Chapter. 01: the first day
The hotel receptionist looked up, his expression bland.
"Mrs Eleanor Cavendish and Ms Lucy Brook? Here for the university reunion? I have your booking here. If you'll wait while I get your keys."
He tapped at his computer, handing over a pair of key-cards.
"Room 461. It's on the fourth floor."
Eleanor said: "it's a twin bedroom, right?"
The receptionist looked at his computer screen.
"It's a double, isn't that what you booked?"
Ellie looked at Lucy.
"We said twin, didn't we?"
Lucy nodded.
"Can you give us a different room please?"
Lucy hadn't changed, Ellie thought. It'd been ten years since they'd seen each other, and Lucy was still the same. Her black hair was still as dark as ebony, her skin still smooth and lightly freckled, her dancing green eyes lighting up her face.
The clerk looked up.
"I'm sorry," he said, "we're completely full. I can try another hotel, if you like?"
Lucy shrugged.
"We'll cope. It's too late to go traipsing around."
The two women carried their bags to the lift. It was the first time they'd been alone in over a decade, and the silence was slightly uncomfortable. One wall of the lift was a mirror, and they studied each other as they rose to their floor.
"You look great", Ellie said, "you haven't changed at all!"
She looked at herself in the mirror. Her hair was still the glowing auburn it'd been all her life, her skin a clear cream, but underneath the subtle make-up, she knew only too well that the wrinkles were starting to gather at the corner of her eyes.
Lucy laughed, "I can't believe the change in you."
Ellie felt looked momentarily uncomfortable. In the mirror, she saw Lucy reach out, she felt her hand on her shoulder.
"I mean - you look so sophisticated, you used to wear all that hippy gear, and look at you now! So grown-up, in a suit and everything, I'm really quite envious."
Ellie said: "sophisticated, moi?"
In the mirror they laughed together, the ice broken.
The lift door slid open, and they walked to their room.
"It's swish," Lucy said, "I don't usually get to stay in places like this."
Ellie felt more at home.
"My work takes me away a lot, you become immune to it."
She swung her bag onto the rack.
"Do you need to have a shower?"
Lucy said: "seems pretty luxurious to me. Sure, been a long day. OK if I go first?"
They walked around the room talking about their time together at university, hanging clothes, kicking off shoes, conspicuously not looking at the double bed, making an effort not to bump into each other. Lucy disappeared into the bathroom, and Ellie listened to her showering, singing quietly to herself.
She took her green silk chemise from her bag and laid it on the bed, separating out her bathroom things, make-up cleanser, hair equipment, toothbrush and paste. She looked at the bed.
"I hope she doesn't remember," she said to herself.
"Remember what?"
Lucy stood in the door to the bathroom, rubbing her hair with a towel, wrapped in a hotel dressing gown.
"Oh, I promised Claire I'd call her before bedtime," Ellie lied.
"Your daughter?"
"Yes, nearly seven, believe it or not. Sam won't mind, he's only two, Bill's looking after them. He's a good dad, he so good with them."
Lucy was sorting out her pyjamas: a girlish pink pair, with checked trousers.
"Cute," Ellie said.
Lucy looked at the green chemise.
"Sexy," she said, with a smile.
Eleanor stood in the shower, holding her hair back from the water, washing the stress of her journey away. Hair brushed, teeth cleaned, she slipped into her silk nightwear.
"Absurdly short," she said, "really, not practical at all."
She loosened the straps over her smooth, creamy shoulders, gaining a few precious centimetres.
She thought: "at least it's half-way down my thighs now..."
In the mirror, she closed her eyes. "Lucy wouldn't remember, there's no way... not after the life she's had."
The bedroom was already dark. The street lights from outside lit the room a comforting orange. Ellie could see that Lucy was already in bed, lying next to the window. She lifted the duvet and slipped in beside her. The sheets were cool, the night was cold. On another occasion, she'd have wrapped her legs around her husband to warm herself up.
