Carmen took a bow, her face illuminated with a smile that thanked each and every one of her adoring fans in turn. Her eyes sparkled, and her mind swam in the glory of the roses that landed softly in a carpet about her feet. Then came the moment she hated most. The curtains closed, and the adoration of the audience vanished.
With a heavy sigh, Carmen stepped back into the realm of the real world. There was a time when she would have taken the time to collect every rose, and read every card, but she was beyond caring any more. They all loved her when she shone, but when the lights faded, and the glitter was washed away, they returned to their everyday lives and ceased to care. Still, for some reason, she could never bring herself to step upon a single rose petal, not willing to damage the innocent flowers that clung to existence for such a short time.
As she stepped through the flowers, she noticed something that caught her attention. Bending, she picked up the bloom that stood out amongst the roses: a daisy. A single yellow daisy with a note tied to the stem with a pink ribbon. What she read brought tears to her eyes. Written by the hand of a child were the words....
Dear Lady Carmen,
Thank you for your lovely dance. Since my Mummy died, your dance is the only thing that has made my Daddy smile, and that makes me so very happy. Please don't ever stop dancing. One day, I will learn to dance as good as you, and then my Daddy will always have something to make him smile.
Thanks lots, Tammy.
Carmen wasn't sure what it was about the note that struck her so deeply, but she found herself reading it a second, and then a third time, before she refolded it carefully and tucked it into her bodice. Back in her dressing room, she placed the daisy in a glass of water and sat before the mirror, not looking at her own reflection, but at the single yellow flower that stood out so strongly amongst the bunches of blooms behind her.
"Carmen, darling, you're not ready yet. The limousine is waiting, and you know how much your more important fans hate to be kept waiting." She never missed the way he emphasized important. Sometimes she wondered if she was really anything more then a money making machine that they wound up before every performance, and put back in a box when they were done playing with her at the end of the night.
"I won't be long, Harold." Pausing, she turned and looked at him with imploring eyes, hoping to see some trace of the love, compassion and tenderness she longed for. "Harold, do I really need to attend yet another party? I am so tired. Can't we go for a nice walk along the beach or something, just the two of us?"
Harold looked at her as if she were mad, then burst into a laugh that was more condescending then humorous. "Oh, my pet, you do say the silliest things sometimes. Now hurry, your paying public awaits." With a firm click of the door, the man who had pushed her up the ladder of success, the man she had once adored and married, was gone. In her heart, she knew he didn't love her, but being who she was, who could ever really love her? She fought back the urge to cry as the daisy once again caught her attention, bringing a soft smile to her lips. At least not all she did was glitz and glamour. Somewhere out there was a little girl with a daddy that smiled when she danced. Knowing that what she did made someone happy gave her a strength she had not felt for a long time.
In the back of the limousine Carmen didn't say a word to Harold, not even to answer his seemingly endless stream of questions, which he normally answered on her behalf anyway. Instead she stared out the window, watching the lights of the theatre vanish into the distance, and the faint glimmer of starlight that struggled to break through the evening smog. The city had always been her home and her world. So, why all of a sudden did it feel so confining, like a bubble she was trapped within, the air running thin and the walls closing in about her?
"Carmen. Carmen! Oh Carmen, I do wish you would pay attention when I'm talking to you." Harold was whining again. She hated it when he did that. He was a thirty-five year old man that whined more than a child, and in the last year, he seemed to do little else.
"I'm sorry, Harold, what were you saying?" She did her best to seem interested, but she seriously doubted there was anything he could say that would even come close to sounding like he cared for anything more then her money making abilities. All he seemed to focus on was how he could arrange things so that she could make more money, do one more major show, meet one more important person. To make the most of her while she was still in her prime, because once her youth and beauty faded, so would her fortune, if it was not handled properly. He was a brilliant businessman, and the best manager in the business, but as a husband, he was a sham. The marriage license provided him with more then he could ever earn as just her manager. For her, she knew she had been cheated. Not only of the fortune he could demand of her should they separate, but also of the love and passion she had always yearned for, and never received.
Carmen cared nothing for the money any more, nor for the selfish upstarts that kept her riches flowing, but if it were not for them, she would not have that few precious moments each night upon the stage. When she danced, she was free. She was in control of her own world, and what a beautiful world it was. There, she was the butterfly that would spread her wings and flutter amongst the daisies, oblivious of the world about her, caring nothing for how short that flight would be, or how fragile her gift of life was, until the curtains closed again, and she was once again standing amongst the thorns, and the roses.
Another evening of smiling for the cameras, shaking sweaty, greedy hands, and having her ass touched discreetly by slobbering millionaires, something Harold never seemed to notice and annoyed Carmen no end, was finally over, and Carmen made her way to her room. Harold had taken a room at the other end of the house, saying that he didn't want his working late at night to keep her awake, she needed her rest, after all. In the hallway she passed Trish, the maid, and gave her a warm, if very tired, smile.
"What are you still doing up, Trish? It's well after midnight. Is everything alright?" Her voice was soft with exhaustion, but the concern it held was genuine. Trish was one of the few people in the world that was genuinely kind to her.
"Everything is fine, Mrs. Pennon. I couldn't sleep, so I thought I would I would raid the refrigerator. Can I get you anything?" Trish was not much younger then Carmen, her features leaning towards an almost Spanish background, with her black hair and dark brown eyes. She was a very attractive woman, and Carmen had often wondered what it would be like to be her. Young, single, beautiful, doing what she pleased with her free time, taking life one moment at a time. She wondered if she would enjoy such a life, but then, such wonderings would not help her get any much needed sleep, so she pushed the thoughts aside.
"No, thank you, Trish. All I need right now is a hot bath, and some rest." She turned and was about to continue on her way to her room, when she had a change of mind, or perhaps it was a change of stomach, as her tummy began to rumble at the mention of the refrigerator. Odd that she had not realized until now that she was hungry. "On second thought, Trish, a glass of chocolate milk and some of those chocolate cookies you keep hidden in the back of the pantry would be nice." If Harold knew that she was consuming such rich, fattening foods, he would have had a fit, which made the sweets seem all the more appealing.
Trish gave her a wicked smile. She had been hiding the cookies in a tin at the back of the pantry for the last two years, knowing full well that Carmon would sneak in and help herself to one every so often. She always made sure that the most decadent cookies were on hand to keep the tin full, and it made her feel good to know that, in some small way, she was helping to bring a little sweetness into Carmon Pennon's life. That Carmon would ask for the treats openly shocked Trish a little, and she wondered what had happened to make Carmon so bold. Still, it was not her place to ask such things of her employer, so she faked a shocked and surprised pose, followed by a "Mrs. Pennon, you rebel, you!"
Carmon winked and pressed a finger to her lips, hushing Trish to silence, and giggling like a naughty child. It felt good to giggle, and even better to feel like a naughty child. She savored the feeling for a moment, then set off towards her room, her step a little lighter then it had been before she had encountered Trish in the hallway, but still heavy enough to make her aware of just how tired her body had become.