Look, this isn't easy for me to say so I'm just going to say it. My name is Tina Jane Connell, T.J. to my friends, and I'm a biracial woman living in the City of Ottawa, Ontario. I was born in the City of Calgary, Alberta, to a Jamaican mother and Irish-Canadian father. Expressing myself through writing is one of my hobbies. A lot of things have been happening in my life lately, and I want to clear my head. See where I've gone wrong and retrace my steps, you know? I recently moved back to Ottawa, the town where I studied for my B.A. and my MBA. I miss Calgary but I got unfinished business in Ottawa.
Recently I went to visit my alma mater, Carleton University, the place where I earned my MBA. I missed my school, even though it's been five years since I graduated. I am thirty years old, a time when most women are getting married and having brats. Me? I'm unsure where my path lies. I am attracted to both women and men, and I've had disastrous relationships with both. I don't see myself as some woman's partner or some man's wife. I see myself walking a lonely road until the day I die. And that's just unacceptable.
While walking through the Carleton University library, I ran into my former classmate Khadija Wahid, who was apparently a teacher's assistant now. Seeing her brought back so many memories. Khadija looked real good in a stylish white blouse and dark gray silk pants, along with a dark gray vest. Standing five-foot-nine, chubby and dark-skinned, with large breasts and a booty that just won't quit, the woman I once called my Somali Goddess was as lovely as ever. Hello Jen, I said, and gave her a hug. Hello Tina, she said, hesitating a bit. I resisted the urge to give her big, heart-shaped ass a squeeze ( for old time's sakes ) and complimented her on her figure. You look wonderful, I said, giving her the once-over.
Since Khadija Wahid was heading to lunch, I accompanied her, just so we could catch up. Walking through the school's vast hallways, through the tunnels leading from the library to the university center and the food court, all the memories from the old days came flooding back. Khadija Wahid and I got some Shawarma from the new restaurant inside the university center, and then sat in the middle of the lunch room...just like old times. I pestered Khadija Wahid with questions as we ate. Was she married? Did she have any brats stashed away somewhere? Khadija sipped on her drink, smiled at me and told me she was single and ready to mingle. I smiled at her. Good answer Miss Somalia, I replied.
I left campus that day feeling elated, to tell you the truth. Khadija and I used to be girlfriends, if you haven't guessed it already. While undergrads at Carleton ages ago, we met, and got involved. What a pair we made. A biracial Christian woman and a Muslim gal from Somalia...lesbian lovers! Just goes to show you that you just never know who and what you're dealing with. People can surprise you. I mean, as far as Muslim women go, Khadija Wahid is one of the most conservative you'll ever meet. She never goes anywhere without her hijab on, and she prays five times a day. Goes to masjid every Friday night. And yet, this pious Somali Muslim gal was something altogether different than she appeared. I mean, Khadija I know ate my pussy so damn well that she should be starring in lesbian porno movies!