Iâd like to share with you all what happened on the day when everything changed for me. Itâs a story that needs to be told, so credit can be given to a woman who deserves it. That womanâs name is Caroline Fitzgerald, better known to you as Carmen Cantrell.
Back then I was fresh out of high school. Donât ask me how I suddenly ended up in the porn industry, but there I was, doing small to medium roles, sucking dicks here and there, and trying to make it big like all the rest.
It was a typical day at first. I came out of the locker room wearing my costume, (which consisted of a thin choker around my neck and high heels, nothing else), and made my way down to the set. Passing the male crewmembers in the halls still made my heart race back then. They were fully clothed of course and I wasnât. It took me months to get used to their stares but it was always exciting. I looked good, really good, and they all knew it, but I just didnât have the confidence, at least not just yet.
I found Marty Hernandez and told him I was ready. âAh, Clarice, there you are. You look fabulous,â he said. âThanks, Marty.â He checked his clipboard. âOkay, let me see. Yeah, your lesbo scene will be up in five or ten minutes, as soon as those two are done.â He pointed to the stage where Vick Vicious was doing Lana St. George doggy-style. She was moaning loud enough to wake the dead. Heh, good olâ Lana. âThereâs a change though,â Marty continued. âRaquel couldnât make it down here so Carmen Cantrell is going to do that scene with you.â âCarmen?â I asked, with a little too much surprise in my voice. âYeah thatâs right. Thatâs not a problem is it?â âUh, no. No, thatâll be fine.â
Carmen Cantrell -- I couldnât believe it. Carmen was considered by many to be the queen of porn back then. There was a rumor that had said that sheâd never actually had an orgasm in front of the camera, but she was the best faker of them all. Other porn girls got goose bumps when they watched her in action. Well I knew that even if I couldnât make her come, it would nevertheless do wonders for my career just to be seen with her.
Meanwhile on stage, Vick unloaded onto Lanaâs face. That man sure knew how to shoot. Lana sucked him for a few seconds until Marty shouted, âCut!â Lana was handed a paper towel to wipe her face with. She and Vick shook hands and left the stage. âOkay people,â Marty called out. âScene six is up next. Thatâs Miss Carmen Cantrell and Clarice Mitchell. We shoot in three minutes!â Just our two names together like that sounded so wild to me.
As the crew moved the set around for the next scene, I went over to the table and had a couple shots of vodka because I sure needed something to calm me down. I fixed my hair up and climbed onto the stage, taking my place in the designated spot, and waited for my costar. Carmen entered stage right wearing a beautiful blue nightgown made of a thin silky material. She looked amazing, as usual. She got into bed, ready for the scene to start. âGood luck, Miss Mitchell,â she said without really looking at me. âYou too,â I replied, not knowing what else to say. She smiled and said, âThanks honey, but I donât think Iâll need it.â Somehow I had expected her to be that way â not mean exactly, just proud. And why not? She was the best after all. But something came over me in the brief period before Marty started us off. I suddenly felt the need to prove myself, to show the world what Clarice Mitchell could do. I would make her come even if my tongue fell off in the process. I knew right then, it was now or never.
The scene started with Carmenâs line. âOh Marta, I wonder if you would do something for me to help me sleep.â âYes, mistress, what shall it be?â my character responded. Carmen ceremoniously lifted her gown and revealed her naked pussy. âI was hoping you could use your tongue, dear.â I was so mesmerized by her vagina that I nearly missed my cue. âYes, mistress.â I walked over to the bed and knelt down at its side while Carmen pulled the gown over her head so she was naked as well. She then positioned her crotch in front of me and spread her legs as wide as possible. Everything was so flawless about her, but I made myself concentrate on the scene.