On Sunday afternoon I bought Jordan lunch before delivering her back home. She directed me through a series of rural turns then down a long country lane. Before turning down the slushy gravel drive to her parent's house I stopped on the side of the road, put my car in park and took Jordan's left hand. I looked into her stunning eyes and said, "I want you to know how much this weekend has meant to me. Not just because of what we did, but because we spent it together. If this is too much please know that you can pull the plug without any hard feelings. If you never want to speak of this again I will understand but I want you to know that I'm not sorry and that your friendship means more to me than anything."
I spat all of that out faster and more nervously than I intended to. By the end of it I was close to hyperventilating and I was staring at my hands. They seemed to have taken a death-grip on Jordan's petite fingers.
Jordan looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Suzanne, I've never had a friend like you, and I'm not just talking about the sex. I feel like I can be real with you and I don't want that to end. Having a friend ask me to her house is a special thing. I don't want any part of this to complicate our work situation either. I know that I started all of the sexual stuff and I hope you don't feel ambushed. If I took advantage of the situation it was not premeditated."
The poor thing was scared that she had forced herself on me! This underscored the importance of our friendship to me. Her words were therapeutic and her maturity was showing again. A wave of affection for her washed over me. It was so vitally important for me to have her in my life.
"I don't feel like I was ambushed, Jordan!" I said. "I feel like we shared a special experience and I was a willing participant - in case you didn't notice. I enjoyed hanging out with you and the other stuff....neither one of us saw that coming. Honestly, you helped me discover something I have had in the back of my mind for a long time. As for our work relationship, I think we are both mature enough to handle things. I cherish the friendship we've built, Jordan. I've never had a close friend at work and I don't want to give that up unless you think it's absolutely necessary."
She thought a minute and then said, "Suzanne, this was way out of character for me. Lest you think some rogue lesbian was on the prowl and hunted you down, you should know that I've been with only two people sexually in my entire life - three now. I was a virgin when my husband married me. After he divorced me I had sex with his little sister as an act of revenge - well, sort of. She came to my apartment to get some of her brother's things and I recalled how she tried to drunk-kiss me at my bachelorette party. I shut her down pretty hard back then because that just wasn't my thing but this particular day I was mad and horny, she was cute, and things just sort of happened. We met regularly for about a year after that and I will admit that I manipulated the situation so that my ex was able to 'accidentally' catch me sitting on his little sister's face in his old bedroom at his parent's house - something he never did. I seldom see her anymore but what we had is over and we are both OK with that."
The shocked look on my face must have been funny because she giggled at me. "Suze, you are my best friend whether this continues or not. Of all the people in the world I should know better than to become involved with someone who has a mate - married or not. I kind of feel like the other woman now."
"Hon, I can see why you would say that," I said, "but I know Gary well enough to believe that he won't have a problem with what we did. I would never have done this if I thought he would mind. He is important to me," I said, looking her in the eye. "I believe he is the man I will stay married to for the rest of my life and I won't mess that up."
"You shouldn't," was her reply.
I then drove down her gravel drive in the tracks left by her dad on his way in and out of their long driveway. I put my car in park then leaned over and kissed her cheek. "Thanks for a wonderful weekend," I said blushing.
She smiled broadly and replied, "See you tomorrow at work, Suzanne."
Later that night Gary and I were talking on the phone near midnight as we did a couple of times each week due to his screwed-up schedule. Things were getting pretty naughty and we were both in the throes of masturbation when I once again verbalized my fantasy that a woman was eating me out while I was giving him a blow job. I described the sensations, sights and smells and both of us climaxed hard. As we slowly came down from our sexual high, we talked for another hour and I told him what had been heavy on my mind for a couple of days. I told him that Jordan spent the weekend due to the snow and that we had fooled around some.