"I just can't believe it." Lana sighed, slumping on the table, cradling her drink. "I mean, both of our relationships ending on exactly the same day, craziness!"
"I know," I replied, half smiling about the odd timing of it all.
Lana had been dating this nerdy programmer for a few months now. He was someone who if he had just stayed a geeky, sci-fi obsessed, social awkward guy his whole life, would probably gotten along with Lana for much longer. Unfortunately, the tech industry in this town has the ability to shower these types with more money than they know what to do with, and eventually it goes to their heads. Jason slowly became self-obsessed and eventually Lana was no longer good enough for him. He broke up with her once he found someone "hipper", as he put it.
Lana had been heartbroken before. Just last year when she was 21 I slowly helped her recover from the man who she had finally lot her virginity to. And today, just like last year, I was shocked that men could turn away from a girl like Lana.
At 5'9", she stood above her last boyfriends. She had long legs, long blonde hair that now reached her low back, creamy white skin, round breasts that perfectly fit her figure.
Lana's downside was that she never had the confidence to show off her body in any way. Her clothes were usually a bit baggy, although cute in that indie sorta way. She carried herself with a slightly defeated slouch, which did not attract the sort of men that would have treated her right.
"How did it end with Erik?" Lana asked.
"Well," I slowly replied, spinning the plastic straw in my gin and tonic "I had a hunch he was cheating on me, so I called him and he flew off the rails. Called me an insecure bitch and that was that."
"Was it true? How could he cheat on you, you're beautiful?"
Lana's complement made me feel wonderful. Admittedly, I try hard to stay fit and attractive. I'm slightly shorter than Lana with dark olive skin and jet black hair, genetic gifts from my Indonesian-American parents.
"Thanks Lana... Ya know, even if it wasn't true it would have ended then and there. I can't stand being called a bitch, especially by someone I'm sleeping with."
"Wow," Lana replied, sounding proud "You have guts Maggie. I don't know if I could stand up to a guy like that, even if I had solid evidence."
"Don't say that Lana" I said, not wanting to enforce her defeated mindset. "You will bounce back, we both will. We just need a little time to regroup, and maybe shop for a little wardrobe that's a little more modern, that shows the boys what their missing when you walk buy them."
Lana blushed at the compliment. "Thanks, I don't know. I think right now I need another drink to start with." Lana faked a smile and flagged down the server to get another round.
"Really though Maggie, I think something is wrong with me."
"Nothing is wrong with you, Lan" I assured her, knowing where her train of thought was headed. "You just need to be confident in who you are, what you want, and to hell with everyone else."
"Maybe your right," Lana nodded. "I.. I just doubt myself all the time. It's hard for me to find purpose, even when I'm in a relationship."
"Your purpose should not be a relationship with some jackass. You just need to trust in yourself, find things that give you joy and let that be your purpose."
The server placed two fresh G&Ts on our table as we continued out conversation.
"Lana, listen, if you are truly feeling like you can't do this by yourself, maybe you need to talk with a counselor again."
"Ya, I think you might be right Maggie. This is just crushing, and I don't want to bring you down every time we hangout."
"You never bring me down Lan, you are my best friend and I just want you to be happy."
"Thanks," Lana smiled a genuine, glowing smile at me. "I got the number for a new therapist a few weeks ago, I might try it. Sounded a bit different from others I had been to. The first sessions sound like they are almost a retreat, of sorts."
"A retreat?" I asked, glad for her change of mood.
"Yes," Lana said, her mood improving as she shared with me. "It sounds like it takes most of the weekend, at least for the first month or so."
"Where would you stay?"
"Not sure, I haven't really looked into all the details because I thought I might improve, but after today the thought of getting away and getting a little personal help at the same time sounds really good."
"You know what, you're right Lan, that sounds perfect. You should do more research and let me know. If you are headed away for a weekend let me know."
"Of course I'll keep you posted. Not sure if I will go through with it, kinda depends on price, but I'll let you know."
"Thanks," I said. The server came and dropped off the check. "I got this." I said, grabbing the bill and leaving the appropriate cash on the table. Lana and I finished our drinks, stood up and gave each other a long hug. "You are doing great, I love you Lan"
"Love you too, Maggie. I've gotta catch the bus, but I'll see you soon, unless this retreat works out."
"Perfect" I said. Lana crossed the street to the bus stop and I walked towards my apartment.
A few days later I got a text from Lana
Hey Maggie-Looked into the retreat. It's all one-on-one work with a guide. Sounds like it is just on the other side of town. I won't be able to use my phone.
Great Lana, let me know how it goes!
A week later, I hadn't heard from Lana and I started to get nervous.
How was the retreat?
No response. So I waited a day and texted again.
Hey Lana, it's been a little while, hope everything went well.
Nothing. I started to get a little nervous, but by then it was Friday and if Lana was going to a second week of treatment then I would have to wait until Monday to hear anything, so I put it out of my mind and enjoyed my weekend.
On Monday evening I tried again.
Lana, hope you're OK. We should grab drinks and talk.
Later that night, I finally received a reply.
Hey Maggie, everything's fine! Let's meet at Neo's tomorrow afternoon, 4ish.