Dream 03 My Special Massage

This past year has been a stressful one for me. The divorce has hit me and my kids hard. They're still having a hard time understanding what happened and I don't know how to explain to a couple of toddlers why their dad isn't around all that much except for a weekend here and there. They just don't understand and I've been left to deal with it since he doesn't really talk to them about it. I leave work, pick them up from the sitters', get home, fix them and myself dinner, feed the dog, get them ready for bed, and then, and only then are things quieting down enough to relax a bit. I usually relax in front of the computer catching up on emails, bills, and such while the kids watch one of their favorite movies before bedtime. At least they're preschoolers and I don't have to worry about helping with homework yet. But I do work with them on their ABC's and simple arithmetic, making sure they'll be ready for kindergarten.

I know I need to start living again, but I'm just not ready to get involved with anyone again, just yet anyway. I don't want to sleep around and have meaningless dates either. Maybe a day at a spa? Nah....I need something more than that. Something to make me feel like a real woman again, tomake me feel desirable and sexy....all that at the same time without being involved with someone. I do remember, now that I think about it, a friend once asking me if I ever checked out Tantric massage. I told her I had never heard of it. Hmmmm...maybe I should check it out. I sign up for a session quickly before I can change my mind.

The sign on the door said "Open, come in". So, I let myself in, not sure what to expect. I've had massages before, but nothing like this, especially from a man I don't know. No man has touched my personal areas since my ex, and that's been a while. I'm nervous...hands shaking a little, but at the same time I feel my heart racing in such a way that I haven't felt in a long time. Just thinking about this has me feeling a little moist down there. Gosh, I'll be so embarrassed if he notices that right off. But I'm sure I'm not the first woman coming to him and having this type of massage for the first time.

As I walk in, the glow of candlelight filled the room and soft music embraced me.

"Feel free to undress, lie down on the table and relax to the music. I'll be with you in a minute," a calm voice calls from the next room.

As I lay back amidst rose petals dreaming and contemplating of what is to come, I can't help but thinking that voice wasn't what I expected. It was a somewhat low voice, but not all that manly. It had some femininity to it. Then I hear the voice again, coming closer. I turn my head towards the row of candles and am blown away by what I saw, or should I say, WHO I saw walking towards me. My heart rate raised to a new level when I saw this beautiful figure of a woman approaching me.

The candlelight gave me just enough light to see she was wearing a very sexy white laced teddy, and the soft glow rimming her long curly hair sent chills up and down my body. I never dreamed I'd ever have such an angelic looking creature standing over me and about to lay her hands on areas of my body that only men have reached. But thinking back, I must admit I have seen a few women in my time that I felt were very attractive in ways that I never thought I would. But I never thought anything of it. And now here I am. Am I going to be exploring my new sexuality? Or should I say is SHE going to help me explore my new sexuality? I know I still like men, but now I'm starting to feel a bit turned onny another woman?

"You look a little nervous...am I right?" she asked with a slight smile on her face.

"I guess I am a little. I had no idea I was going to see another woman for this. My friend gave me your name and number, but when she said your name was Van, I guess I just assumed...."

"That I was a man due to my name and somewhat huskier voice", she broke in. "I get that a lot. My name is actually Vanessa, but I go by Van at work. And just to clear the air, I am bi-sexual. I hope that doesn't bother you... And like you, I just assumed you knew I was a woman, so I went ahead and made the appointment with you. If you want to stop right now and cancel the appointment, I'll understand, but given the chance, I bet I can make you feel pretty special tonight."

I couldn't take my eyes off of her when I said, "Bother me? I can honestly say that surprisingly, it doesn't...one bit", I blurted. "I can also admit that when I first walked in to your studio and felt the warmth of the candlelight and the whole idea of what was about to happen, I actually felt sensually turned on like I haven't felt in a very long time. Then you walked in, and those feelings skyrocketed!"

"I'm glad", she said with a smile. "Because I felt this quivering sensation overtake me as I got closer to you. Seeing you lying there in the glow of my candlelight gave me the same feelings."

"Well, let's just say you won't need much lube with me tonight", I said as I winked with a smirk. "And I'm going to have to buy my friend a VERY expensive bottle of wine for setting me up with you!" I laughingly said.

"Shall we get started, then?" she asked with a soft smile. "I do want to mention one thing, and that it's very important that we remain in contact with each other during this session, not speaking, but with eye contact. Let our eyes do the talking. There will be times when I'll ask you questions on how I can change my tempo or pressure, but until then, just keep your eyes on me and above all else, breathe! One other thing. My goal here is not solely to give you an orgasm, although it can be a welcome and pleasant side effect. I am here to give you pleasure and massage your Yoni..."

"Okay," I say.

You position a pillow under my head so as to give me visual access to my "sacred space"...my Yoni. Another pillow is under my hips, and if need be for comfort, under each knee as my legs are spread and bent. I feel your fingertips work your way up to my head ever so lightly, touching my skin, starting with my knees, up my thighs, tummy, chest, and shoulders. Using only the best of oils, you want to relax me by gently massaging my upper body and legs...starting at my shoulders. I feel your hands work their way down to the outer portions of my breasts, squeezing gently, massaging, and moving under and around each mound of flesh, grazing each nipple with your thumb. You remind me gently that it is important that I try to relax and breathe deeply. Your hands work their way up under my chin, then you move them down between my breasts, one hand following the other to below my ribcage, tummy, and pelvis just above my mound, then spread outwardly and down to each hip and pulling your hands back upwards to my sides and back to my ribcage on either side of my breasts. Two or three times of that should put me where I need to be before you give me that same soft and sensual massage of my inner thighs, relaxing me into a blissful trance. You have to remind me once again that breathing is important, as is eye contact.

