Hi all - this story is not the lusty, depraved romps I've been writing. It's just a cute lesbian story. Kinda vanilla, but sometimes I just want a latte. Be nice ;)
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When her mouth finds mine, I don't know what to do... or think... or feel... or have any response beyond a moan. Is it relief? Is it ecstasy? Anticipation? Surprise?
No, not surprise. I knew this was coming, though perhaps I thought certainly it would have been me kissing her.
Her hand travels up my shirt, this stupid Hello Kitty teeshirt that I wore like an idiot. I wasn't even being ironic. I genuinely like the shirt... but not as much as glancing down to see her hand beneath it cupping my breast. I can feel how hard my nipples have become, and clearly she knows; she's rolling them between her fingers. She isn't wear a bra either, brave of her considering the rack she has pressed against me. My own bee stings are just as exposed, though who would notice if I wasn't aroused.
At a romance writer's conference. Me, not aroused. Why don't I think things through?
I've heard her poetry. She's not the shallow type, but it didn't stop her from examining my chest.
Dear god, she's exquisite. And that tongue of hers wrapping around mine. The scent of her dark, glossy hair... cinnamon sugar and something else.
I feel like I've known her forever, the words of her poetry traveling straight to my soul, finding my scars and vulnerable underbelly, entering me and warming me from the inside. Goddamn, that's a metaphor right there. And if that's not enough, I think she's about to fuck me. Hard to believe we only met this morning.
It wouldn't have happened if either of us had arrived on time to the _Sex Scenes that Sell_ lecture. See, I'm not much of a planner. My success is limited to activities that tolerate an extreme amount of lateness. I'm generally known as a flake. I don't have much experience with romance or sex either, but you wouldn't know it. The one thing I'm particularly good at is simulating something I know nothing about and completely faking my ass off. I've gotten myself into an out of number of sticky situations this way, but it's a living.
There was standing room only, and that was in the foyer. That is to say, the ballroom serving the Sex Scenes lecture was so over capacity that a fire marshal might have passed out on the spot. A breezy blend of floral perfume and pachouli stink hit me in the face as I tried to see over heads and strained to hear. It was no use, and this as I'm six foot one in heels.
"Excuse me," I said to the woman with a conference badge and a radio, "I registered for this lecture. Is there no seating inside?"
The woman had the simmering look of a person that was just about over it. Her tone was only mildly impatient. "Registration software error. EVERYONE was registered."
"Yeah but... I paid..."
"Send an email to the conference coordinator. It's in your welcome packet."
"But..."
"Look, if you want to make use of this time, there are other workshops happening right now. Find one you like and go. Here..." The woman wrote her initials on the back of a tattered, elderly business card that has seen many pockets, and a note that said 'admit one on account of jackassery'. "If anyone gives you shit, have them radio Stella."
Because of course her name was Stella.
So I meandered away from the ballroom and checked the meeting agenda on my app. There was only one other workshop happening now.
I reached the door to Erotic Poetry, and at first I thought I had the wrong room. It looked set for an audience, but no one was in there. Correction. There was exactly one person in there: the presenter.
"Come in come in, have a seat!" said the woman in a musical lilt. She was tall, though not as tall as me, with long white hair down to her bum and skin that looked easily 20 years younger than I suspected it should.
"This is Erotic Poetry?" I asked, walking down the aisle between banks of gray hotel chairs.
"I know, it's underwhelming," said the woman. "It's my own fault for booking my session during a Hugo winner's lecture on sex."
"They gave me this card."
"You keep that, darling. If you'd come in off the street you'd be welcome here."
A voice sounded at the door. "Erotic Poetry?"
I turned and my heart quickened. She was raven-haired and curvy in the extreme, with a proud nose, lips like a bow, and eyes that hinted of secrets. Then I noticed her black and white dress was printed with white skulls and roses, the choker she wore had sharp studs, and her nose ring was a serpent eating its tail. Lashes for days and blood-wine lips pointed in my direction. Leather boots climb to her knees, and she swayed broadly as she walked in, her movement feminine and dangerous.
Never before had I felt so much like a lumberjack. I unconsciously tested my breath. For the record, it was fine.
"Didn't fit in the Sex Scene session?" I asked as she approached.
"Fuck no, I signed up for this workshop," she said, her voice dusky with just a hint of the south in her articulations. "I know how to write sex. I want to write sexual art."
