I sat staring at the computer – flushed, nearly panting, and my heart beating so loud I thought I might pass out. The familiar tightening of my nipples and the warmth between my legs gave "voice" to my feelings.
After the most random of happenings that set off this chain of events we were finally going to meet. I guess maybe I should start at the beginning. It's just so damned hard to type with your hands shaking!!
I'm Morgan, 49 years old, living in "
Shikaakwa."
(snicker – look it up) Single, unattached, lesbian, I work as an administrator in health care. 5 ft, 8 in, 150ish, brown hair, shoulder length, trying to maintain some dignity in my figure with, admittedly, sporadic attendance at a nearby health club. Avid reader, love music, love the water, quiet dinners with good wine, the very essence of boring. Oh, and did I mention I still love watching women's basketball? Me: tongue firmly in cheek.
An online friend told me about this site called "Literotica" and I was enthralled with some wonderful tomes by women writers. Hooked me like a sea bass. So I wander from time to time and find some really fabulous works. When I say "fabulous" I mean zowie!! Not the slam, bam, thank you ma'am nonsense. Nooo sirree. We're talking serious literature here ... some rather short (6-10 pages), some very long, detailed and involved. Yeah there's some blech; gotta kiss a few frogs to find your princess.
In my wanderings, I come across "allyliterally" Hmm. She's penned something called
"Delicious Thoughts."
In the first line she states the title is a tribute to a woman whose pen name is "DeliciousThoughts." Aha methinks. So off I go to find this DeliciousThoughts. Her
"Four Weeks"
totally blew me away; I mean, I spent the entire weekend reading, dreaming and ... ummm ... more private things; completely forgetting about allyliterally. Eventually I come back around and find Ally and begin to dig into
her
work -
"Delicious Thoughts."
STURGEON GENERAL WARNING: If you do read the story be forewarned – It will knock you off your pins.
So I finish it and move on. Yada yada. Terribly bad choice of words; it was SOOOO good I had a hard time keeping my fingers out of my panties. (blush) Eventually I get a bug and want to re-read the bio. In doing so, I come across Chapter Two. Now here's where the fun begins. Among my other "qualities" is this: I'm a submissive. Claire gets led through some most interesting (deftly understated; please hold your applause) situations. In the end she comes to realize that, indeed, it is the submissive that holds the power in a relationship with her domme. I can't help myself; I write, through Literotica, to Ally.
She responds; we hit it off. Weeks turn into months - as they usually do. We go from corresponding via email to chatting online; here, for the first time, random suggestions are thrown out about eventually, some day, who knows when, if that day should come ... you follow the drift. Lots of giggling innuendo; here I am, nearly old enough to be her Mum.
So we cross the Rubicon – a date is set, plans are made. I nearly faint when I realize I've agreed to meet this woman who, once a stranger, has become someone I'm more than a little curious to meet. Why so hesitant you ask? Oh, all right then, I'll just tell you!! It's been several years now but the love of my life passed away very suddenly after a very unexpected, very severe illness took her from this world. Jackie went into a meeting on a Friday – April 10
th
to be exact, caught a bug from some jackass. The strain of what she contracted attacked her heart; she went into the hospital April 15
th
and passed away the morning of the 18
th
. Jackie hadn't even turned 42. As Forrest Gump puts it, "That's all I have to say about that." Suffice to say my love life has been as barren as a Texas river in a summer drought.
So the day approaches. I get my hair cut ... oh all right, dammit ... dyed too ... mani, pedi, eyebrows ... you know what I mean. I wander through stores to find something ... a closet FULL of "nothing to wear." We promised each other we'd be very casual – famous last words. If I'm gonna be casual it'll be full bore casual. (wink)
Ally is coming from Toronto on business Friday morning. She'll stay downtown and we've agreed we'll risk it for a long weekend. She's been here before but I am the native, so she'll get the "insiders" look. I've wandered every damn store on Oak Street till they roll their eyes when they see me coming. "This one, again."
I settle on extravagant and beautiful black slacks that fit me like I still dream I look like: hugging curves where they should, hiding what needs to be hidden. A lovely beige silk top, with a touch of frill on the collar, that hugs my frame rather nicely but not too much so; the sleeves puff up a wee bit. I toss my non-blonde locks and think, "I'm going to casual her right out of her undies" then laugh myself silly. Fat chance there Morgan.
The day is here. My phone rings – it's her. Breathlessly I answer. Idle hellos; I can hear her voice taut with tension as well. Yes, the plane got in okay, yes the hotel is fine, yes the luggage - etc., etc. I tell her our dinner plans. Reservations are for 6:30. Meet you there. I am the witchy bitchy chickie all day long ... impossible to talk to, acting very vaguely blonde (sorry blondes – it's my story).