I was probably about 13 when I was watching MTV, saw Joan Jett singing "Do you wanna touch me?" and throwing open her black trench coat to reveal her bikini that I first realized I thought girls were sexy and had sexual stirrings for females. The expected and usual concerns and worries bothered me for the next few years as I struggled with adolescence, my sexuality and my teen years like we all do.
I knew I was attracted to boys, but couldn't deny that I had sexual thoughts about girls too. I also knew there was NO WAY in a town as small as the one I grew up in and all the school yard talk about "dykes and lezzies" that I could ever explore those feelings at that time.
Like so many, it was the liberation of leaving home and going to college that allowed me to begin to become comfortable with the idea and (gasp, maybe even?) the possibility of acting on those thoughts.
I was 20, living off campus and working at big hall that catered to large parties and groups as a server when I met Nicole. She worked there though a temp agency when we had a particularly big event and needed extra help. She was 18 but definitely a big city girl. Not sure of her whole story, but pretty sure she had been on her own for a few years and had a pretty tough way about her despite being so young. She was a little shorter than me and a tad on the big side, big in the hips and ass, but a stunningly pretty face. She had dirty blonde hair, almost bronze and the prettiest bright blue eyes and smile.
I liked her, we both took zero shit from co-workers (male or female) and we hit it off. It was probably her 5
th
time working for us at a big party that we ended up really "getting to know each other." ;)
The event had a bar, and as we were cleaning up afterward, the manager asked if anyone wanted a few bottles. The client had paid for a set amount of liquor, hadn't drank all of it and told the manager they couldn't take it with them after the party. The facility didn't offer refunds for unconsumed food or liquor, so the manager offered it up as a bonus to the workers. I was only 20, but I raised my hand for a bottle or two!
The manager knew I wasn't 21, but gave me a bottle of wine and a bottle of vodka anyway. We were all leaving and Nicole was bummed the manager wouldn't give her any liquor. I told Nicole she could come to my place and we could work on the bottles if she wanted. At this point I honestly didn't have any ulterior motives other than getting drunk! Nicole may have had plans the whole time, however!
Nicole followed me to my apartment and we walked up to the door together. The door led right into the kitchen and we went inside and promptly sat down and started to get twisted. I grabbed a couple glasses and we worked on the vodka and pretty soon we were both more than buzzed. We were laughing and talking about everything, where we grew up, movies, music, just drinking and laughing and having fun.
About halfway through the bottle, I said I had to get comfy and went to get into some sweats and an old BF's t-shirt I slept in. It was a studio apartment and I didn't have a bedroom, just a bed and a dresser basically right next to the "living room" which was around a corner from the kitchen. Not a straight shot, but really no barrier in between them. A front door and a bathroom door and no others. I was slipping off my bra and grabbing the t-shirt when I had that "someone's watching me" feeling and looked back and saw Nicole looking at me around the corner from the kitchen. She quickly ducked back into the kitchen when I noticed her, and I was a little...I don't know, not offended or turned on or anything honestly, just surprised I guess? I really didn't think she was peeking or spying, just figured she hadn't realized how open the apartment was. Not like I gave her a tour or anything.
I walked back in the kitchen in my sweats and t-shirt and Nicole was smiling a pretty big devilish smile. She was obviously drunk and had plenty of liquid courage. She looked at me as I sat down and said "You've got really nice tits Margie." Now I was shocked! I tried to laugh it off and just said thanks, but I have to admit I wasn't sure how to react. Nicole then asked if I minded if she got comfortable too and took off her buttoned up work shirt and sat back down in just her bra and jeans. I laughed again but was still trying to get my buzzing head around where she was going. (Amazing how obvious some things are when you look back at them after a few years, huh? LOL)
I poured some more Vodka into the Tupperware glasses we had and I noticed Nicole was just staring at me and I that's when I realized I was nipping out through the t-shirt. Nicole smiled again when she saw my realization and asked if I was cold. "I guess so" was all I could answer.
As she smiled at me again I started to realize through my buzz I was getting turned on at Nicole leering at me! My pussy was getting wet and I was freaking out a bit. I had enjoyed sexual thoughts about other girls, but never had I been in such a sexually charged situation face to face with another girl. She was drunk and brave and I was in uncharted territory for me. You certainly would have thought I was the 18 year old and she was the older girl seducing me. The alcohol and sexual tension definitely had me flustered!