A few weeks after our Las Vegas trip, Lisa and I were relaxing on our patio watching the Pacific Ocean waves crashing on the shore while enjoying a little wine. We hadn't talked much about the strange experience and I wasn't going to bring it up. I knew Lisa would when she was ready to.
Lisa was looking out at the ocean when she changed the subject and blurted out "Dana, I think you were turned on when we got kidnapped."
I have never lied to Lisa, and I never will. But I wasn't looking forward to her finding out my part in all this. I love her with all my heart and I would be devastated if she was upset about it and blamed me. I took a deep breath and replied "Yes, I was totally turned on. You looked so sexy in front of me, I couldn't help but be excited."
Lisa's demeanor changed. She pulled off her sunglasses and turned to look me directly in the eye. "I was terrified! I thought they were going to rape us and leave us for dead in some back alley. But you were turned on! I think right from the start!"
Her tone showed me she was upset, and I didn't blame her. Maybe if I had more time to think about it, but I don't ever do that. I just blurted it out. "Well, I knew they were not going to rape us, because..." and I realized I had already said too much.
"Yes? Dana? You knew because of what? What did you know Dana??" Her voice raising with intensity with each question.
I'm not good at these things. I'm fairly emotional anyway, and hate it when she's mad at me. I immediately start to cry and blurted it out. "I knew, because it was my fantasy. It was all my fault, Lisa. I'm so sorry!"
I'm in full blown blubbering by the time I get the whole sentence out. Lisa's tone softened and she asked "what do you mean, Dana? Who were those people? What do you mean it was your fantasy? Did you arrange this??" The last question with some anger rising in her voice again.
"No! I didn't arrange it, and I have no idea who the people are. But a few weeks ago, when we got together with our little gang. Remember, you had to meet with your publisher so you couldn't make it that day. When were all sitting around talking, drinking a bit too much wine, and the girls were sharing some secret fantasies, and I shared one of mine."
Lisa sat back in her chair, almost in shock. Her mouth hung open with the revelation I had confessed.
"And you didn't think this was worth mentioning??" She said with accusation dripping from her voice.
"Lisa! You know how much I hate it when you are mad at me! How could I tell you? Besides, we were gagged! And after the fact, I was just too scared. I'd do anything to make it up to you, if I could. I'm so sorry you didn't enjoy my fantasy."
Lisa was quiet. Unlike me, she chooses her words before she just opens her mouth and lets stupid fly out. After a few moments, she finally spoke "okay, a few things there. First, I didn't say I didn't enjoy it... I was terrified, but it was erotic and I loved seeing you tied up like that. Second, I am going to hold you to the commitment you just made to do anything to make it up to me."
I was a little taken aback. Her demeanor was very different. "Wait, what? I didn't make a commitment... did I? I don't remember saying that... what did I just say?" She had me totally confused.
Lisa said "you said you'd do anything... and you meant it right? You didn't lie to me, did you? Along with omitting to tell me you knew who did this to us."
She knows exactly how to push my buttons. I hate liars, and I won't lie even for some elaborate prank. And she knows that, having unwittingly ruined her surprise plans in the past because I wouldn't lie for her.
"Lisa, I really don't know who those people were, I don't know who put them up to it. I assume it was one of our friends, several of them could easily afford it and would do it for us (or me, I guess) just out of love. Maybe several of them did it together, I don't know!" I was getting a little agitated because of her accusatory tone.
"What is it you want me to do?" I asked.
Lisa stood up and told me to follow her. We got up and went into the house. She led me into our bedroom, then into the big attached bathroom. She opened the counter door and pulled out a bag I had stashed under the sink. I immediately knew I had totally been caught.
After we got released, we just stuffed the gags and cuffs and things we were still wearing into our purses and headed back to the room. Later, when Lisa was in the shower, I gathered them all together and hid them in one of our shopping bags. Then when we got home, I stashed it under the sink... and now Lisa is holding it.
She walked back into the bedroom and tossed the bag onto the bed.
"Put them on" she said.
These were all part of my fantasy. So, I didn't even think about it I just sat down on the bed, dug out the ankle cuffs and buckled them on my ankles. Then dug out the wrist cuffs and pushed up the long sleeves of my hoodie to get to my wrists, then buckled them in place. I then rummaged around the bag and found the two collars which were still chained together and was fiddling with them when Lisa couldn't keep her mouth shut any longer.