This is the follow up to Couples therapy part one. If you have not read the first one, I recommend it so you are aware of the characters discussed here. This story is just myself and Queen while she takes me on a girl's trip. This story wasn't chosen by a vote it was simply one I enjoyed writing and expanding on going over my journal entries from that weekend. Names and places have been changed to keep things anonymous but the rest is as I remember. Enjoy.
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Becoming Princess was the kind of jolt my life needed. I was back in control of my writing and libido and my relationship with Zipporah even began to have positive effect on my work life. Stepping out of the quite unassuming role at work led me to get promoted although it came with attention, I didn't want it was attention deserved. Dee and I were back on good terms and while I thought I would feel suffocated by being in a relationship of sorts I actually felt freer.
When I wanted, I had a warm bed to share with Zipporah and Chadwick or with either or. They understood the limits of my social life so left me alone when I needed time in the hobbit hole to recharge and encouraged me to continue to explore my sexuality with added safety measures. Life as Princess was becoming my new normal and it felt right in more ways than one. Yet lying in bed cuddled up next to Zipporah with her hand casually stroking my back while she read my mind kept trying to find ways to resist the happiness I felt.
I felt loved and it felt wrong or I felt wrong for enjoying it. Up until this point nobody had cared for me like this. I shared my body and moved on keeping that part of me closed off after my first experience with love left me hurt. Now here I was ready to resist something real just because I didn't feel like I deserved it.
I rubbed my hand on her thigh while she turned the pages thinking about if it was ok to feel this good about someone. She was married for Christ's sake! I couldn't truly have her the way I wanted, could I? Chadwick was away on one of his business trips so she and I had the house to ourselves for a week which meant consistent nudity, red wine, and cooking. I didn't mind it at all and to be honest I found I didn't need to go home during that week I basically lived with her when he was away. I started to feel guilty about having feelings about my mentor while her devoted husband was away, I felt guilty about wanting her to myself, I felt undeserving of the love she showered me with.
"What's wrong little Princess?" She asked having an uncanny ability to read me. I had yet to be able to hide anything from her, she saw through every fake smile or forced laugh. It didn't stop me from trying to hide anyway.
"Nothing just a little tired, I have a long day tomorrow and it's got me a little on edge." I lied.
"A long day has you on edge huh." I could hear the doubt in her voice as she leaned over placing her book on the nightstand and scooting into bed with me so we were eye to eye.
"Guess I will have to help you relax." She whispered offering me a smile before kissing my forehead.
It had been a couple of days since we had sex which made my feelings worse because it wasn't the sex that was keeping me around it was just her company.
She kissed me slowly while our hands traversed the familiar terrain of each other's bodies. I loved how she knew just how to touch me when it was just us. The sounds of our kissing and moaning filled the room as she rolled over on top of me letting me feel the weight of her naked body against mine. I curled my legs around her waist embracing her while she playfully bit my lip before sliding her hand between us. Her expert fingers danced with my clit while I moaned in her mouth, she didn't need my words to know what my body needed, for her it was all instinct. She broke the kiss between us and slid down to take one of my nipples in her mouth while pinching the other with her fingers. The combination was enough to get me where I needed to be and quickly but I knew my mistress, my Queen always went first. I held out moaning for her, letting her hear my passion for her.
"I love the way you touch me. I'm all yours I promise." I moaned trying to dance around my truest feelings that even I was afraid to admit.
She responded by slipping two fingers inside me slowly pushing deep and pulling out while kissing down my body. I knew the next thing I would feel was her full lips on my clit and I would no longer be able to hold out. I tried to sit up and stop her.
"You have to cum first my Queen please." I begged feeling the rise as her lips kissed my exposed button.
"Just this once little Princess, just relax." A broken rule was unlike her, a broken rule for me specifically was unheard of.
"I love the way you taste little Princess." She whispered just loud enough for me to hear above my own moans. I gripped the sheets preparing for the waves of my release to hit. I heard her voice in my head whispering what I truly wanted to hear,
I love you Belle.
The voice in my head triggered my climax and I screamed out bucking my hips while she kept her lips on my clit. She wouldn't stop until I begged her to let me go, when the sensitivity was so great it hurt.
She worked her way back up my body letting me taste myself on her lips before lying next to me re adjusting my hair wrap while I caught my breath. After I took my moment, I rolled on my side prepared to give her the same treatment starting with kissing her neck.
"Wait." She said wrapping her arms around me planting another kiss on my forehead.
"When you are ready to tell me what's going on in this beautiful head of yours, I will be here ok? Now that we got you nice and relaxed try to get some sleep."
"So, its blackmail then, I didn't think you would resort to such methods." I replied jokingly but beginning to pout I truly enjoyed pleasing her and she knew it.
"It's not blackmail." She laughed placing her hand on my shoulder forcing me to roll over so she could hold me. She turned off the lamp and pulled me close planting a kiss on my shoulder.
"Something is on your mind, sex won't solve it, it never does little Princess. You just came and still your mind is clouded. I will wait until your mind is ready to enjoy sex not just your body."
"But."
"Shhh, get your rest." She whispered in my ear turning me on and clouding my mind further. I never claimed to be emotionally competent I land on one of two extremes; I blurt everything incoherently or just stop talking. This time I kept my mouth shut.
The next morning, we melded into our routine as I did my best to pretend nothing was going on in my head. I woke her up repaying the excellent job she did on me the night before. Something about making me the first thing on her mind in the morning inspired me to do that as many mornings as I could. We ate breakfast and had coffee together before we went our separate ways for the day.
As per usual I found ways to distract myself from what was actually on my mind by working and writing and for the most part I decided I was over reacting and I needed to chill. Every time I told myself to relax that little voice in the back of my head whispered
but you came when she said I love you.
The argument in my mind back and forth about it was relentless. Most of my day was spent with split attention and it was frustrating beyond belief, I decided I needed to tell someone, anyone. Just get it off my chest and say it out loud. I made my way to the bathroom on the other side of the building and got in the last stall grabbing my phone trying to figure out who I could call. My first instinct was to call Cassidy (I am sorry I didn't girl), something told me not to so I didn't. My next two choices where the people involved so I had to scratch them out, I settled on James. I should have text first but I just called.