PART TWO: JULY
CHAPTER ONE: A Little Companionship
The next camp rotation, starting July first, was for girls from 10-12. It's that brutal age where everyone has to be mean in order to not be insecure, puberty is in full awkward force, and nobody knows what to do with any of their feelings. It was also my favorite age, honestly, when it came to being a counselor. The kids were complex, with big questions and big ideas and big dreams. Hearing the way they talked about the world and the people around them somehow changed the way I did every time. Plus, most years, there were girls coming up who I'd had in my cabin for the years before, and that was always a treat.
Plus, plus, they didn't need and didn't want as much supervision as the youngest girls. They didn't constantly tug on my sleeve for affirmations about their latest craft or questions about how many islands there were in the Pacific Ocean. Hopefully, those extra moments of freedom would give me more time to connect with Olive. Ever since Jacks said she thought me and Olive might have something real, I've wanted to figure that out for myself.
I collected the eight girls who'd be in my cabin -- half of whom I knew from previous years and half I didn't yet -- and absentmindedly supervised while they put their things away. They had free time to romp around and explore from lunch to dinner, which meant we counselors were just stationed at different spots around camp in case anyone, like, tried to climb a tree that was too high for them or shoved another girl in a PMS-induced rage or tried to wander out of bounds.
Speaking of which, my self-appointed station was up on the cliffs, which felt radically different during a bright sunny day than it did in the middle of a deep night. I clicked my walkie-talkie on and spoke into it, "Maintenance, this is Maisie. There's a big wobbly rock up here that's a huge trip hazard for when the girls go cliff jumping. Could I get someone up here?"
Olive's voice crackled back through to me. "On it. Coming from the main hall, so I'll be there in a few."
I grinned, hoping it wasn't too obvious in my voice. "Thank you. Over."
For the few minutes I was alone before Olive showed up, I leaned my head backward and basked in the warm sun. The sound of waves on the rocks drowned out any of the noise from camp, letting me feel free for a minute.
Without my even noticing that she'd approached, Olive sat down next to me and nudged me with her elbow. "So where's this big wobbly rock?"
I opened my eyes and looked at her. Instead of responding right away, I got halfway up and sat in her lap for a moment. "Tomorrow's field trip day into Bar Harbor. Think you can get driving as your responsibility tomorrow? I get a ton of time to myself in town while the girls go on that guided tour your mom insists on doing every year. It'd be nice to have a little..."
"Companionship?" She teased. "Pretty sure I can." Her hands trailed down my back, a cool contrast to the baking sun. "Trina pretty much lets me go wherever I want. I guess that's what Mom told them to do at the beginning of the summer."
"Not a bad deal."
She shrugged. I sensed a little pain in her voice that I hadn't expected. "It's because Mom doesn't think I can commit to doing anything. She wouldn't trust me to show up to the same tasks every day. Like, I actually have my lifeguard certification, but she doesn't think I'd be reliable to watch kids."
"I didn't know that," I replied. I kissed her softly and climbed out of her lap, worried at the back of my mind that someone would see us. "Have you tried to talk to her about it?"
"That wouldn't work." Olive sighed, rubbing her thumbs together nervously. Her breath joined the salty air. "You probably know already, but my Dad died when I was like sixteen."
I nodded. I scooted close to her so that our bodies would block the view of me as I took her hand in mind. "I remember hearing about that. She was gone that whole summer taking care of him and some other woman ran the place."
"Yeah." She watched our hands. "So, ever since then, she has this attitude that my sisters and I have to prove that we deserve anything. We all kind of flew off the handle when he died, I guess. Probably because he was the one who really parented us. Mom was too busy. So now if we need anything from here -- even just, like, a sign that we're doing something right -- she makes us work our asses off. Never trusts anyone but herself to do anything."
"She definitely strikes me as one of those 'I'll just do it myself if I want it done right' parents."
"Exactly."
The next time she sighed, I joined her. We sat in silence for a minute. I scanned the shore to make sure no girls were trying to get outside of where they were allowed. It seemed like most of them had found places to sit and talk or run around closer to the main hall.
Wanting to fill the silence and wanting to be vulnerable, too, if she was going to be, I said, "My mom is the opposite. She thinks I can do anything, which means she expects me to do everything. Only thing I've ever been really good at is lacrosse, and that doesn't exactly have a stable career path post-college. I guess I'm alright with guitar, too, but not enough to do anything with it."
Olive cut me a surprised glance. "You play guitar? Did you bring one to camp with you?"
I shook my head. "My only guitar is this super nice vintage telecaster that Dad got me when I got into Drexel. Mint green. It ran him like ten thousand dollars or something. At least enough that he's never admitted the price to me. Divorced parents give guilty gifts."
She chuckled and said, "At least there are some perks. You sing too?"
My voice got serious as I told her, "You're looking at the Camp Sutton end-of-summer talent show winner two years in a row. Singer-songwriter."
A smirk played at her lips, her expression coy. "You should write me something."
I nudged my shoulder into hers again, this time dropping my head into the crook of her neck for a second. "I haven't written a song since I was fourteen, I think. My feelings were much bigger back then."