Chapter Seventeen.
The next few days were miserable. I just couldn't move past the melancholy that had come down over me. Geoff was being his usual self now, sullen and avoiding my company. I knew why of course but I just couldn't see how we were going to move past it. I found that I just didn't want to know anymore. Previously I would have fretted over it and wondered what I had done wrong but now I knew it wasn't something I had done, not that I am trying to plead innocence here. I know I am far from innocent but if we were both heading in this direction then clearly something was very wrong with our relationship.
I was missing Ben. Other than a few quick conversations with him that were interrupted by either Geoff or Cindy we really hadn't had a chance to discuss what had happened between us. I was beginning to panic and worry that it had all been a big mistake and that Ben would want to sever ties with me. On top of that Cathy hadn't been around yet because her husband was now home and hadn't gone back to work yet. Beth was missing her brother and as such spending more time away from home and out with her friends. It made me realize just how much time they did spend together.
It was such a shock to my system going from such a huge high to this depressing new low. I was just feeling miserable and that was even beginning to make me physically ill.
Chapter Eighteen.
In the two weeks after that life changing couple of days a number of things have happened.
The first was the news that Ben and Cindy were separating. To Geoff Ben was still quite courteous but told him that they were separating because Cindy had admitted to having an affair. When he told him Geoff's face went white and he was stammering for something to say for a few seconds before Ben let him off the hook by saying she hadn't said who she was having the affair with. The damage was done though and it was the final piece of evidence I needed. He looked around at me and although I said nothing the look on my face must have been enough for him to know I knew. The conversation ended quickly after that and Geoff went out on some pretense or other. No doubt he went out and called Cindy.
I called Ben back and after establishing he was okay we had a good chance to talk about our feelings. We came to the conclusion that no matter what happened society would never allow us to be together as a couple unless we moved to Antarctica or somewhere equally bleak, like Canberra. Neither of us wanted that either but we did agree that what happened wouldn't be the only time and that physically we both wanted each other. In fact just the memory of that time had us both shamelessly flirting again. Sadly we had to cut the call short though because Cindy had come back home. That didn't stop me sending him a picture of me naked and masturbating just as a tease. I was pretty happy to receive a return message; A lovely photo of his nice hard cock dripping pre-cum. Just the thought of it had me salivating.
The second thing was that Cathy had been back since her husband had returned to work. In fact she was back almost daily. We finally found enough time between making love to take some photos of her and I have to say that they are some of the most beautiful portraits I have ever taken. Some are erotic, although not all, and I believe that they show in some ways the love I am beginning to feel for her. We are both very happy with them. We often make love but it's very different. There is a lot of intimacy between us now. Not just physical intimacy but also in conversation. I often fantasize about running away with Cathy and when I have spoken of it with her she gets excited at the prospect.
The part that scared me the most was explaining about Ben to her. I just didn't know how she would take it. Let's face it, it's hardly considered acceptable in society. It reached a moment where I felt I would have to tell her because it was a make or break scenario and I felt that if I got any more attached to her and I lost her it would hurt too much. So one day she arrived at my front door in her usual style, bare assed naked wearing little more than a big grin. I smiled back and hugged her and although I was trying not to stress about it it must have shown on my face. We sat down for our usual coffee.
"Okay time to spill the beans. What's bothering you?"
"Is it that obvious?"
"It is to me. What's going on?"
"I just want you to know some things before we go any further."
"Oh okay. That sounds ominous."
"Do you think what we're doing is alright?"
"Well, it's certainly something I have been giving a lot of thought lately. Is it right for our husbands to be strung along like this? Probably not and if you feel about me the way I feel about you then the time is coming soon where something is going to have to give."
"Yeah I think you're right and for what it's worth you know I have fallen in love with you don't you?"
"Yeah I do and I love you too. Makes it hard doesn't it."
