This is the forth chapter in the Charlie series. All characters, events, places, and anything else you can think of are figments of my imagination that I put down on paper (metaphorically) for your viewing pleasure.
Also, as a side note, no sex this chapter so if thatâs what youâre looking for, sorry!
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I woke up briefly. It was like trying to walk through a dense fog. I was fighting for consciousness. I heard sirens and voices. My mind was fuzzy. I couldnât comprehend any of the words that were being spoken. There was a copper taste in my mouth. The only thing I knew was that I was still in my car. I tried to move but there was too much pain. My head started to spin and everything faded to blackness again.
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I was still fighting for consciousness. I was afraid of what could happen if I stopped fighting. There were too many what ifs and people I still loved in my life to just give up. Everything was still fuzzy. I was laying flat now. I tried to open my eyes but it was bright I assumed I was in a hospital. I tried to move but there was a shock of pain that seemed to course through my entire body so I concentrated on what the people around me were saying. I was fading in and out but I caught a few pieces of information.
âSheâs waking up, letâs get some pain meds in her. We have lacerations on her head and upper body, suspected broken left leg and ribs. Get the portable x-ray; sheâs too unstable for transport.â
I faded out to blackness again.
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When I awoke next, it was still like trying to fight through a dense fog but it seemed more manageable than before. I gave my body some time to reboot before I tried testing out my senses again.
I was scared. I didnât know where I was or exactly what had happened. I could feel the bed underneath me and the tubes that I assumed were giving me medicine and nutrients. I knew I was hurt, but I couldnât tell how badly.
When I listened, I heard a steady beeping that had to be a heart monitor. I also heard a steady breathing close by and footsteps that sounded farther away. I took into stock that my hearing was working, I didnât want to chance too much movement yet due to the pain I had experienced the last time I tried so I tried to open my eyes. I groaned at the bright light and instinctively shut my eyes. A second later I heard some shuffling and the lights in the room were turned off.
I felt a presence in the room approach my bedside and as soon as I heard the whisper, I knew who it was.
âPlease, please wake up this timeâ I heard Casey whisper.
That was all the encouragement I needed. I knew I had to fight. To make the pain that I heard in Caseyâs voice go away. I had to fight. For her.
I opened my eyes, slower this time to let them adjust which wasnât nearly as bad since Casey had turned the lights off. I opened my eyes just enough to see. I still feeling the effects of what I assumed was a pain killer, making it hard to open them the rest of the way. I turned my heard towards the side of my bed that I heard Casey at. Her head was buried in her arms on the side of my bed.
Painfully I picked my right arm up and gently stroked my hair. She immediately raised her head as she covered her mouth with one hand and squeezed her eyes shut trying to fight back tears.
âHeyâ I barely whispered to her. My mouth and lips were dry.
She didnât say a word, she just reached out and ran the back of her hand down the side of my face. Her concern for me was evident as she pushed the nurseâs button. Her eyes never left mine. I found comfort in the deep blue richness of her eyes like I had many times. Suddenly I knew I would be okay because I would never stop fighting.
I wanted to talk to Casey but the nurse promptly arrived.
âHi, Iâm Nancy, I was wondering when you were going to wake up, we stopped the medicine for your medically induced coma this morning. Do you know where you are and I guess I should start with who you are, you had a pretty good head injury.â Said the older nurse as she put a straw in some water and let me sip on it.
âUm well I know Iâm Charlie, as to where I am I assume at a hospital, and judging by the amount of flowers in this room probably Mercy Generalâ (the same hospital that I worked at)
âWell you have good deductive skillsâ the nurse said as she checked the monitors that the steady being was coming from. âDo you remember what happened, how you got here?â
I kept looking at Casey, she was like a drug to me, I couldnât stop looking.
I didnât want the nurse to know what had transpired between Casey and I since I didnât know Caseyâs reaction yet.
âThe last thing I remember is leaving from workâ I said.