You brush the hair off my forehead and look deeply into my eyes...You let a few drops of oil drop on to my mound just above my clit. Not much, but enough to trickle down each side and on top of the outer lips of my Yoni...You take my outer lips between your thumb and middle finger slowly massaging them the full length from top to bottom, and to the top again, changing your speed and pressure as you go. You ask me to let you know if you need to change anything and remind me that that is the only thing we'll talk about. All other conversations will be with our eyes.

After massaging my outer lips on both sides, you do the same to my inner lips...taking your time, not rushing. I'm just enjoying the softness and moistness of my flesh, your tender touch spreading the oil around this sensitive spot, and feeling the pleasure within. You then move into my inner walls with your middle finger...mmmmmm, so good it feels as your finger moves up and down my entrance, working in and out, moving up under my clit and back down the other side. Again, you ask you to let me know if I need to speed up, slow down, or change the pressure you are applying.

Then you use your second finger, the one next to your pinky to add to the stimulation, working your way around inside me. With a little lubricant, you'll slowly take your pinky and let it run around the outer edges of my tight little anus. You must be hearing my sighs of pleasure as your fingertip traces my butt hole. I've never allowed anyone to venture there before. Maybe it's your soft touch. I don't know, but I'm finding myself wanting it inside me there. How can I come out and say that? You're not forcing the issue, but you must be noticing my breathing intensify. How can you not?

Gazing deeply in your eyes I thought maybe a pleasant smile might show you how much I'm enjoying that. But maybe I'm forcing the issue? I find myself rolling my ass towards your finger, begging to feel it inside me. With your right hand working on my pussy and ass, and left hand softly massaging my upper body and tummy, I'm really finding it hard to relax and keep that eye contact. The breathing part is not a problem, as my chest is heaving up and down. I hear you whisper to yourself that you wouldn't need any lube for this, as I have enough cum flowing from my pussy downward to my little pink asshole. Plenty to help you gain easier access with your pinky...and maybe more I think to myself.

And what is it with the language I'm using in my own personal thoughts? Pussy? Asshole? Cum? I really feel an awakening with my sexuality now. Not only being in this situation with another woman, but to allow my thoughts to be so open minded. I'm a changed woman right under the hands of this goddess! Noticing my juices trickling down between my cheeks, I feel your pinky fingertip find them and draw them down to my wanting hole. A little more rimming, and then the excitement of the penetration of your little finger parting my tight hole.

You're taking your time, knowing it's probably my first time. But you also know that I'm enjoying it, so you try to keep the rhythm with your other two fingers in my pussy. With each movement massaging my Yoni, I feel you go deeper inside my anus. My hips move in unison with your movements, keeping in rhythm with you. Looking into your eyes, I think you're getting as sexually high as I am. I see your breathing intensify with each stroke. You decide to reposition your fingers, taking your right ring finger out of my pussy and replacing it with your forefinger. Your ring finger now joins your pinky inside me slowly. My eyes must be showing my pleasure and my mouth agape as your two fingers become one inside my sweet bottom. You must sense a little lube is needed, but instead of wasting time and taking any fingers out of me, you lean down and drop a stream of saliva down on me where you've entered my tight hole.

Mmmmmmmm.....much better....and while you're down there with your soft and sweet lips, you leave a soft kiss on my mound.

With a wink and a smile, you seem to be saying, "Maybe more of that later?"

With my pussy and asshole filled with your fingers, and with your thumb in an upward and downward motion, you lightly massage my clitoris, feeling it swell under your touch.

"Breathe baby, breathe", I tell myself...Then I feel your left hand moving down towards my mound from my tummy. Another small drop of oil just above my clit drips down either side of my pussy. I feel your middle finger spread the oil around my mound and down on my swollen clit. You stroke it with the tip of your finger first in a clockwise motion, then in a counter clockwise motion. The sensation is beyond belief! Then you take it between your thumb and forefinger, gently squeezing it. I'm wanting so much more at this point, I can't stand it! You keep this up with both hands while staring at me, knowing I want you now more than ever. I could never have known what it would have been like to be with such a beautiful and sensual woman....

Once I enter that moment of bliss, you'll be there to hold me as I ride that wave of emotions, and letting me down gently from the emotional high...caressing me all the way.

Bending over me, smiling, and holding my hand, you ask me if I'd like to extend my visit a little longer, in the other room.

I sit up...you take me by the hand and lead me to another room. You open the door and show me into another room filled with candlelight and soft music. Your aroma fills the room. You stand in front of me facing me hand in hand, eyes locked. You take a step forward, and I take one to meet you half way. I feel your fingertips touch my face and cheeks, then lips. My hands automatically go to you and your teddy, slipping it off your shoulders baring your soft but firm breasts. My hands peel your teddy off your body while you help by wiggling out of it in such a sexy way. It drops to the floor....our lips move closer to each other, taking in each other's breath. They touch, only with the slightest of pressure.

Hand in hand, you lead me backwards on to the bed, our eyes not leaving each other. We lay down, our breasts touching, our legs intertwined, in an embrace that will last for hours on end all the while tasting each other's kisses....and more.

I truly wish you good fortune in finding someone to give you a "special" massage as this, no matter your current sexual preferences...