The fantasy had become reality, from a crush to a cuddle, then to bodies entwined. H wondered what would happen next, would it be a flash in the pan or the start of something deeper. They were miles apart but somehow H felt so close to her. C's excitement was palpable, almost infectious. H was conflicted, he wanted to be with her but even more he wanted to stay apart, loving as an observer, taking a distant share in her new found lusts, submitting at a distance to the new force in their world. He kept thinking about C's body, a body he knew so well, and wondering about the stranger who had lain next to her. In every idle moment his mind reached out to the reality that he could only imagine.
Over the next few days H and C were talking several times a day. They talked about everything and nothing but not a word was said about C's new lover or the events of that afternoon. This subtext to their lives remained submerged until a week after C's afternoon tea with extras, when she asked if he was still OK with what had happened, if he was still happy to trust her. In all honesty H could tell her that he was.
"I'm happy for you, happy you're having a moment of pleasure. If you're going to have a fling I'm OK with it as long as there are no secrets and I can share your erotic excitement. You were right about submission, I find the whole situation very arousing."
In return C was a little cagey, as though she was digesting his reply, unsure how she could explain her feelings but slowly she opened up a little. C told him.
"There'll be no secrets and to be honest I enjoyed watching you getting aroused when I told you my story of that afternoon but you need to know it's not a fling. I don't know where its going but I needed you to trust me, to back me, to accept my wishes without question."
There was steely determination in C's voice when she said she wanted. H submitted his pledge to her.
"I will, I will trust you. I love you and I know you love me. You've put up with a lot from me so this is your time. I want you to live your dream as long as you keep a place in your heart for me."
C looked at him. "I'm not sure you understand. My feelings for Jenny are driving me but I don't know where they will take me. I'll take this gift from you but you need to know that I'll take all you can give and then demand more. If I trample on your feelings you need to know that it may not be accidental, it may be something I want to do. I need to know I can do what ever I want including if I want to hurt you and then know that you'll support me all the same, unequivocally and with love."
C was right, H didn't understand but he knew he was looking at a turning point, a fork in the road and this might be the last occasion when he had a choice. He explained this to C and she nodded very deliberately, fire in her eyes. He knew he had to tell her that his choice was to say yes, to say yes with all his heart and all his love. A tear welled up in his eye. C looked at him lovingly.
"Thank you"
They didn't speak openly of her affair for another week but H knew that Jenny and C were exchanging messages. H knew better than to ask for another conversation to settle his mind and they passed the time talking about the mundane details of life. They were happy talking, maybe more relaxed together than they had been for years. Beneath this new closeness there was an electric current pulsing. They both knew it and both enjoyed it. There was a twinkle in C's eye that hadn't been seen for ages. H decided to send her a gift so he checked out the Figleaves website, chose a Gossard Glossies bra with matching pants in a cute blue, and added a gift box with a message 'To C with all my love and I hope Jenny enjoys unwrapping you.'
He had tracked the delivery but nothing was mentioned until one morning his phone pinged with a message 'make sure you have a dress or something on'. His heart bumped and he rushed upstairs to make sure he was nicely dressed. Fifteen minutes later he sent a WhatsApp photo of himself in a navy dress with a cute cherry pattern and a pair of tan boots. Within a minute C rang back to make a video call. When H picked up C was sitting in the bra and pants.
"Feast your eyes while you can"
She stood, picked up a jumper and pair of jeans. As she dressed, she said
"I've been invited to go riding. While I'm out I want you to clean the house. I'll send you a list of jobs."
C smiled at H, face glowing . He started to speak but she cut across him.
"I hope you're happy with what's about to happen because I know I am. I'm really looking forward to today. I may even take a tooth brush with me. Don't expect a call till later. Much later."
And with a grin on her face she reached to touch the phone and end the call. Five minutes later H's phone pinged with the list of tasks. It was going to be a long day. H set about his work, loving the feel of lingerie, enjoying the flippy feeling of his skirts over his tights. Floors washed, surfaces scrubbed, the toilet, the whole bathroom. Slowly the dust and dirt gave way to clean and floral perfumes.