As always, a huge thanks to Kenjisato for his eyes and experience. I am learning! It's all the 'little' things he sees that make that much more readable. Well, at least to me. Thanks for taking the time to get involved with this whole saga. I'm desperately trying to tie up the loose ends and close this out. As you can tell, I haven't been too successful to date but...For all you budding writers out there, one could do worse than having Kenji look over your work.
This is another long one, but have broken it up into several chapters. Thanks for bearing with me!
Chapter 39
Maisie comes home and the Belle Quandary
We woke up early, packed up our clothes and assorted loose ends. Her dad was up before us, knowing we'd be making an early start. I cooked us all a huge breakfast, knowing it would be our last one here for quite a while. We cleaned up our mess and packed her car, ready to leave now. It was a tearful farewell, one that I was torn about. On the one hand, I'd have my Maisie back, but knew, too, that Ewan would miss her. We waved wildly to him, as we headed out of Edinburgh and south.
We made good time, so we stopped off in Keswick for a quick lunch, remembering how much dad and David loved spending time here. Maisie had the music on low, the gentle music easing us back to Richmond and our life together. Well, hopefully so.
"Thank you for last night, Chloe. You were right, of course! I...I needed that time with Jo, ya know? I know it was hard for you, okay, but thank you, hen," she smiled.
"It was tough for me, yeah," I said. "I dunno why, though. I knew you were coming back to me, but all the emotions just caught up with me. I know it's hard for you to come home for good now, 'kay? I know you'll miss your dad...and Jo," I said, hopefully not sounding too spoiled.
"Leannan, she knew the day would come, as did I. She's fine, though. We'll keep in touch and see where it goes. Sometimes absence doesn't make the heart grow fonder, though, and you just gradually lose touch. We'll see, though. I'm back where I belong, aye?" she explained, as I squeezed her leg in agreement.
"So," she said, and I just knew what she was going to ask. "What are we doing about Belle, hmm?" she asked, calmly.
"What...what do
you
want to do about, Belle, Maisie?" I asked, turning her question back to her.
"Not fair, hen," she chuckled. "I asked you first. Come on. Talk to me. I know you've been thinking about her. I understand, okay. Talk to me, aye?" she replied.
"I...I don't know how easy it will be to give her up, 'kay? I know that's what we agreed, but the reality is so fucking different. Can I really expect to just manage her garden and forget my feelings for her? Last night, I was thinking about what you said about this agreement we had, you know, that I needed to have my heart broken. Well, it happened, 'kay?" I said, unhappily.
"Ohhh, leannan. C'mon now. Let's talk this through, all right? Do you want to continue to, well, see her? You know, still be intimate with her? Tell me, darling. This'll only work if you talk with me," she said, determinedly.
"I...I don't want to hurt you, Maisie. God, you're everything I've ever wanted and now
this
has to crop up! I can be strong and just be her designer, 'kay? I know I can. I won't lose you, darling...
not
for anybody," I said, although I don't think she believed me. "This is what we both agreed, so I have to stick with my side of this, right? I'll...I'll be fine, 'kay? Just...give me some time to come to terms with it all, all right? You'll, uhm, bear with me?" I asked, hopefully.
"I have all the time in the world, hen. You'll be fine. We'll be fine," she soothingly said, and I did feel better.
"So, how do
you
feel about continuing our closeness with Belle, hmm?" I asked.
"Truthfully? Confused. Apprehensive. Even excited, if I'm honest. I'm not threatened by Belle, Chloe. I just don't know how it would work long-term, or if she'd even want that. Hell, this may be just a fling for her. God, she's married and twenty years older than us. Why would she want you...or
us
long-term, hmm?" she asked, bringing up some valid points.
"You're probably right. As always!" I giggled.
"I won't allow her to come between us, okay? I'm just glad we're not in a position to choose. I'd always choose you, Chloe, okay?" she sighed, and held my hand.
"And I'd always choose you, darling," I murmured, as the miles sped by.
I drove from Keswick to Heathrow, where I had to collect my car. I knew she was heading home, needing to get herself sorted. We found my car, and I transferred my bag. We hugged and kissed, and a certain pall hung over us. And the pall's name was Arabella.
Everyone was surprised when I trundled through the front door. Surprised, but happy to see me. After a welcome-home glass of wine, I explained what had happened. Moms and dad couldn't be happier, now that Maisie was back. Tentatively, I asked if Arabella could come by next weekend, so they could finally meet her. I figured I would take the next step, which may, or may not, help me decide what I was going to do with this woman, who had entered my orbit so unsuspectingly. They were all excited at the prospect of finally meeting this enigmatic woman. Cheekily, I asked if she could possibly spend the evening, perhaps using the annexe to sleep in. I explained that she had a long drive home and wondered if it wouldn't be better for her to stay the weekend. They looked at one another, then back at me and smiled.
"Of course," mom said. "We couldn't possibly have her driving all that
way
home in the dark, eh?" she smirked, then burst into laughter.
I hugged and thanked them all, my heart leaping with joy.
"You'll love her," I sighed. "I just know it."