I remember the first girl I had really deep feelings for, my first awakening of true lesbian desire. I had fooled around sexually with several other girls, but Molly was my first sweet lesbian crush.
I had seen her many times around the halls of our high school.
I used to daydream about her, but I did not know her. She was in a different section of the senior class than I, and we had no mutual school activities. That didn't stop me from dreaming, though. Her name was Molly, I had heard some of the other kids calling her that, and that was all I knew.
Molly was about an inch taller than me at 5'8", about 120 pounds, she had just a perfect figure, perfect straight honey blonde hair, warm light brown eyes, a perfect complexion, and, I would find out, one of the nicest personalities of anyone I had ever known.
As luck would have it, I ran into her late one Saturday morning while shopping at the neighborhood mall. There she was, working the fragrance counter in her part-time job at Macy's. With no other customers about at the moment, she was eminently approachable.
She was involved in some paperwork, looking down and not aware of me as I walked towards her. She instinctively looked up at me as I approached. I smiled and she smiled back.
"Hi," I said simply.
"Hi, you're...." she began.
"I'm Juliet. We're both at Commerce High. I think you're in section 3, I'm section 5."
"Oh, yes, that's right. I knew you looked familiar. I'm Molly."
We touched hands. I was beaming. I had been dreaming about her constantly for weeks, and here I was, with the perfect no-pressure excuse to meet and talk to her. I was so excited.
"So what are you looking for, Juliet?" she asked, immediately putting me at ease, because I had just run out of things to say.
"Something for daytime wear, not too obvious. Just something casual."
"Hmmm...." she said, going into her selection process. "I have a few ideas for you. We just got these in..."
And with that we were off, trying different fragrances, girl talking all the time. By the time I settled on something I absolutely loved, which also happened to be one of Molly's favorites, Gucci Rush, we were talking with each other like old friends.
I didn't realize how expensive that fragrance was, and at $40 an ounce, it was a little rich for my blood. But Molly just endeared herself to me forever when she ducked under the counter for a moment and withdrew a handful of tiny .2 ounce vial samples of Rush which she placed into a little paper bag and handed to me.
"Here, this is a painless way to find out if you really like it without putting a month's fragrance allowance into it." She smiled. "Take them!"
I was thrilled, not only because of the gift, but because of her kindness, and the fact that it was my main crush giving it to me. I couldn't believe how warm and sweet and genuine she was. I had always been afraid to approach her, but I was completely over that now. Wow, my attraction for Molly had just jumped about 1,000%.
"That is soooo nice of you!" I was gushing.
She smiled at me a wide smile and gushed back. "You're welcome, Juliet. My pleasure." She put her hand on mine in a friendly gesture.
"Jools. You can call me Jools. All my friends do."
Her eyes narrowed in pleasure as the rest of her face smiled brightly. "Okay, Jools."
As our eyes met something clicked. I could feel it powerfully.
"So, uh, thanks, Molly, you are so sweet to do that for me. Wow, I'm so glad I ran into you. Not because of this, I mean, because I had seen you about at school and wanted to say hello before, but, you know..."
She nodded. "Yes, I know."
I did not want to leave! I wanted to stay with her. I had to say something.
"Let me do something for you. Please."
She was just looking at me, waiting and smiling.
"Suppose we have lunch together, my treat. Did you have your lunch break yet?"
"No, but I'm due for lunch..." she looked at her watch, "...in about fifteen minutes. That sounds great, Jools. Thanks very much. We can get to know each other. I'm glad we met, too. Can you wait?"
Could I wait? Nothing could drag me away from an opportunity to be with her more. "Of course, I'll hang out by the cosmetics until then. Meet you in 15?"
She agreed.
I was on cloud nine. I couldn't believe my luck.
We went to a nearby coffee shop in the mall and she let me buy as promised.