There's something about not seeing someone who you used to see and hang out with literally every day that is hugely depressing. Once you see them again though it's like a weight is lifted off your shoulders and all is well again. Such was the case when we all got back from winter break. I was mostly excited about being able to see Ty again but I didn't realize how happy I would be to see Bethany again until I actually did. Don't get me wrong, I was happy to see Emma and Adam and everyone else too but for some reason when I saw Bethany I could barely contain the huge smile that spread across my face. I'm sure it looked ridiculous but she didn't seem to care as she just ran up to me and hugged me as hard as she could.
"Jamie! I missed you sooo much!" She practically yelled in my ear as she held me tight and refused to let go even after I had clearly stopped hugging her back. Not that I minded, I actually quite enjoyed the feeling of our bodies pressed so close together.
Seriously? It's been two seconds and you're already thinking like that!
My brow furrowed as I mentally scolded myself and I started to detach myself from her. I quickly changed my expression to one of happiness so that she wouldn't think something was wrong and I told her I missed her too and break was good but disappointingly boring and that's when Emma came through the room and we basically repeated the greeting.
We all sat and talked for the next couple of hours, again jumping up and getting excited when Adam came bursting through the door, ceremoniously stepping through the door and announcing his arrival with a fake British accent, "Sir Adam Jonathon Willionson the third has returned!" And so we had to restart all of our stories but we really didn't mind since we were all enjoying being in one another's company again.
It took much less time to settle into a routine than it did first semester and soon we were back to the same old same old. Nothing noteworthy happened until about a month later when I was hanging out with Emma and she suddenly looked up from her book and said, "oh shit!"
"What?" I responded groggily as I had been taking a nap on her couch, a very common occurrence especially after my psychology lecture ends at three on Mondays and Wednesdays and it happened to now be Wednesday at 4:15.
"I'm supposed to meet my group at 4:30 at the library today!"
"Well you better get going, it's a 15 minute walk."
"I know," she said as she frantically grabbed things and shoved them in her backpack. She paused for a second and asked, "wait...isn't there a bus that comes at 4:23?"
"That goes away from the library not towards it." My monotone but slightly annoyed voice answered.
"Fuck." She swore under her breath and continued to grab things and then slung her backpack on. "I'm leaving so don't go anywhere until Bethany gets back or we can't lock the door."
"Mmmp"
"Did you hear me?"
"Yeah, don't leave, Bethany, door, got it." I mumbled
"Are you just going back to sleep?" she asked but I didn't respond, I was already unconscious.
Tsk that girl Emma thought to herself with an amused smile on her face as she hurried down the hall to try and not be too late for her meeting.
* * * *
Bethany got back to her dorm and was surprised to find Emma gone. She thought about waking Jamie up to ask her where she went but she looked so peaceful sleeping she just couldn't. This was literally the girl of her dreams, sleeping on her couch dreaming and there was no way she would interrupt that.
She sat down in her chair and sighed as she watched Jamie. How could she tell her about this? She's always considered herself to be straight, she'd never even considered being with another woman before, plus whenever they even mention lesbians, even just joking about how Jamie must secretly be one because she was big into sports, Jamie would get really mad. Clearly she must be 100% straight and that made Bethany sad. This girl had thrown her for a loop and there wasn't even a chance that if she somehow got over having to change her lifestyle and tell her very Christian parents that she was dating a girl that it would even work out. So she sat there for the next few minutes just admiring this girl who, in her eyes, was the most gorgeous creature she had ever seen, as she lay there on her couch curled up in a ball like she always is when she's sleeping. She turned over and when she did she exposed quite a bit of her neck and it gave Bethany an idea.
Jamie was a sound sleeper, she figured she could probably kiss her while she was sleeping and she wouldn't even know it. This thought got her heart beating really fast and she knew that if she was going to do it that this was the most perfect opportunity. She moved towards the couch and slowly walked towards Jamie, accidentally tripping over a book and catching herself on the back and arm of the couch, not daring to breathe and hoping that Jamie hadn't woken up despite the couch having moved beneath her.
When she was satisfied that her friend was still off in dreamland she stepped back and then lowered herself onto her knees in front of her. She reached out with one hand and gently caressed her face, palm sliding along her jaw as her thumb traced her cheek and down over her slightly parted lips. If her heart wasn't racing before it certainly was now as she licked her lips and slowly started to move forward. She was maybe a centimeter from Jamie when she heard the door being unlocked and she shot up and ran into the bathroom.
Emma came in and dropped her bag on the floor and slumped down into her chair while making a very exaggerated sigh.
Jamie woke up when the bag hit the floor.
Bethany came out of the bathroom shortly after, extremely disappointed at what just happened, but hid it and asked Emma where she had been.
Emma explained and once she was done Bethany asked if they wanted to watch The Notebook. Emma agreed immediately but Jamie said no.
"I'm still really tired so I think I'm just gonna go back up to my room and sleep. See you guys tomorrow."
"Ok" they both said at the same time although Bethany sounded more disappointed than Emma.
"See ya!" Emma added as Jamie walked out the door.
Bethany popped in the movie and sat back in her chair, she watched the movie but her thoughts were running wild with what could have just happened.
* * * *
As soon as Jamie had closed the door behind her she took one step, two steps, and then pressed her back against the wall and slid down until she was sitting.
What Bethany hadn't known was that she had awoken when her friend fell onto the couch. For whatever reason she had decided to pretend to still be asleep, in her newly woken state she figured she had just fallen on her way to get the remote or something. She hadn't considered that her friend was actually about to make a move on her. Of course she wouldn't though, Bethany was straight so she had no reason to even suspect that and she was straight too right? Right, she had a boyfriend and everything. But even though she was surprised when she felt Bethany's hand on her face, she was almost more surprised by the electricity she felt and the warmth that lingered afterwards, especially on her lips. It had taken all of her will power not to do either of the things that she was incredibly tempted to do; she had to fight to not just grab Bethany's face in her hands and kiss her but she also had to fight just as hard if not harder to not jump up and run away. This internal struggle was what had given Bethany the time to get so close to kissing her and when Jamie heard the door and felt Bethany leave her she was simultaneously relieved and saddened.