"You are in the right place," said the presenter. "My name is Tamsin. And if this is all, perhaps we can take our class somewhere more interesting, hm?"
The hotel coffee shop was a small affair with reading nooks and large picture windows at the rear of the outlet. The windows overlooked the canals and a gondola poling by. The three of us scooted together, our laptops crowding the small table. I sat on one side with my fellow classmate. Workshop mate? Anyhow.
"Well, this is intimate, isn't it." Tamsin sat over her steaming cup of black coffee and leaned forward. "Let's talk about sex."
"Ba-by," hummed my workshop mate, who introduced herself as Lilith. The jewel in the eye of her snake nose ring glittered at me.
Tamsin smiled. "What kind of sex do you like?"
I cleared my throat. "Ha, um. No ice breakers, huh?"
"Passionate," said Lilith. "Intense."
"That's all?" said Tamsin.
Lilith scoffed. "Do it right, and that's enough."
"Do you prefer men, women, both?"
"Prefer women, but I'll wet a pole."
My face went hot. I suddenly felt this door crack open between me and the woman with her thigh pressed to mine. Which is fucking presumptuous, but like... she was sooooo uuuugh. And I hadn't had sex in...
So, my ex-wife and I had years of disconnection, and the exit was a slow burn-out. I was physically, emotionally, and intellectually exhausted by the idea of another relationship, but that doesn't mean I wasn't horny. I'm also very selective and that left me alone and I'm good with that. Mostly. Except when I feel like I did sitting next to Lilith.
"You look nervous," said Tamsin. I could feel Lilith's gaze burning the side of my cheeks.
"Aren't we supposed to learn how to write poetry?" I said.
"This is a workshop," said Tamsin. "We learn by doing."
Her emphasis of the word 'doing' sent a shiver through my abdomen, and I could feel my body... lubricating. Fuck, this was going to be a long hour.
"So, how about you?" she asked me. "What kind of sex do you like, Elysia?"
"Same, I guess."
"No, no," grinned Tamsin. "We all do our own assignments."
"Um... I like... a bit of everything really."
"Be specific."
Fuck, was Lilith just staring at me? I didn't dare take my eyes from Tamsin's. Or did that make me look too intense? I looked at the table.
"I like... slow, soft touches on my body. Firm, warm touches in my erogenous zones. I... prefer to be submissive, but I like a game of sexual chess now and again, so I'll take a dominant role to play a round or two."
Tamsin was quiet. Appraising. Goddammit, I felt more words coming out of my mouth.
"I like to be bound, spanked, forced to my knees...fingered and eaten slowly. I love anal play and usually can't cum without something in my ass. But I really prefer to do those things for someone else."
"Good, good. Let it all out, honey," said Lilith.
My face burned.
"And I like girls," I said. "Exclusively."
I think... I think Lilith's smile disappeared.
"Thank you," said Tamsin. "I did mean more on the emotional spectrum, but all details add to the discourse swirling inside your sexual spheres. And that's what we want to find in the erotic. Eros is all about needs, a sublimated instinct to propagate, and we ride this instinct most definitely with no intention to propagate, but to emote. Emotions communicate the strength and insistence of this instinct. Emotions separate erotica from porn. And that's what we want to tap into with poetry, dig deep into the depths of your sexual souls... or perhaps employ restraint, build tension."
"I'll employ restraint," said Lilith behind her coffee cup.
"You have thoughts, Lilith?" said Tamsin. "Please share."
"I don't know. Does sex have to be all emotional?"
"You said you enjoy passionate sex."
"You can have passion without emotion."
"Can you?" said Tamsin. "Passion is a derivative of emotional magnitude, if such a thing could be measured."
"I don't feel particularly emotional during sex," said Lilith. "But I do feel passion."
"Perhaps you don't feel love during sex," said Tamsin. "But if you experience passion, you are having strong emotions indeed. Perhaps that's exactly what you need your poetry to explore and unlock."
I nod. "Right, like, poetry for yourself instead of for others."
"Poetry is always an expression of self," said Tamsin, "whether personal or projected. It may be commercialized, but it's not a commercial proposition."
Lilith fondled her coffee cup. "Are we... going to get pointers? Maybe do some writing?"
Tamsin smiled but said nothing. She looked back and forth between Lilith and me. And we looked at her.
Finally Lilith said, "What's happening here?"
"You feel that?" said Tamsin.