Diversity Twins-Raya Steps Out On Madde
This continues the saga of roommates Madde and Raya, seniors at USF. On vacation in a cozy cabin on Lake Michigan, they are exploring their depth of feeling for each other. But there are some bumps in the road. In the last episode we discovered how Madde was 'willingly seduced' by a 'demure librarian' with more than a few tricks in her magic chest. Now it is Raya's turn to reveal that she hasn't exactly been 'the faithful one'. Can they reconcile and begin again?
For those looking for the more romantic side of this relationship, you will find something else here. Raya needs to tell her raunchy story, and she needs to share the 'tools' that she hopes will let Madde see what she needs. Enjoy.
"So, Raya, you're not mad?"
Raya and Madde were chilling on the porch of their vacation cottage, sipping chardonnay coolers in their rocking chairs and the feel of the lakeside breeze on their thighs. It had been a good morning swim...and stuff.
Raya reached out and patted Madde's hand.
"Of course I'm mad. But more like...hurt, Mads. It's ... like we aren't two innocent college kids just finding out that we are happy being
lezzies
with each other, and that that isn't just sex but something
more
. We were
seeing
each other like nobody else can. And..,and I guess what you did chased some of that away. And you found out that
another woman
and other kinds of sex can really get you off. And now you have to decide whether I am your O and O or just your
first. We both
need to find that out because...oh Madde...I have to be honest...I had a little
adventure
too."
"Wait...what? I've been feeling like shit because I cheated on you and all along you could have told me that you did the same thing?"
"Uh huh."
"Really? And
now
you're telling me?"
"Why would I stop you? You needed to get the whole thing off your chest. I needed to hear it. And yes,... yes, you did cheat on me and, and...shit...I wanted to hear the
whole thing. And..and
Madde, your
telling me was amazing,
not just because you were being really honest, and sharing who you really were, who you were
becoming,
but also because I started to get
not mad
any more, ...but it...
intrigued
me and...and
turned me on.
We
started
this way...like...telling each other about our...adventures...and it got us both...off. So...."
"So...?"
"So...yeah...I wanted to hear your story before I told you mine."
"Yours."
"Because yours turned out to be so much more than a story. I mean, I bet we can call up Lena any time and she would be happy to long-distance fuck either or both of us and/or the girl next door. So that's a
thing."
"
Yeah, but Raya, you did say you cheated on
me
,
right? That's what you said, right? I mean, who was she?"
"Not exactly."
"You
didn't
cheat on me...?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, I did, but it wasn't a
she."
"Wait. What?"
"Yeah, what I said."
"Wait, wait.
Really?
You're telling me you stepped out on me with a
man?
I mean, another human being who actually had...has...a
penis?
Or.... Or did you hook up with a
they/them
kind of person who...what...may or may not have had a cock? I mean, what's happening here?"
Raya went and took Madde by the shoulders and looked deep into her face, kissed her on the nose and each cheek.
"Mads, it wasn't a big thing...or rather it was
exactly
just that...and that was
all
it was really. I'm sorry, I don't know about you, but sometimes...
sometimes
...darling girl...sometimes I get this crying need for some very serious
cock
.
I mean, I just need that feeling of that warm, hard
thing
in me
,
like deep inside and churning. Not so much the banging and the thrusting. Okay, that can be seriously good, too. But it's that
fullness
and that
warmth.
I
need
it."
Madde was looking very worried. And mad. She bit her lip.
"So...so what is
this?
What are
we
?
I mean I just told you
all
about how I am getting
way
into the 'woman with other women' thing. Okay, I wasn't faithful...exclusive to you. But I'm getting loyal to my own
gender
. I'm not missing dicks, and hairy chests, and man sweat, and man smell. I
light up
now thinking about
your
body, a woman's body...yeah, okay, Lena some too. But that was
sex...
I mean it was me trying out all the ways I can be satisfied without ever getting a cock inside me. I can do it. I like it. And our woman to woman fucking is the
best
. Fucking
you,
Raya. Fucking
you
.
