"I've got to introduce you to Mar," Gail said, after we'd just finished fucking in her car.
"Who's Mar?" I gasped out, my own breathing still heavy.
"My girlfriend," Gail said. "I want you to meet her, I think you'd love her."
My feelings were, to say the least, kind of confused at that point. I'd just been made love to by a beautiful woman for the very first time, and I'd finally ended my bad marriage to an irresponsible shit.
So, I was trying to sort out the afterglow of lovemaking, complicated with the shock and disappointment of having someone actively making sure that I experience the greatest possible pleasure, but who was not in love with me, but rather someone else, and I needed to find a space to think about things. I answered Gail rather absently, I suppose she might have thought I wasn't happy with her, I don't know, but she kissed me. She looked at me contemplatively, her expression highlighted by the dashboard lights.
"You didn't expect that I'd have a girlfriend, did you?" she said, sympathetically, idly brushing back a lock of red hair from above her sea-green eyes.
"No, I, no...I, I don't know," I responded. "I guess, I guess I thought that you weren't, um, seeing anyone and so...". I looked down at the floor of the car. I could still smell the heavy musk of our combined fluids, rich and so evocative of our mutual pleasure.
"And so, I was attracted to you, and maybe...maybe we could build a relationship?" she asked.
I nodded. I felt a slight pain in my chest.
"I AM attracted to you. I don't fuck just any girl that comes along! But I AM in love with Mar, and we live together, and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. That doesn't mean that neither she nor I can express love and friendship to other people."
"And I think you're someone that both of us would love, and would very much want as a friend. And that doesn't happen every day - believe me!" She looked directly into my eyes, and I felt an outpouring of warmth for her, both for the things she'd said, and for the way she'd said it. If only men could learn to tell the truth like that, we'd all be much happier. My eyes filled, and I blinked, trying to keep the tears from actually forming, but a small tear ran down my right cheek.
Gail saw the tear, and gently kissed it, taking me in her arms. I hugged her, and I felt so close to her then, though there was that aching disappointment inside me.
"Would you come home with me?" Gail asked tentatively, her eyes searching mine. I looked away.
"Oh, no," I said. "I've got to understand these feelings, please. Gail, I want to think about what you said, and what this all means, okay?" My eyes returned to hers. They seemed almost magnetic.
Gail looked at me intently. "Okay, but only if you'll let me call you in a few days, and invite you over," she said. That sounded safe to me.
"Okay," I said. I gave her my number, then she kissed me and hugged me again. I was so acutely aware of her body then. Her body's warmth sank deep into my soul, her strength was clear and certain in the touch of her hands on my arms. The smell of her perfume, and her breath, and the recesses of her sweet being filled my nostrils, making my clitoris throb and pulse yet again. I knew though, that I should be by myself for a while - it really WOULD be the best thing, now.
We dressed, then Gail drove me the few short blocks to my apartment building. We kissed at parting, and I entered the building, missing her already. I entered my small, empty apartment, fed Chloe and Otis, my two cats, then stripped down and prepared for bed, putting on my favorite nightgown, a white, embroidered lace full length gown, and lay down on the bed, hoping I would fall asleep. My brown hair spread out over the pillow, and the lace of the gown. My body was tired, but my head was spinning with all that had happened, and the significant changes my life had just gone through. In the matter of a few hours, I had gone from a depressed, poor heterosexual to an elated AND depressed, poor bisexual, or possibly even lesbian.
I lay in bed, unable to sleep, depressed about what had happened with Gail, but in a whirl about the 180 degree change my sexuality had just made. Finally, a growing horniness, plus a desire to do SOMETHING that would let me sleep, drove me to the Internet, to see if I could find some pornographic sites that would let me rub myself to some kind of crude orgasm, so that I COULD sleep. It would be nothing like the pleasure that Gail had brought me, but still....
I went to Google, and typed in 'lesbian', to see what would come up. I got a lot of sites that had lifestyle guidance, something I thought I might very well need, but not at that moment. Right then, I wanted to try to recreate the sense of love, and need, and caring and well, romance, that I'd felt with Gail, combined with the overwhelming sensation of lust. Was that so much to ask?
So I tried 'lesbian fiction' plus 'erotic stories', and then pushed the 'I'm Feeling Lucky' tab (well, I was!) Anyway, that led me to a site called "Literotica." You'll have to find it on your own - I hope you will!
That sounded about right, as it seemed to have stories both well-written and extremely sexy. Of course, I went to the section titled "Lesbian Sex", and that was just what I needed. Oh my god, the stories were so beautiful. That night, that was EXACTLY what I wanted. I picked out 'Rest Stop', by someone named Evil Alpaca, as it was listed on the front page of their most highly ranked stories.