[This is the juicy continuation of the story "Destined Lovers Ch. 01" A story about two internet friends that found love when meeting one another. Although their love is found, fate has something completely different in store for the two. Their journey continues...]
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I awoke the next morning to find Kat asleep on my chest. She looked ever so sweet and peaceful. I gave her a light kiss on the forehead, then a few more until I saw her eyes slowly begin to open.
"Good morning, beautiful." I said to her.
Considering our amazing sexual experience last night, I wasn't sure if Kat would officially consider us lovers. I'm not sure if I would've been able to handle her rejecting a relationship -- I gave my virginity to her.
"Hello, lovely." Kat said, finally opening both eyes and giving me a small smile.
I ran my hands through her silky, brown hair. We were still both naked from the night before. I couldn't help but notice that I was still a bit turned on by the fact I had a gorgeous woman next to me wearing absolutely nothing.
Kat got up out of bed, putting her hands behind her back and stretching while letting out a small moan. I couldn't help but notice that her nipples were slightly hard. It was a turn on, but I wasn't in the mood for sex. I could only hope that I'll get the chance to wake up to her every day. At that point, I couldn't imagine living another day without seeing that glorious face. Also, knowing her smiles will be because of me and her heart will always feel warmth inside.
"I'm going to make us some breakfast. Is pancakes okay?" Kat asked.
"Yeah, that's fine. But I rather eat you." I said playfully. But truthfully, I wouldn't have minded giving her a lick or two.
------ There was a storm that day, so we stayed inside and watched romance movies. I noticed when Kat looked at me; there was a look of deep love in her eyes. Almost as if her heart was dead for all this time, and I brought her to life. The way I saw Kat was so much different. She wasn't forbidden fruit anymore, she was MINE. The way her body swayed when she walked, was graceful like an angel. Her smile could like up my heart like no other. Her kisses lifted me from my body. I couldn't imagine how I had lived this long in life without this magnificent woman in my world. ------ Later that night after dinner, Kat and I went upstairs to her room. But instead of me going into the guestroom, she took my hand and led me to her bed.
"We need to talk." She said to me. My heart dropped to my knees when she said that. We all know that when someone says those four words, nothing good is ever going to happen.
Kat sat me down on the bed, but she remained standing. She began pacing back and forth with her hands resting behind her head.
"I don't mean to rush you, but you've given me this horrible feeling in my stomach. So can you just tell me already?" I tried my best not to sound snobbish, but I don't think it worked.
"Just give me a damn minute." Kat said. She didn't say it in a mean way, just in an annoyed tone. "Okay, look. What happened last night...?"
"You regret it don't you?" I said to her. "I never said that." Kat replied. "But you were going to." At this point I was about to cry. That was my first time, how could it mean nothing to her? "No, I wasn't. Last night was magical and I wouldn't have traded it for the entire world." She paused. I just looked at her emotionless. I couldn't bare to seem weak to Kat. She just seemed so high maintenance and independent.
"Well aren't you going to say something?" Kat said. "I don't know what to say. I have no clue what is going on in your head right now but I would give my family's fortune if you could just say whatever it is that you're thinking of." I said to her. I was being honest. My stomach was in a whirl and my heart was pounding painfully fast.
"After last night..." Kat looked away from me and turned her attention to the window where rain had begun pouring in. She quickly rushed over to close it when a huge bolt of lightning scared her. She jumped in fear, almost onto the bed. She turned on the television to check if there was a tornado watch, and there was.
"Hurry. Let's get in the basement." She suggested. "Should I bring a blanket to lay on?" I said. Kat just gave me a weird look. "What?" I didn't see why my suggestion was so odd to her. "My basement has carpet, silly. I have a couch down there too. I think it's best we stay down there tonight anyways so grab some extra clothes and I'll get some snacks." Kat said. I just shrugged in agreement.
We both gathered what we needed and headed into the basement. Neither of us brought our phones down because on top of the storm, we were in a basement and wouldn't be likely to receive coverage.
We both sat down on the couch in silence. It wasn't long before we heard a loud strike of lightening and the power went out. Thankfully, Kat had some candles in a nearby closet. She quickly lit them and set them on the table nearest to the couch.
"Earlier in the room, you never finished what you were saying." I said to Kat. "It doesn't matter." She said. "Well it matters to me. After last night, I need you more than you think." I honestly had no intention of telling her how much she truly meant to me because I didn't want her to think I was some kind of clingy freak.
"I just don't think a long-distance relationship would work out. I'm a woman with needs and you being hundreds of miles away, wouldn't be able to fulfill those." She said, without looking at me. I said absolutely nothing. My heart hurt at that point.
"So you fuck me, and then decide you don't want me as anything more than a friend with benefits?" I said. It was my heart speaking out of sheer pain. My knees felt weak and my stomach felt queasy. My breathing became uneven and my mind felt weird.
"You don't even know me like you think you do." Kat continued. "You don't know what you need. You think you're in love with me just because we had sex. What does that show you? You just like the attention."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I absolutely adored this girl. I would have done anything for her. Words cannot describe the amount of love my heart held for her. After all the months we had spoken to each other and after the way she made love to my body -- I knew she was the one for me. No one could ever convince me otherwise. Just the lack of pure love in her eyes was enough to make me fall to the ground with my hands covering the tears that proceeded to fall down my face.
I began crying lightly. My heart physically hurt at that point. I didn't care how much of a loser I looked like to Kat at that point. She obviously wasn't holding back for me, so why should I do the same for her? I began letting out noises to show my pain while the tears kept flowing.
"Oh my love, please don't cry." Kat said. She got off the couch, onto her knees and crawled up next to me. She removed my hands from my face and wiped the tears. "I'm sorry for what I said, but it's the truth. I have to do what's best for the both of us. I'm afraid we just have to be friends. I can't do long-distance." Her words made me cry even harder.
"Okay. I understand." I said to her, but I was lying. "Good, I'm glad you understand. I actually think the storm has lightened up so let's go-"But Kat didn't finish that sentence. Not because she didn't want to, but because my lip had found their way on hers. I wasn't being gentle; I was being hard with her.