âWell you were in a pretty bad car accident. Somebody was texting and driving and ran the light at the intersection you were crossing. The driverâs side of your car, basically right where you were sitting took the hardest hit. You have lots of bruises, a broken leg along with a few of the bones in your foot, a few cracked ribs, and a total of 76 stitches in various places.â
I was shocked, my mouth kept opening and closing but nothing was coming out. I knew the only reason I had survived was because of Casey. I looked at her again. I could tell that she had already known what had happened but it was still painful to hear again. There were tears silently running down her cheek.
âThe accident was a week ago, youâve been in a coma and your friend hereâ the nurse said indication Casey, âhasnât left yet.â
Now it was my turn to choke back a sob which despite the pain it caused in my ribs was more of a response to knowing that Casey hadnât left after I gave her the letter. A knowing look passed between myself and the nurse and she promptly said that I was looking better and while recovery would take a while, I would most likely have no long term problems and left the room.
When the nurse left there was silence between Casey and I. I still wasnât sure of Caseyâs decision. I couldnât meet her eyes. Casey pulled a chair to the side of my bed and pulled out a folded up piece of paper that I immediately recognized. My eyes were fixed on the paper; I still couldnât look at her. The only sound in the room was the constant beeping coming from the heart monitor.
Finally Casey took a deep breath and let out a sigh. âI got your noteâ she said and left the sentence hang.
I finally looked her in the eye. She was smirking at me! Out of all of the reactions I had anticipated, a smirk was not one of them but it cooled off my nerves. She then lowered her eyes and stared at the note.
âI can see that.â I responded.
âAnd I uhâ Casey continued, âthought I had my mind made up....but then the accident happenedâ
I thought my heart was going to drop through my chest and hit the floor. Casey looked like she didnât know how to say what she was thinking. I reached out to brush her hair from her eyes and tuck it behind her ear. My hand then cupped her cheek and tilted her face up.
âCasey I need your answer this is killing meâ I said.
She put her hand over mine that was still resting on her cheek and uttered one syllable that made me think that I really had died and gone to heaven.
âYesâ
I was silent, not wanting to break the spell that had been created by that one word. I was at peace. The Girl I had been in love with for close to seven years had finally moved me out of the friend zone.
âButâ she continued, âI canât promise itâll be easy. This week gave me a lot of time to think. Before I got the call that you had been in an accident I thought there was no way I could go through with this. This accident was a blessing in disguise. What the nurse didnât tell you earlier was that at one point you were actually dead for almost a minute and a half. When I heard that, it felt like my heart split in two. At first I thought it was just because you were my best friend. Then I realized that there was no way I could have continued with a regular life without you. I would have been heartbroken. I feel a deeper connection with you than I ever have with anyone.â
By now I had silent tears streaking down my face. Happy that Casey realized what there was between us, but sad it took me dying for her to figure it out and ecstatic that she was telling me how she felt. I let her continue without speaking.
âI want to be with you, but I donât know howâ she finished uncertainly.
âWe will just be usâ I said. I know it sounded cheesy but it was true. The only thing that would change would be that now I didnât have to restrain from doing all of the things I wanted to do with Casey. I scooted to one side of my bed and patted the other side, indicating that Casey should lie down with me.
âI donât want to hurt youâ she stated as she looked tentatively over the cast and bandages that covered my body.
âWhat is painful is not being able to hold the love of my life like I want to for the past seven yearsâ I said.
Casey understood and while she seemed taken slightly aback by my confession, she gently took the spot next to me on the bed. I was exhausted and it felt as though I was getting another dose of pain meds. I quickly drifted off to sleep with my arm draped over Caseyâs shoulder and her head resting on my shoulder after I gave her a kiss on top of her head and I felt her smile against me.
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I awoke the next morning to find Casey gone. When the nurse came to check on me she noted my foul mood. She told me that Casey went home to gather some of my clothes so I wouldnât have to walk around in the hospital gown.