Falling in Love

To anyone that usually reads my stories.

This one has no rough sex, no non-con, none of the usual stuff you are used to. It is just a lesbian love story, with some sex.

Hope you like it. I do.

Everyone in this story is 18 or over.

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I fell in love the first time I saw her.

It was in group therapy.

Which is not my strongest sport.

But there she sat one day, glowing like the sun. So beautiful, so pure, so perfect. She was like a lighthouse cutting through all the darkness, giving lost sailors hope, and showing us the way.

Showing us a way out.

I instantly regretted every choice I had made that morning. Skipping breakfast, not showering, not putting on make-up, and wearing sweats and one of John's old T-shirts. My hair was a mess and I was suddenly very aware of how I looked. I dragged a hand self-consciously through my long red hair and tried to fix my ugly T-shirt but it was a lost cause.

If I could sink through the floor I would have.

While she was stunning.

Short, slim with big beautiful clear open eyes you could drown in. She had eyes that looked innocent and intelligent at the same time. Mischiveus and childish, deep and sexy. She had black lines around them and a small nose with a thin gold ring through her septum. Full, sensual lips, perfectly shaped. Several rings in both ears and blue hair that shined in the sunlight from the open window.

She wore a tight washed-out Siouxsie and The Banshees t-shirt that hugged her skinny body and almost flat chest. A very short plaid skirt and glittery Converse high-tops.

Yeah, I was falling in love fast.

I usually did not say much in group therapy, which was a problem and something both my therapist and my doctor were worried about, it had always been an issue but something I was working on. But seeing her in the circle changed that. Not in a conscious way, more in the way of me getting all nervous and anxious and just a fucking mess. So I started blabbering and over-sharing and stammering and in general behaving like I should never be let out and probably needed a strait-jacket. It was ugly and unattractive and ended with me crying.

In front of everyone.

Pretty sure I gave a great first impression.

Fuck!

I saw her a few more times after that. Always so confident, always smiling, and always with those big beautiful eyes and full lips. Last night I fantasized about her boyish body, the small perfect ass, the flat chest, her beautiful neck. I fingered myself alone in my room, so incredibly wet thinking about kissing her lips, running my hands through her blue hair, licking her body.

I came so hard I almost had a blackout.

I felt so bad afterward I called John and had phone sex with him while cumming again.

I am such a mess. If I had a hard time forming real thoughts when they put me here it is impossible now.

I think about her all the time. And I haven't even talked to her yet.

I've started showering late at night when I know I am alone in the shower. For some reason, I am terrified of seeing her there. I am sure her body is so perfect I can't stop staring and I will probably start masturbating while staring at her.

And I don't want her to see me naked. To her, I will look like the mom I am. Soft, round, old.

For fuck's sake Jenny, you are 26! I am spinning again, my mind is racing and only saying negative things. How she will hate my big tits, how ugly my body is, how...

Just stop it! Get a grip.

I put on clothes and go back to my room.

I need sleep.

The next day when I call John I talk to Julia first. I miss my daughter so much, but she is so strong, so fucking strong. I need to get better for her. I miss her so much.

I tell John about the new girl and he starts laughing. He says I sound like I'm in love and I ask him how I can be in love with someone I haven't even spoken to. But he tells me I can do and be whatever I want.

I don't deserve him.

The first time I talked to her is after another group session where I made an ass of myself. I cried again in front of everyone and this time I didn't even talk, it just came and then I couldn't stop. And all I want right now is to hide in my room and that is the time she decides to talk to me.

I just wanna die. My eyes are all puffy and I'm sniveling, it's humiliating.

"Hi, I'm Carol".

"Jenny", I stutter and wipe my nose.

"I know, I asked". She smiles and I melt before her. It is illegal to be this beautiful,

"You what?" I stare dumbfounded at her.

"I asked who you were", she laughs and it is like rain on my dry soul. "You are so fucking intriguing just sitting there all mysterious and shit".

I have no idea what to say to that. I might be staring, and she smiles that gorgeous smile, and I just want to devour her right here in front of everyone. Instead, I open my big stupid mouth and talk.

"Wanna have a smoke?"

"Sure"

We walk up one floor and out on the roof where everyone goes to smoke. I fish up a pack from my ugly sweatpants (what the fuck was I thinking) and offer her one.

We light up and for a few minutes I watch her smoke, those gorgeous lips around the cigarette, the way she blows out the smoke, forming her lips, trying to make a smoke ring. I'm soaked.

