I’d like to share with you all what happened on the day when everything changed for me. It’s a story that needs to be told, so credit can be given to a woman who deserves it. That woman’s name is Caroline Fitzgerald, better known to you as Carmen Cantrell.
Back then I was fresh out of high school. Don’t ask me how I suddenly ended up in the porn industry, but there I was, doing small to medium roles, sucking dicks here and there, and trying to make it big like all the rest.
It was a typical day at first. I came out of the locker room wearing my costume, (which consisted of a thin choker around my neck and high heels, nothing else), and made my way down to the set. Passing the male crewmembers in the halls still made my heart race back then. They were fully clothed of course and I wasn’t. It took me months to get used to their stares but it was always exciting. I looked good, really good, and they all knew it, but I just didn’t have the confidence, at least not just yet.
I found Marty Hernandez and told him I was ready. “Ah, Clarice, there you are. You look fabulous,” he said. “Thanks, Marty.” He checked his clipboard. “Okay, let me see. Yeah, your lesbo scene will be up in five or ten minutes, as soon as those two are done.” He pointed to the stage where Vick Vicious was doing Lana St. George doggy-style. She was moaning loud enough to wake the dead. Heh, good ol’ Lana. “There’s a change though,” Marty continued. “Raquel couldn’t make it down here so Carmen Cantrell is going to do that scene with you.” “Carmen?” I asked, with a little too much surprise in my voice. “Yeah that’s right. That’s not a problem is it?” “Uh, no. No, that’ll be fine.”
Carmen Cantrell -- I couldn’t believe it. Carmen was considered by many to be the queen of porn back then. There was a rumor that had said that she’d never actually had an orgasm in front of the camera, but she was the best faker of them all. Other porn girls got goose bumps when they watched her in action. Well I knew that even if I couldn’t make her come, it would nevertheless do wonders for my career just to be seen with her.