And now you're telling me a
man
does it for you?! Have these last few days just been you saying goodbye to
our little 'experiment'
or some shit like that? I mean, I know I have no
high ground
here, but jeez!"
Raya knew she had to let Madde work it all the way out, maybe get away from her for a while. Madde was gritting her teeth and looking from one of Raya's eyes to the other, searching for something.
"Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit!"
Madde pushed Raya away and crashed down the steps.
"NO.
Just no...don't follow me!"
Raya was going to; but she just slumped into her rocking chair and rocked. Half a dozen times she almost leapt up and went running after Madde. Where was she? Was she on the raft? Why did she explode like that? Raya had been figuring that...after Madde's whole thing with Lena...where it would have been fair if Raya herself had just screamed and tore her hair and stomped out...she didn't. She figured her little...peccadillo kind of made them
even...
maybe not...maybe actually Madde was more of a cheater than she was because...well, look at it.
All
those games she played, maybe a lot more than she said.
Raya got up and paced the porch, stomping on the squeaky board at the end near the railing. She was getting hungry, too, but she was
damned
if she would eat before they worked this out.
"Oh, Madde, Madde, Madde...we never said in
exact
words that we would never...with another person. And now you did. And, and we never said in so many words, 'I am swearing off men forever.' I mean...I mean we are still working this thing out. That was
your
excuse wasn't it for
trying it on
with Lena? And...and I think you mostly were horny as shit and now you know from
being
with me that it feels good to fuck a woman...so when one came on to you...and she was a
masterful
seducer, you went for it. I mean, If it had been a
man
who had seduced you...oh shit. Here I'm thinking a woman lover is more dangerous to 'us being us' and you are feeling it is so, so the opposite. What did I do? But I
know
what I did. What do I do
now?"
Raya sat down again and didn't move. Her mind was numb. Nothing. Just an aching need to have her arms around Madde.
It grew dark. Two owls talked to each other. The peepers got loud. The air grew moist and cold. Raya knew she could just go in and start a fire and wait for Madde there. But she didn't. She hugged herself in the rocking chair and rocked. Maybe she slept some.
There was the sound of a step on the porch stair. An invisible Madde stopped by the chair and put one finger on her shoulder. Raya reached out a hand and touched the hem of Madde's damp shirt.
Madde murmured, "Uh uh. Not yet." Her finger traced Raya's back. "You take the bed. I want to sleep by the fire."
She went in. Raya stayed on the porch for a while, though she was shivering and her teeth were chattering and her nips absolutely
ached.
When she finally went in, there was Madde all curled up in a big bundle by the fireplace. One sweet foot was uncovered. Raya carefully pulled the blanket over it. She so wanted to kiss it. She yearned to kiss just that spot on that favorite place on Madde's neck where the tiny, soft curls grew. She needed to spoon around Madde's back and wake with her in the morning, soft and moist. Listening quietly to her breathing.
She didn't. She didn't eat either, even though her gut was hollow and complaining. She slowly went up the stairs to the loft, brushed her teeth and went to bed. She patted the place where Madde wasn't.
She wanted to yell over the railing, "Get up here you silly lovable bitch. I've forgiven you...mostly. Can't you do the same for me?"
She didn't. She couldn't. She knew her girl. She knew she wasn't ready. But there was no point in working on just 'the right thing' to say. Nothing would be 'right.' And she herself needed a better idea of what her thing with Leon had meant. A little bit of her itched still for him, a very
particular
part of her. But she thought she knew that there should be no more of the personal thing. She was not taking any texts from him. So. Sleep...?
********
"I didn't sleep much."
Madde had a wicked bed head and was slumped over her mug. It was coffee. Raya had made her coffee even though she mostly drank tea.
"I didn't sleep much either, Mads. Are you going to leave?"
"Huh?"
"Have you had enough of me? Do we need to rethink the whole apartment thing at school?"
