I sat down in my Music Theory class Monday morning after my long weekend of rekindling with Dom. It felt so great to be back together with her! She had captured the feeling perfectly when she told me it felt like she was breathing again, as if she were holding it for an eternity and she finally took a full gulp of air. James came in and the more risque turn of events came flooding back to me and I felt a huge blush on my cheeks. He plopped down next to me in his usual seat, smiling nonchalantly at me.
"Hey!" he was so relaxed. I smirked still blushing and wriggled my fingers at him shyly. He nudged me playfully. "Relax! We're still cool!" he chuckled, not at all phased by the fact that Dom and I ultimately rejected his request to have a threesome. We figured it was in our best interests to keep the relationship between me and Dom.
"So," I offered, not sure what to say and he scratched his chin flipping through his notebook for an open page. I did the same and he put his hand on my arm, a very friendly gesture.
"Honestly Rachel, relax! I understand and it doesn't hurt my feelings. You and Dom are a pretty solid item and I wouldn't want to come between you two. Besides it feels like nothing ever could!" he added and I cringed feeling guilt wash over me. He noticed my change of mood but couldn't ask me anything more because our professor walked in.
"Rach!" James called out to me as I walked to the library to study before my english class. I turned and waved at him and his arm dropped lazily on my shoulders as he escorted me to our usual study room. We normally rented out a tech suite in the library to work on our Music Theory together, sometimes others joined us but this time around we were alone.
"Hey! Can you believe this project? Finding a classical composer and studying their compositions and compare it to modern day music? Real tricky stuff," I grumbled and he shrugged hitting the elevator button. We went up to the third floor and shuffled quietly to our room. We worked silently for a bit, trying to research composers when he cleared his throat.
"I'm curious, about your reaction to my comment earlier about you and Dom, are you two not as solid as every believes?" he inquired suddenly and I felt my heart sink a bit and sighed. Everyone close to Dom and I knew for the most part what happened but no one knows the whole story. No one but Dom and myself. I guess now would be a good time to get it off my chest.
"Look, Dom and I are solid! Stronger than ever! It took me a summer to figure that out, but I fixed my mistakes," I admitted and he pursed his lips a little perplexed. "Okay you want the whole story?" he nodded leaning back in his chair his arms crossed. I took a deep breath to steady myself ready to explain everything. "Dom and I met on the first day of school, because we were roommates. I had never dated anyone, boy or girl, before and she was different and sexy and mysterious to me but we clicked. Then a month after school started we went on, a, date?" I offered and he smirked. "Anyway after that day it was hot, and steamy, and amazing. We slept together every night, we fucked and loved and, well you saw a little bit yourself. That was my whole year last year, when I was doing the whole student thing," I admitted and his face flushed a bit.
"Must have been some freshman year," he mused and I nodded giggling. I couldn't tell if he was uncomfortable or horny thinking about it.
"Well, it all suddenly ended when we had to move off campus for the summer and go back home. We went from being around each other every day to only skyping, texting, or calling to interact with each other. We tried to make it work. Every day for a while we were doing fine," I smiled thinking about how awesome it was at first to work through long distance. "But she wasn't there, you know? And my mom didn't understand it. Never got me, thought it was just a fling and kept pushing me to stop talking to her. Whenever I asked my mom if I could go see her or if she could come see me she would fight with me, or refuse. I got to spend some weekends or long trips at her house but she could never get to see me. And we lived so far away!" I grumbled feeling frustrated all over again. "I had to learn how to handle it, and honestly I didn't know how. Going from not feeling in love with anyone, to loving her so much, to be forced away from her, it was too much. Then my mom did something unbelievable, and I honestly blame her for my relationship issues. My mom started setting up these weird 'happenstance' situations where I would end up having to run into or talk to my best friend from high school," I grumbled remembering it all so vividly.
"Happenstance?" he pressed and I nodded shaking my head.
"She would have him do chores around the yard, or the pool, or fix something in the house that 'broke' you know?" I rolled my eyes chuckling. "Apparently he was in love with me? Or so he told my mom. Well she thought maybe getting the two of us some alone time would 'correct' my curiosities? I don't know. Anyway we did end up hanging out a lot. And I was losing connection with Dom slowly. I didn't text her as much, or when I was with him. I got irritated when she would ask me about my feelings for him. Why I was so attached to him toward the end of the summer. Then, I just started feeling, alone? As if she didn't get me anymore, or my mom, and it felt like he was the only one that would listen. So I started getting caught up in the feeling of having someone around me who cared for me. He was filling a void that was creeping into my heart. I guess you would say I have anxieties when I feel like I'm losing someone or something I freak out," I admitted and he nodded his arms crossed lazily. He was still listening his face concerned and intrigued at the same time.
"Did you do it with him?" he asked suddenly and that threw me off.
"Ew no!" I chuckled when he flinched. "I mean ew because he is more like a brother to me! At least I feel that way now. I mean he tried, it's not to say he didn't. He tried kissing me, cuddling with me, he tried a lot of things," I mumbled. "I didn't do anything with him, but I never stopped his advances either. It was like I was leading him on to keep him wanting me, but I didn't want him or anything with him. I just enjoyed the feeling of having someone around again. And then I did the dumbest thing ever. I told Dom I wanted to take a break and just stopped talking to her," I admitted. "Then I tried liking my friend back. Even tried going on dates to try and create that chemistry with him that I had with Dom. It didn't work. Anyway we got back to school and I spent weeks hating myself and thinking about her. I was afraid to text her or try and talk to her because I didn't know if she even wanted to see me or hear from me again. The only text I ever got from her was about her room assignment, which she only told me about because we were fighting a lot during room selection and so she shacked up with her cousin instead of me," I came full circle. "Which leads us to last week, this weekend, and now. We got back together, talked it all over, and are working back up to what we had before summer, maybe even past that to something stronger? Who knows!" I threw my hands up and he nodded slowly scratching his head.
"So you fucked it up, huh?" he teased and I nodded sheepishly and he smirked. "Damn, thought it was something Nikki did, then maybe I'd have a chance!" he laughed when I swatted at him and ran a hand through his hair. "Relax! I'm joking! Besides I have my eyes on someone else," he admitted and I shook my head laughing with him. We kept working and talking about random things when his phone went off suddenly. "Shit!" he grumbled fumbling in his bag for it. He pulled it out and silenced the alarm. "Meeting before my class, I got to go! Sorry!" he collected everything quickly then rushed out after hugging me. I worked alone then, playing music on my laptop softly for background noise when a knock on the door scared me. I looked up and saw Dom looking through the glass at me her arm up against the door her head resting against it. She blew me a kiss and my heart pounded in my chest as her hand went to the doorknob and she opened it.
"You look so smart and sexy with all your books out and studying so hard like that. I was standing there watching you for a while deciding if I wanted to interrupt you or not," she murmured her voice that husky sound it always was when she was hot for me. I swallowed hard my eyes darting from her face to the window opening up this room to the rest of the library. She dropped her bag walking the short distance toward me leaning over me her hand on the back of my chair her other hand on the table. "Seeing you so freaked out and excited to see me at the same time is a really adorable look for you," she whispered her lips at my ear and my neck. I trembled and she groaned softly.
