetness seep out of my cunt. My nipples were tender to the touch sticking out like points, as my fingers pushed in and out of my pussy, my thighs wide apart as I reached the edge of orgasm. As I flicked my clit, my hips bucked and a jet of sticky liquid shot out of me. I climaxed noisily and repeatedly, the bed damp with a sticky puddle of my cum. I felt drained as if just having run a marathon, chest heaving, breathing heavily. Spent, I felt my eyes droop, exhausted, tired. I put off the TV, and straddled a pillow between my legs, soon falling into a deep slumber, dreaming of him.
As the morning sun streamed in through the plate glass windows I woke up with a start. I was shocked to find myself completely nude, in a strange bed, with a musky aroma pervading the room. I looked around frantically fearing the worst, before the events of the previous night came flooding back into the realms of my memory. I turned a dark shade of red in embarrassment seeing the stains on the sheet, realizing the smell was of my own intimate fluids.
I suddenly looked at the clock, "Shit", the conference was slated to begin in less than half an hour's time. I had completely forgotten to set the alarm, jumping out of bed, getting ready quick in record time and making it to the conference room with just 5 minutes to go. Hell, I had no time for a bath and felt quite self-conscious as I could smell my own BO.
As the meeting got underway, I found myself bored with the slow pace of the proceedings, stifling a yawn. I was ravenous as I didn't have time to go for breakfast, especially after the exertion in the middle of the night, munching on the cookies and coffee kept at the table. I got to know all the other participants at the lunch buffet, like me new entrants to the bank from the countries in South East Asia. I felt myself slightly out of place looking at their smart clothes. My wardrobe was positively dated making me look a decade older than the rest. I resolved to remedy it at the earliest, visiting the mall next door in the evening.