Thank you to my flotilla of beta readers, AwkwardMD, Bookwormmom, Bramblethorn, and NellyMcBoatFace, plus my new editor, BrokenSpokes, who all provided some critical suggestions and hopefully made this a smoother read.
There is an important character under the age of eighteen in this story. It's sort of hard to write a story about a young single mom and not have her munchkin in it. But don't worry, when we do get to the adult playtime parts, the little one will be safely tucked in her own bed and sleeping while the grownups play. These are responsible adults after all.
Chapter Two
Jennifer
Whitney caught me as I fell, and I immediately felt safe. Her steadying arms wrapped around me, pulling me into her. Her big brown eyes were mesmerizing. In that moment, the entire world faded out and all I could see was her. I watched as she leaned forward, and I closed my eyes, fearing she would shy away. Never in my life had I felt anything like this, certainly not with Madi's father. Her lips were soft as they pressed into mine. No sordid tongues, just the lingering taste of her lip gloss and warmth of her heart.
You've heard some people say they saw stars when they had their first kiss? Or like a bolt of electricity hitting them? I'd have to say those analogies are poor ones for what I felt, but I'm not sure I know the right word to use other than magical.
My eyes were fluttering, as I processed what had just happened, when someone said it bluntly and perfectly.
"Mommy, you just kissed Miss Whitney!" Whitney and I both looked down and smiled at Madi.
"Yes, pumpkin, I kissed Miss Whitney. Is that okay with you?"
"Does that mean you love her?" There's nothing like an unfiltered four-year-old to ask the real question swirling around in my heart that I wasn't sure I knew the answer to. But I knew I wanted to find out.
"Um, that's something that you don't get to ask, sweetie. But I sure do like her." I couldn't contain the smile on my face or the warm fuzzies I was feeling.
"Do you like Mommy, Miss Whitney?"
"You'd better believe it, munchkin. How about we go over to the snack bar and get some hot cocoa?"
Thank you, Whit, for changing the subject. She took my hand, and we skated over to the snack bar. Wow, what had I just done? I was all butterflies now. Was I really going to do this romance thing?
I had been thinking about it for a couple of days, especially after last night. Holding her hand had opened up parts of my heart I had not opened in years. My past was starting to make sense as well; why I'd turned down so many offers to go on a date from my male classmates. I realized I had been completely uninterested in them.
With Madi's father Dallas, it was more of a relationship of convenience and lifelong friendship. We had known each other since elementary school, had many mutual friends in common, and hung out in the same social group often. The others in our circle were mostly paired up, so it was natural when we paired up as well. It was just what you did in a small town.
We had only gone on a few dates when Senior Prom rolled around. I think we both wanted to see what this sex thing was all about, and neither of us wanted to graduate as virgins. We had stopped in the empty parking lot of an office building in a dark corner. A couple of swigs of pilfered liquid courage, and we were in the back seat. That experience hadn't been bad, but it was nothing like this.
I stumbled my way to a seat as Whit got three hot cocoas. Suddenly I was watching her in a whole new light and was otherwise lost in space. Whit gave Madi hers with a candy cane stuck in it. Little Miss greedily sucked on the candy cane as her drink cooled.
Whit slid next to me and slipped her arm around me. "Um, was that okay back there?"
I had to concentrate on her voice, as her beautiful brown eyes captivated my attention.
"Sorry, I didn't quite plan it that way. It just felt like the natural thing to do and..."
"It was perfect, Whit. Deep down, I was kinda hoping something like this would happen. I was more surprised with my mini me around than anything else."
"Whew."
I could see the relief on her face. I think the fears of rejection are always going to be present with her. Whit nudged me with her elbow and guided my view out to the rink. Her friend Molly skated past us with both thumbs up.
"I think she saw us," Whit said, sarcastically chuckling.
"I think the whole rink saw us," I confirmed, acknowledging the obvious.
"Are you fine with that?"
"With people knowing I kissed a woman? Why wouldn't I be? Not like it is any of their business."
"What about your friends or your mom?"
"Chantal won't care. She's probably had sex with a woman before. I know she used to be an escort, so who knows what she did. The ladies from church, them I'm not sure about. My mom, she probably won't care. I don't talk to her much."
"What are you thinking now?"
"That if you don't take me back out there soon and hold my hand, you're going to be in trouble." I gave Whit an expectant look.
"Not yet Mommy, I've gots to finish my candy cane." I had been so focused on Whitney that I had forgotten about my daughter for a moment. I looked over at her and saw the big red candy stains on the side of her mouth. Whit and I both laughed.
"Stay here, I'll get a few napkins to clean her up with." Whitney said.
Even with skates on, Whit walked across the rubberized floor with grace. We got Madison cleaned up then made our way back to the ice. Never in my life have I had more fun. I felt alive, with not a care in the world. Even though I fell a few times, and crashed into the wall a lot, having Whit there to pick me up made it worthwhile.
"I'd better wear tights or slacks tomorrow, otherwise I'll have to explain the bruises I know I'm going to have," I mused as we came off the ice and got our shoes back on. Leaving the building, I found both my hands being held: one by a little girl who I knew loved me with every bone in her body, and the other by a big girl who I was hoping would do the same.
Once back in Whit's car, as we pulled out, I got a bit of a side eye from her. "Jenn? Can I ask you something rather selfish?"
"Um, okay?" I was nervous by how she phrased her question.
"I don't want today to end, spending time with you, that is. I... um... like you, a lot and um..." Her knuckles were almost white with her grip on the steering wheel and her eyes were locked on the road ahead, "Would you like to have dinner with me again, tonight?"
Whit risked a glance towards me and I saw her match the big, silly grin on my face. I felt myself pushed back in my seat as she stomped on the gas in further reply.
We were pulling into her garage when she suggested, "Grab your bags and you can run your shopping haul through my laundry. I've a bunch of extra hangers in the laundry room."
Once parked and unloaded, Madi wanted to carry the bags by herself from the thrift store up the two flights of stairs, but I gave her a hand for the last flight and a half. Whit showed me where her laundry closet was and once she saw I was comfortable with her washer's controls, she headed back down to her kitchen, leaving me to manage the rest.
"How does pizza sound?" she hollered up to me.
I heard Whit rummage around in the kitchen as I rejoined her and Madi. I stood in the door and watched my little girl be Whit's shadow, following her around.
"Can we have pepperoni, Miss Whitney?"
"Do you like pepperoni too, Madi? It's like my f-a-a-a-a-v-o-r-i-t-e kind." Whit looked so cute as she got down on a knee to be at eye level with Madi and made exaggerated arm gestures.
"Don't you think that was a bit over the top?" I whispered. Whit just smiled, whipped out her phone, and ordered via an app.
"Can I watch a movie, Miss Whitney?" Madi had already sat down in front of the TV with the remote in her hand. Skipper was rubbing her head against her new friend's tummy, contentedly purring.
"If it's okay with your mommy, it's okay with me."
I helped my daughter find something I approved of. This time it was
A Charlie Brown Christmas
. Then I left her to her cartoons and found Whit in the kitchen. She handed me a glass of red.
The wine was mellow and relaxing, but I knew something that would taste better. "Whitney, er, someone's in the other room, and I think she'sβ" She didn't let me finish my thought. She pulled me to her, and I tasted her lips. Again, it was as if the whole world disappeared. My hands did their share of touching too. Feeling the back of her sweater, I pulled myself as tight against her as I could.