Ellie lay in bed, trying to keep still, trying to take her mind off the woman sleeping alongside her. Or was she sleeping? It seemed that she was lying unnaturally still.
She whispered: "Lucy?"
"Yes?"
"I wondered if you were asleep."
"No, I was just wondering about how weird this is. Thinking about it, when we were in halls together, we weren't really that close, were we?"
Ellie ran her hand through her long auburn hair, thinking she'd have to wash it in the morning.
"I suppose not, I just remember you were always there - at the parties, in the lectures, in the bar."
They laughed together. Ellie felt Lucy turn around in the bed.
"Do you remember that party we had after finals?"
Ellie pretended not to remember.
"Was that at Joe's?"
Lucy tutted.
"It was at mine! I don't believe you've forgotten it."
Lucy's pout was lost in the dark.
"You crashed really early, and stole my bed!"
Ellie said: "oh, that party..."
Lucy repeated: " 'oh, that party'," with emphasis.
"I don't remember much."
"I do, I remember it very well."
In the night light, Ellie blushed. She said lightly: "oh yes, of course."
Lucy said, her voice mock-outraged: "you made a pass at me!"
"I did not!"
"You so did."
Lucy shifted in the bed.
"I was just reaching out to hold your hand, I didn't know you were naked."
Lucy laughed a dirty laugh.
"I never wore pyjamas then!"
"And I didn't wear silk!"
They were both wide awake. Ellie said: "it is gorgeous, isn't it?"
Lucy said simply: "I love silk, and that colour is perfect with your hair and your skin. You look like a Irish elf princess."
Ellie said: "bloody ancestors, I can't go anywhere sunny. I don't tan, I just go straight through to sunstroke."
Lucy reached out under the duvet, taking Ellie's hands between hers.
"I'm glad you came," she said.
Ellie said: "I wouldn't miss this for the world."
"The reunion?"
"No! I mean, catching up with you. We shouldn't have left it so long."
Lucy said: "you're so sweet."
She moved her head across the pillows, lightly kissing her friend. In the dark, her lips brushed the corner of her mouth. Ellie wondered: was it her imagination or had there been a suggestive hesitation? It had certainly felt like it.
She said lightly: "you're funny."
And then: "I bought this for myself, I won't tell you how much it cost, I was in New York and I just fell in love with it. Too short, of course, but just gorgeous."
Lucy said: "good quality silk, then."
Ellie said: "feel it."
There was a distinct pause, then Lucy reached out, touching her friend under the duvet. Ellie felt the woman's hand on her side, sliding down to her belly.
"I can't believe you've had two kids, you're so trim!"
Ellie said: "thank you... I try."
Lucy's hand was still on her tummy, slowly moving around her waist. Ellie closed her eyes. The woman's hand was drifting around on her. Apparently randomly her fingertips brushed the material that lay in the region above her pubes. Ellie let out an audibly deep breath, waiting to feel where those hands were going to next.
Lucy said: "they are so much smoother than my cotton pjs!"
She took Ellie's hand, and guided it to her breast.
Ellie leapt, pulling her hand away. That firm, hard nipple was clearly prominent beneath the pink cotton - it was an unashamed statement of lust. All of a sudden, Ellie felt overwhelmed with the novelty, the speed and that unmistakable naughtiness of that woman's erect nipple.
Ellie said: "I can't, Lucy, I really can't."
Lucy sounded disappointed: "don't you owe it to yourself to find out?"
Ellie felt herself swayed by this argument. Ten years ago, she'd finally plucked up enough courage to make a drunken pass, but had backed away, made excuses. And for years after, she'd lain in bed, her hand between her legs wondering what would have happened if she had said "yes", instead of "no". She'd had countless orgasms, imagining Lucy's mouth, her fingers, her tongue.
Ellie knew what she ought to say, and yet her body wouldn't, couldn't lie any more.
"You're so naughty," she whispered, "but I need to know... I'm getting so wet..."
Lucy propped herself up on her elbow. In the streetlight, Ellie could see her black hair falling over her shoulders.
Lucy sounded concerned.