Since I know you've already read the prior six chapters (you've been a good reader, right? No skipping to the end?), there's no need for me to tell you of the important character under the age of eighteen in this story. You already know that in order for me to tell the tale of a young single mom, her munchkin has to be in it. But just because she's a single mom, doesn't mean she's irresponsible. She always makes sure the munchkin is safely tucked in her own bed and sleeping while the grownups play.
Chapter 7
Jennifer
I sat in the hospital waiting room chair, wiping the tears from my eyes. While Madison was sleeping in my lap, Whitney's hand rested on my leg, the reassuring touch helping to calm my nerves. My mind was racing with all kinds of what ifs, and all of them were ending up in that dark, no good corner of my head.
I lifted my head and looked at Whitney and shook it in disbelief. Across the room, Chaplin Harrison and Chief Murkowski sat on a bench. They were trying to give us space but would check in on us from time to time to see if we needed anything.
"We're going to get through this. Together, I'm right here for you, babe." Whit's voice was steady and reassuring.
"Thanks, I don't know why this is hitting me so hard."
"Jennifer, you've known Dallas your whole life. You went to school with him since when? Kindergarten? First grade?"
"Kindergarten," I murmured
"You were best friends. He was your date to the prom, he's the father of your child. Regardless of the status of your relationship to him now, you two will forever be connected because of Madison."
I looked at Whit with a blank face. So many things were swirling through my head, I wasn't able to process words.
"Jenn, you're buzzing."
"Huh?"
"Your phone. It's buzzing."
I glanced down; it was Dallas' parents. They were walking into the hospital and wondering where I was. I told them which waiting area we were in, how to find it, and a moment later they walked in.
Mama O. motioned for me to sit back down.
"You don't have to stand because I'm here. You have a precious bundle sleeping in your arms. Let's try not to wake her."
But it was too late. Little eyes opened, and a head turned to the sound of a familiar voice. She sat up in my lap and reached out to her
Babcia
.
"Have you heard anything yet?" a tired Papa O. asked.
"Not yet." I glanced at my watch, it was one thirty in the morning. They had made good time getting here. We all slumped back into chairs and waited. Chaplin Harrison and Chief Murkowski came over and introduced themselves to Dallas' parents. The Chief left and returned a few minutes later with a cup of coffee for Papa O.
It was a couple minutes before two AM when a doctor came around the corner looking for us. I knew what he was going to say by the slowness of his gait and the ashen look on his face. The words which came out of his mouth a moment later confirmed my worst fears.
Whitney
"I'm not wearing a dress or a skirt, Whitney. I told you, I'm done with them. No more, never again. I don't like them."
"But you can't wear jeans or cargo pants to a funeral, Jennifer."
"I know, I'm going to go find some slacks or a suit. I dunno what, just something."
I put another pod in the coffee machine and hit brew. It was going to be one of those days.
"Can I get anyone a refill?" I looked over at the table. Mr. Olinski held up his cup.
"Please." The ache in his voice was palpable.
"Thanks again, dears for letting us spend the night." Mama O. said to Jenn and me as I sat back down next to my girl.
"Of course, there is always room for family.
We were all tired. Neither Jenn nor I slept well once we got home from the hospital. While Jenn got Madi put down in our bed, I had gotten Madi's queen-sized bed, a bed formerly for guests, ready with some clean sheets so Mr. and Mrs. Olinski could spend the night. I did what I could to help Jenn relax and get some sleep. But she tossed and turned like I'd never seen her do before. Not that I was surprised by it though.
Right then, a little one appeared in the kitchen. She had just woken up and her hair was all askew. She saw her
Babcia
and climbed into Mama O's lap.
"Morning sunshine," her grandma said softly as she stroked her hair.
I heard Jenn and my phone's ding simultaneously. "Who's it from?" I asked Jenn as she looked at her phone. She, more than I, had received many texts from people across the company expressing sympathy for Jenn and Madi. I had left texts with my mom and uncles letting them know what was happening and that neither of us would be in the office. Word was getting out.
"Captain Eriksen." She looked at me. Nothing more needed to be said.
We sat around the table for a couple more minutes, when Mr. Olinksi broke the silence.
"Well mother, we should probably get our things ready and head to Port Angeles. We got some work cut out for us."
"Do you need me to come and join you?" Jennifer said.
"I think we can manage, dear. We'll let you know if we do. It's mainly Dallas' personal stuff. His place was furnished, so maybe, other than his futon, I don't think he has anything big. And that we will probably find someone there who might like it. I think a few other enlisted personnel live in his building.
We were standing in the driveway watching Madi's grandparents pull out when a delivery van pulled up. A middle-aged woman got out with a bouquet.
"Delivery for a Madison DeLuca," she said, walking towards us.
Jenn pointed down to Madi, who was still in her jammies, even though it was now just past noon.
"Here you go, sweetie. A little something to brighten your day."
Jenn plucked the note card out. The flowers were from Ginny and everyone at the Maritime office. It was a nice touch.
We both attempted to work the next day. I went over a few times to check on Jenn. As did my Mom. Clearly, Jenn was going through the paces and was barely putting one foot in front of the other.
That afternoon she had gotten a call from Mama O. with some details of the service for Dallas. The public affairs officer at the base was working closely with them to hammer out the details, but it appeared Saturday would be the day of the service. Since Dallas lost his life in the line of duty, it was expected that many people would attend the service, out of respect for his service, if nothing else. And it was turning out to be difficult to find a venue large enough on such short notice.
As I left the Maritime office to head back to my office from a mid-afternoon visit, I said on my way out, "Well, tonight then after work, we'll go shopping and find you something."
In the evening, while my parents watched Madi, Jenn insisted we look first at the thrift store to see if there was something she could wear on her budget. Her argument made sense. How many funerals does she plan on going to in the next few years? This was going to be a one and done purchase.
There was quite a collection of business pant suits, but none of them were of a style and color acceptable for a funeral, or if they were, they were the wrong size. Jenn kept trying and checking out different options, but nothing was working for her. While she kept looking, I went over to the girl's section and found a cute dark navy sailor dress perfect for Madison. Not black, but it was respectful and honored her father's position, I thought. I headed back to a frustrated Jenn.
"Aargh! There has to be something here that will work."
"Nothing's doing it for you, huh?"
"Yeah, I know what I want. I want something along the lines of a men's suit but made for a woman. Like what that artist was wearing at the museum. I've thought about going over to the men's section and trying on a suit or two, but I know the pants will be all wrong." Jenn pointed to her hips. "I might not have a booty like yours, Whit, but my hips are still a mother's hips. I have tried many pairs of men's pants in the past and none of them work for me. They don't feel right."