This is a bit longer than others. Sorry, but...
Thanks to Kenji for his time in going through this, though. Hopefully, my '
carriage returns' have been seen too, though I kind of doubt it. Thanks for bearing with me. As always, thanks for the comments; good, bad or indifferent.
Chapter 33
I made it to work with plenty of time for a quick tea, before I sat in with Martin and Markus for a meeting on the progress we had made on Arabella's design. We Zoomed Maisie in on the meeting when I realised I hadn't called her last night. Blimey, I was in trouble, or, at the very least, been a
very
bad girlfriend! She reassured me with her smirk and a quiet, "So...you've made it to work, hmm?" her face smiling brightly. I mouthed a silent, 'Sorry,' and blushed.
Martin loved the new design and liked the idea of an annexe and Markus's suggestion of a running track through part of their woods. It was all going well. I assured him my final design would be ready sooner, rather than later, and then Maisie and Markus would run through the costings with me.
When I finally returned home, I FaceTimed Maisie, apologising for my faux pas. She loved watching me squirm, but there was nothing to forgive, or so she said. We chatted for an hour, then headed upstairs to my parents' room. Mum said I could borrow her curling iron, as mine had given up. Everyone was downstairs, so I walked into the room and headed for the shelf where, she said, it would be. I took a few minutes looking at all their various nicknacks and mementoes. I noticed two bound books on the lower shelf, both engraved with my mom's name. I knelt down and pulled them out. I had never seen these before, not that I made a habit of snooping around their room. I brought the embossed leather books to their bed and sat. I opened the one that was printed,
Chrissie
, and was speechless.
Inside, I gazed upon these black and white photos of my mom...bound!
What the...I thought.
The photos were beautifully shot and composed, but mom was tied up in these ropes. I was, well, shocked. All the whys, whos and whens coursed through my head. Then, I recognised the ring that the, obviously male, hand was wearing. It was my...daddy! I had
no
idea!
What the heck were they into, I thought.
I carefully turned page after page, the photos graphic, but so intensely sensuous. I was enthralled, as I looked at every page. The look on mom's face was simply beatific. She glowed, as she was restrained in these different configurations. I had to catch my breath, so put hers down and picked up the book adorned with, 'Emily.'
It was the same, but different. Sure, it was my mum, but not as I knew her! My moms shared the same blissful looks on their beautiful faces, obviously securely tied. There were a few where both my moms were bound together. I...I couldn't get my head around
this
. I had no frickin' idea how...kinky they were. I spent the next twenty minutes going from page to page, astonished at the beauty of them. They looked...radiated, actually. How could I possibly look them in the eye now? I wasn't sneaking around, was I? I only came up for her curling iron...but I found these!
The longer I looked, the more these lewd thoughts swirled through my head. So, my moms were submissive, hmm? They sure didn't
act
that way! I couldn't reconcile what I was seeing with the parents I had known. I had to ask them.
Calm down, Chloe. Do you really need to ask them?
What if you embarrass them? These weren't meant for my eyes, obviously, but I couldn't very well unsee this!
I put them away, grabbed the iron and closed the door behind me. I went to my room and lay down, my breathing quickened by the strikingly erotic photos. I...I had to know.
I walked on shaky feet downstairs. My sisters were in bed already, so I had them to myself.
"Chloe? Hi. Whatcha up to?" mom asked, surprised at my appearance. "How's Maisie's dad doing? Better, we hope," she smiled.
"He's...he's fine, ta. Getting better every week. Maisie thinks she'll be home sooner than she thought, too," I said.
"That'll be lovely for you both, won't it?" mom said. "Is...something on your mind, hmm?"
"Uhm...thanks for your curling iron, mum. I'll pick one up this week, 'kay?" I said, uncertain how to start the conversation...if there was even a conversation to be had!
"That's fine, sweetie. If I need it, I know where it is," mum smiled. "Anything else?" she asked, quizzically, watching me fidget around, knowing there definitely
was
something else.
"Don't be mad, 'kay, but when I was looking for the iron, I...I found some books that, well, I probably wasn't supposed to see. Sorry. I wasn't prying, but I saw them and was...curious. You know the books I'm talking about?" I asked, sheepishly.