I make a weird excuse and flee, I can't stay. I will say something stupid or inappropriate and she will hate me or realize what a total mess I am.

I don't even say goodbye.

I just stand up and leave.

Go to my room, lock the door, drop my pants, and start fingering.

I cum so fast and so hard I almost start crying.

I need to call John.

I woke up the next morning to a knock on my door.

No one ever knocks on my door.

The nurses just walk in, but they always come at the same time so it's ok.

And I don´t have any friends here.

I kinda panic.

I bet they are kicking me out.

They don't want me here.

They have realized that they can't help me.

I almost get a panic attack and instead, sit up in bed and breathe deeply.

Knock knock.

I stand up and go to the door.

Yeah, it's Carol.

Fuck!

My hair is a total mess, I never bothered taking off my make-up last night so I bet it's smeared all over my face. I'm wearing a short T-shirt and.... fuck, that's all I'm wearing. I hate my life right now.

"Wanted to check if you were going to breakfast?" Carol is all smiles, newly showered and is fucking glowing with youth and beauty. I feel like an old witch.

I try to say something but all that comes out is a cough and I die on the spot.

"Maybe you wanna shower first?" She looks at me with those big beautiful eyes and I can only imagine what I look like to her.

I know my big tits strain to get out in this t-shirt and I don't even wanna think about how big of a mess my face and hair are, and as far as the rest, I know the t-shirt is short and I pray to god I am not flaunting my cunt right now.

"Yeah, I need a shower", my voice is raspy and thick, and I am about to close the door when she walks in and sits down on my bed.

"Cozy room!!" She looks around the tiny room and the clothes spread everywhere, the books and poems taped to the walls.

I just stand there, not sure what to do.

"Take a shower, I'll wait". She smiles with her whole face and I turn around to look for a towel and leave for the showers.

Stepping out of the shower I dry my hair as best I can and turn around to put on my clothes when I realize that I did not bring any.

Fuck!

What is wrong with me, it's like I've lost the ability to think. I wrap the towel around my body and leave the showers and walk to my room. Luckliy I don't meet anyone on the way.

Carol is sitting on my bed looking through a magazine. Her blue hair is pinned back with two hairpins showing off all the rings in her ears and her beautiful neck. She has thick black eyeliner around her eyes and the thin ring in her nose is changed for a thicker one with a pearl. It is beyond sexy. Her thick lips are painted a discreet red that somehow works with her blue hair. She has a white, very tight t-shirt with The Cure on it, and her small nipples are showing through. Again she is wearing a short plaid skirt but this time in darker colors and the way she is sitting I can see some of her white silk panties underneath.

"I'm just gonna put on some clothes", I say, meaning that she should probably turn around since I need to get naked first.

"I figured since I've never seen you at breakfast only wearing a towel", she looks at me and makes no move to turn around or look away.

How can this tiny teen be so in control, so confident? I just stand there, frozen.

"Breakfast is over soon, you know", she smiles again and I think Fuck it and drop the towel and start looking around for some clothes. I don't dare looking at her and I'm too scared to find out if she is looking at me, so I just grab a dress I like and pull it over my head and down over my body. My tits are too big for it but I fix them and it looks ok. At least it's tight enough that they won't fall out.

It's kinda stuck on my wide hips and I have to pull it down over my ass.

"Wow, you have a pornstar body!"

"What?"

"You have a stunning body! I wish I had big tits like you".

I am speechless and mumble thanks I think, I feel like I could throw up right now.

"So should we go?" she stands up and moves towards the door.

"I need to do something with my hair and maybe add some make-up", I stammer.

"Nah, you are such a milf you look amazing as you are", she opens the door and walks out.

What the fuck just happened?

The breakfast is a complete blur.

I talk to her, but I have no idea what I'm saying.

She is very talkative and so natural and funny. Just completely relaxed and non-weird in a way I have aspired my whole life to be. She is much younger than me and it makes me feel like a dirty old lady. When I can I look at her up close, she is the most beautiful thing I have seen and I want her so bad. I can't help but wonder what her cunt looks like, her tiny breasts and her perfectly shaped ass.

I wanna kiss her lips, taste her mouth and tongue.

I wanna touch her breasts, feel her hard nipples between my fingers, feel her smooth skin, her flat belly.

I wanna feel the heat from her cunt, her wetness. I wanna finger her. Suck on her clit, fingerfuck her, eat her ass.

