I had never been with a woman before. The thought of it used to scare me. I guess, with age, sometimes a woman like myself can get curious. I've always liked to look at women and admire their beauty, but that's always as far as it got. I never thought of actually having real sex with another woman.
Then, a friend of mine, approached me, revealing her attraction to me. At first I was shocked. I didn't know what to say or how to react! At first, I put her off, by telling her that I was in NO WAY interested in having a sexual relationship with a woman. The subject was dropped for a while, but then, a couple months later she emailed me again, telling me of her interest in me. Again, I wasn't sure how to react, but now she had my curiosity.
Since the first time she had brought up her feelings to me, I tried to imagine what it would be like to sleep with a woman. At first, the thought seemed really weird, but then I found myself getting turned on by the thought. Even when my husband was giving me oral sex, I would imagine that a woman was doing that to me, and I would get so hot. Now I was thinking about it all of the time! I couldn't get the thought of being with a woman out of my head! It was driving me nuts! I couldn't even concentrate at work!
Of course I told her that I was still very uncomfortable with the idea, and that I was very happy, sexually, with my husband...which is true. My husband is a pro in bed. He knows where to touch me to get me going. But, now the thought of her doing the things that be husband orally does, and me being able to do the same...real turned me on. The big problem was, that my husband had no clue of my curiosity. I was afraid to even tell him. In a way, I was embarrassed at the thought, that I was even considering it! So, I didn't tell him.
One afternoon, while my husband was at work, I invited her over to talk. At first, we were both a little bit uncomfortable. She didn't know what to expect from me, and I didn't know what to say to her. Finally, we started talking about other things, like work and our families and stuff. I started feeling a bit more at ease and more relaxed with the conversation. She could tell that I was losing my tension.
Somehow, the subject was brought up again. At first, I wanted to tell her that I couldn't do it...but then, I told her that I was a little bit curious. Her eyes lit up! She asked me if I wanted to talk about it. I told her that I was shy about it, and that I wasn't sure if it would be right to act on it, without my husband knowing...and that...I was also too scared to tell him. I wasn't sure what he'd think!
She then moved over to the couch where I was sitting. She looked into my eyes without touching me, or saying a thing. I knew that I wanted her. I wanted her bad. I think she could see it in my eyes. She lightly brought her hand up to touch my face. I closed my eyes, feeling her caress my cheek. I didn't have to say anything to her. She knew that I was now willing. She then leaned over to my ear and whispered, "Are you sure?" I could feel her breath on my ear. I wanted to say yes, but I could only nod... and she kissed my ear. She then moved even closer to me, gently pulling my body towards hers. I felt her warm lips caress mine, and I kissed her back. I could feel the heat of her flow though me, as we kissed. I reached for her and she signaled for me to relax.