They all turned to each other, the silence deafening. My eyes went from one to the other, trying to see who was mad and who was going to start talking.
"Chloe. Those are our books, right? You had no right to be snooping around our room. I'm...disappointed in you. I thought we brought you up better, but I guess not," mom said, clearly upset at the breach of trust I had broken.
"I wasn't, 'kay? I just saw them and was, uhm, curious. I wasn't snooping, all right? I would never do that. I never have, 'kay? I was just curious," I said again, all eyes on me. I held my breath, trying to hold back the tears that were surely coming.
"I...I love you all, you know that. I would never do anything to break your trust, all right. Sorry. I am," and the hurt shone in my eyes. Daddy looked at me, kinder than my moms actually, but said nothing.
"Sit," mom said, sternly. "Those are our private belongings, Chloe. We shouldn't have to explain anything to you, right? But...to put your imagination at rest, well, that's us...but you probably guessed that quite easily," she laughed, easing a bit of tension in the room. "What I'm going to, uh, explain to you is private, do you understand? No one is to know, all right, not even Maisie. So..." she began, one hand in mum's and the other in dad's. She rolled out the story to me, my mouth agape with every revelation. She, then the others, explained shibari to me and how it helped my daddy with the stress of his job.
"It's healthier and less expensive than drugs or alcohol, too," mom managed to snigger. "Your mother and I have grown to enjoy it, too. Me, because of my job. It helps me the same way it helps your father. And your mum likes it just because she's...kinky," she laughed again, mum swatting her arm when she wouldn't stop laughing at her joke. "Your father will tell you, it's not about sex, Chloe. It's about the release and mindfulness that it gives us. Sure, more often than not, we do have sex, but that's not the purpose, okay? It's a brilliant by-product, so..." and she laughed harder, both of them slapping her arms playfully now.
"Well it is, isn't it?" she asked them both, neither of them offering an opinion. "Happy now?" mom asked tersely.
"Yeah. Thank you for, uh, explaining it to me. I sort of get it, I guess," I said.
"Whether you get it or not, is not important, right? We answer to each other in this house. Just us. If it involves you, which it doesn't and never will, we'd talk with you about it. It's private, Chloe, and always will be so, if you have any more questions, go online, all right?" she sighed, clearly drawing a line under this conversation.
"Anything else, sweetie?" mum asked.
"There is...one more thing?" I said, my voice lower than when I started the sentence. "You know Maisie and I have this agreement, right? Well, I've met this client, Arabella, and she's...amazing," I said, all eyes aghast at my confession. "We've been seeing each other when I go down to her home and it's, well, developed over the weeks. I really like her, all right, and we've grown close. She's forty-three, an interior designer and gorgeous and I'm learning so much from her and we've grown very fond of each other," I began, hoping my rambling mouth would shut up. The quietness of the room was disconcerting. "Maisie knows about her and has met her, well, online, but she'll meet her soon. Would it be okay if I told her about...us? I...I think I can help her, moms. She's at a crossroads right now. We talk, a lot, and I'd like to tell her. I trust her, 'kay? Completely. I know she'd understand and I think it would help her, so...?" I said, and waited.
"Well, we weren't expecting that!" mum giggled. "Are you...falling in love with her, Chloe?" mum asked.
Of fuck, I thought. Am I? I thought.
"I am....I have. And it's not just sex, right? She's just so...extraordinary. She treats me as me and is sort of mentoring me. What we do isn't miles apart, actually. Now, I'm not in love with her like Maisie. It's...different, you know? I know you may not trust my judgement after what I pulled tonight, but would you...please just consider what I've asked?" I said.
They all just stared at me, the room deathly quiet.
Dad, finally, said something. "Chloe, we trust you, certainly, but this is a big ask, hmm? Give us a few days to talk this over...alone, okay? I...I just don't know right now," he explained. "Tell me, just how much do you want to tell this Arabella about...us, hmm? Because I'll tell you right now, your mothers and my 'relationship' is definitely off the table, okay? That circle is large enough and I have no intention of widening it, right? About the only thing we may be willing to consider is our being a throuple, okay? Even that we need to discuss, though," he said, adamantly enough that even I understood where the line was.
Would he be okay if I told her about...us, though?