I want her so bad I can't even eat my breakfast.

The thing is, I know how to get a man, I've always been good with that. But women. They intimidate me, they make me nervous and I have no idea what to do. Most of the women I've been with have been in threesomes or sleepovers when younger. But this, one on one with a beautiful woman? I was out in deep water, completely lost.

I want so badly to tell her how beautiful I find her, how much I love her blue hair, and how sexy her slim boyish body is. But instead, I talk about some TV show and say weird things about my husband.

I need to get away from this table. Or I could just fake fainting and just fucking pass out.

"Do you wanna fuck?" She looks at me all seriously.

I stammer something unintelligible and stare at her with a dumb look on my face.

"I've been thinking about your body since you came back from the shower, and I'm not very experienced but I want to if you want to. What do you say?"

I manage to nod, but that is all. My heart is stuck in my throat and my tongue has suddenly swollen to twice its size.

"Was that a yes?" Again those big deep eyes look straight into mine.

"Yes", I croak, and she takes my hand and stands up.

"Let's go to your room."

We walk to my room in a blur, I know she is holding my hand because I can see her do it, but I feel nothing. I have so many butterflies in my stomach that it feels like my whole body is about to fly away. Even my scalp is tingling.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Sex is the only place I am confident and my escape route from life, and now this! I am acting like some virgin nun caught reading a romance novel.

I open my door, or if she opened it, I don't really know and walk into my room like a zombie. Carol walks up to me and kisses me on the mouth.

I don't kiss back.

I don't do anything.

She takes my hand and moves it under her short skirt and places it over her panties. She is so warm and soaking wet.

This time when she kisses me I nervously open my mouth and accept her tongue. It is wonderful. Her lips are so soft and full and she nibbles at mine and our tongues meet and the kiss gets deeper. She tastes like strawberry and she presses her wet cunt against my hand and it feels wonderful.

Both of her hands grab my hair and she kisses me more aggressively and I can't help but moan. Her tongue explores my mouth and I close my eyes and just drown in the feel of her lips against mine. I rub her cunt outside her wet panties and she opens her legs for me. She lets one of her hands fall to my tits and pinches my nipple. I whimper in her mouth and she pinches harder before she lets it drop lower and in under my dress. I am not wearing underwear and am thanking myself for remembering to shave last night, leaving my wet cunt totally bare and smooth.

Two of her fingers find their way into my heat and at the same time, I tug down her panties and enter her cunt with two of mine. She is also totally bare and so very tight. Her cunt is pressing my fingers together and the feeling is so exciting I can't help but try with a third finger. We are still making out like teenagers and I can feel both of us are about to lose our balance. I let go of her mouth and gulp for air before I tell her to move to my bed.

I rip off my dress and thow it in a corner and watch her step out of her skirt and t-shirt. She is not wearing a bra but she pulls down her panties and her body is pure perfection. Short, skinny, and smooth. Her breasts are hardly more than two small pink nipples hard from excitement. Flat tummy and a small bare cunt so beautiful it hurts.

She lays down on her back and I kneel on the floor in front of her.

I kiss her cunt lightly before licking her slit from her ass to her tummy.

Strawberry and vanilla and sex.

I could cum right now but I am too greedy and I want it all.

I enter her with my tongue and close my eyes to let the sensation of her body take me away. I know I am good at this and it takes no time before she is whimpering and pushing her wet cunt against my mouth. I love the sounds she makes and I want to spend the rest of my life listening to them. I don't just want her for now.

I want her for always.

I stop what I am doing and stand up in front of her. Her eyes are even bigger now and the look she gives me is so disappointed and turned on that I almost feel bad for her.

Almost.

"Patience my little goth girl", I climb up with her and sit down over her face. I slowly lower my ass towards her mouth and she doesn't waste a second before I can feel her tongue finding its way into my cunt. I lean forward and lower my head between her thighs, opening my mouth and devouring her beautiful cunt.

If I died right now, I would die happy.

It doesn't take long before we are both cumming in each other's mouths and I am shaking. The orgasm takes over my whole body and I moan and cry while it takes over my body in waves of pleasure.

Of course, I tell John everything later when I talk to him. I have never been able to keep a secret and I would be horrible at cheating. He says he is happy that I am happy and I love him more than ever.

He asks about my new meds and I tell him that it feels good and then we talk about our daughter and I hang up crying again.

I miss her so much.