Carmen took a bow, her face illuminated with a smile that thanked each and every one of her adoring fans in turn. Her eyes sparkled, and her mind swam in the glory of the roses that landed softly in a carpet about her feet. Then came the moment she hated most. The curtains closed, and the adoration of the audience vanished.
With a heavy sigh, Carmen stepped back into the realm of the real world. There was a time when she would have taken the time to collect every rose, and read every card, but she was beyond caring any more. They all loved her when she shone, but when the lights faded, and the glitter was washed away, they returned to their everyday lives and ceased to care. Still, for some reason, she could never bring herself to step upon a single rose petal, not willing to damage the innocent flowers that clung to existence for such a short time.
As she stepped through the flowers, she noticed something that caught her attention. Bending, she picked up the bloom that stood out amongst the roses: a daisy. A single yellow daisy with a note tied to the stem with a pink ribbon. What she read brought tears to her eyes. Written by the hand of a child were the words....
Dear Lady Carmen,
Thank you for your lovely dance. Since my Mummy died, your dance is the only thing that has made my Daddy smile, and that makes me so very happy. Please don't ever stop dancing. One day, I will learn to dance as good as you, and then my Daddy will always have something to make him smile.
Thanks lots, Tammy.
Carmen wasn't sure what it was about the note that struck her so deeply, but she found herself reading it a second, and then a third time, before she refolded it carefully and tucked it into her bodice. Back in her dressing room, she placed the daisy in a glass of water and sat before the mirror, not looking at her own reflection, but at the single yellow flower that stood out so strongly amongst the bunches of blooms behind her.
"Carmen, darling, you're not ready yet. The limousine is waiting, and you know how much your more important fans hate to be kept waiting." She never missed the way he emphasized important. Sometimes she wondered if she was really anything more then a money making machine that they wound up before every performance, and put back in a box when they were done playing with her at the end of the night.
"I won't be long, Harold." Pausing, she turned and looked at him with imploring eyes, hoping to see some trace of the love, compassion and tenderness she longed for. "Harold, do I really need to attend yet another party? I am so tired. Can't we go for a nice walk along the beach or something, just the two of us?"
Harold looked at her as if she were mad, then burst into a laugh that was more condescending then humorous. "Oh, my pet, you do say the silliest things sometimes. Now hurry, your paying public awaits." With a firm click of the door, the man who had pushed her up the ladder of success, the man she had once adored and married, was gone. In her heart, she knew he didn't love her, but being who she was, who could ever really love her? She fought back the urge to cry as the daisy once again caught her attention, bringing a soft smile to her lips. At least not all she did was glitz and glamour. Somewhere out there was a little girl with a daddy that smiled when she danced. Knowing that what she did made someone happy gave her a strength she had not felt for a long time.
In the back of the limousine Carmen didn't say a word to Harold, not even to answer his seemingly endless stream of questions, which he normally answered on her behalf anyway. Instead she stared out the window, watching the lights of the theatre vanish into the distance, and the faint glimmer of starlight that struggled to break through the evening smog. The city had always been her home and her world. So, why all of a sudden did it feel so confining, like a bubble she was trapped within, the air running thin and the walls closing in about her?
"Carmen. Carmen! Oh Carmen, I do wish you would pay attention when I'm talking to you." Harold was whining again. She hated it when he did that. He was a thirty-five year old man that whined more than a child, and in the last year, he seemed to do little else.
"I'm sorry, Harold, what were you saying?" She did her best to seem interested, but she seriously doubted there was anything he could say that would even come close to sounding like he cared for anything more then her money making abilities. All he seemed to focus on was how he could arrange things so that she could make more money, do one more major show, meet one more important person. To make the most of her while she was still in her prime, because once her youth and beauty faded, so would her fortune, if it was not handled properly. He was a brilliant businessman, and the best manager in the business, but as a husband, he was a sham. The marriage license provided him with more then he could ever earn as just her manager. For her, she knew she had been cheated. Not only of the fortune he could demand of her should they separate, but also of the love and passion she had always yearned for, and never received.