Growing up in a small town and having a religious family had made me a little naive. When I started college, I was clueless about how people did things differently in the city from my small town. The girls in my dorm were wilder than the girls I was used to in my hometown. It was a culture shock to see them act and dressed more sexually than I had ever seen another girl do before. I was still a virgin and thought sex was something that people only did when they were married.
My name is Jackie, and my friends called me Jack. I didn't like being called by a boy named, but it stuck, and I learned to live with it. I was a bit above average in the look department with long brown hair, bright blue eyes, and thick black frame glasses. My breasts were big, but you could not tell it from how I was dressed. The loose clothes that I wore hid how good my figure was, and I had no interest in showing it off.
I was an innocent child, and when the girls from my dorm told dirty jokes, they flew over my head. I was so clueless about such things that I never understood anything referring to sex. The only experienced that I had with sex is what I did with myself when no one was around. That was something I rarely did because I was taught it was wrong and felt guilty afterward. I knew college would be an eye-opener for me, but I never expected to experience what I did during my first year there.
My dorm roommate, Karen, was a skinny redhead with crystal blue eyes and had an angelic face. Her breasts were small and were barely noticeable. She did not need a bra and was not bashful of showing them off when changing. It took some time for me to get used to her sleeping in nothing but her panties. I wore a very modest nightgown and could not understand how she could sleep wearing so little.
I wasn't brave as she was and only undressed when I was alone. I was bashful and felt vulnerable being naked around people. My fear came from being told how wrong it was to show it off and that a good girl always kept it covered up. I never notice how beautiful my body was and that it wasn't something to be ashamed of.
While I kept my body hidden, Karen liked to show off hers by wearing clothes that revealed her legs and midriff. Karen thought her legs were one of her best features and loved showing them off. Men were always trying to date her, but she kept turning them down. I never understood why she never said yes until one day while sitting in the lounge area of our dorm.
I was watching TV with some of the girls after a long day of classes. It was one of the few entertainments I had since I was kept busy with my school work. On occasion, I would eat pizza with some of the girls there while we talk about girl's things. I overheard Kendra and a friend of hers talking. She was one of those types that thought everyone outside of her circle was beneath her and was very vocal about it.
"Diana, you will not believe what I just found out! You know the girl that is in the room across from mine, the one with the red hair?" Kendra said with an arrogant tone. She did not wait for her friend to reply before continuing.
"That redhead is a fucking dyke! I caught her checking out Rebecca in the shower. It was so disgusting that I almost got sick right there. I bet she already turned her roommate into one too," she said with a mixture of joy and disgust on her face.
She was talking about my roommate Karen but was confused about what a dyke was. I came from a small town and never heard anybody being called that before. Being clueless as I was didn't understand that she was saying my roommate was a lesbian. Lesbian was something that I had heard before and only in the way you know it without really knowing what it meant. Since I was still pure, I never saw the sexual side to things; it didn't register what gay people did with each other.
I was hoping that she wouldn't notice me, but I wasn't that lucky. She sat beside me before saying, "Hey, you!" She never did try remembering my name and only did so with people that were important to her. I gave her my full attention hoping to get this over with quickly, and she asked me rather crudely, "I got to know one thing. Did you let that lesbo munch on your carpet?" I did not know what she was talking about and was unsure how to answer her.
"Why would anybody eat carpet?" I replied with confusion. This brought laughter from everyone in the room, and I did not understand what was so funny.
"Oh, you are too much, girl. I take that as a no, but you better watch out, or you will find her in your bed one night munching away," She said while laughing and left me baffled over what just happened.
A girl who always had an expression on her face like she smelled something foul felt the need to clarify things. She snickered at my cluelessness and spoke in a superior tone, "It means your roommate is a nasty bitch that likes girls. I would watch out if I were you. Your innocence makes you easy prey for perverts like her. If I were you, I would get another roommate before she puts the moves on you."
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Even if I wanted to get a new roommate, there wasn't any empty bed for me to moved into, and besides, Karen was a nice person. Some of the girls in our dorm started to shun her after finding out that she was gay. They refused to take a shower with her and would walk out when she entered. They would hold on to their towels tightly against their bodies and scurry away like rats.
I could see the pain that was in her eyes at their rejection. She looked at me with teary eyes and waited for me to do the same, but I could not hurt her like that. She was a little shocked but grateful that I stayed. I was too tender-hearted to be a bitch, especially to someone that always showed me kindness. My parents taught me to be open-minded with people's differences and accept them on their own merits.
When I finished my shower, I waited on her after getting dressed before asking, "Where do you want to go for dinner tonight?" She cried a little over someone being kind to her and not caring that she was gay. I did not know at the time the hardship that gay people went through. She sometimes had to hide what she was from people to avoid judgment. I was one of few people that accepted her as she was and did not treat her like a freak.
"Mexican would be nice," she said with her eyes moistening up. "You would think in this day and age we would move past this shit. I thought this place would be different, but I guess I was wrong," she said with a sad tone to her voice. We walked back to our room in silence, and I was confident that I made the right decision with her. She waited until we were in the room before hugging me. "Thank you for still being my friend," she replied emotionally! We became very close after that day and spent a lot of time together.
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My innocent mind made it easy for me to let my guard down around her since she was a woman, which allowed me to do things that I wouldn't with a guy in the room. I would undress around her but never exposed myself. I would only go as far as my undergarments before turning my back to her to remove my bra. I was too shy to show off my body and would only get naked if all possible when nobody was in the room. Even being careful as I was one slip up here and there, she eventually saw me nude. When I slipped on a new pair of panties, putting on or taking off my bra, I unknowingly exposed myself to her.
I was her only friend in the dorm after Kendra ruined her reputation, and she changed a few things about what she did around me. She was afraid of losing me as a friend and made sure I would always be comfortable around her. She no longer went topless to bed and wouldn't watch me while I was changing my clothes. When Karen did see me naked, it was by accident and would turn her gaze away.
Karen being gay never became an issue when we were hanging out because she never brought it up. She avoided anything that she thought would drive me away, like the topic of sex and that she was into girls. When our fall final came and went, we were still good friends. Everybody was preparing to go home for their winter break, but unfortunately, I did not have the money to go home and had to stay at school. Everyone else was leaving, including Karen, and I was bummed out that I would be all alone.
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