By the time I crossed the threshold into my small apartment that evening, I was a bundle of nerves. I had always thought the phrase "bundle of nerves" to be quaint and outdated. But in this instance, it was totally on the mark.
I was a bundle of nerves. I felt energy coursing through my veins as if I was on a caffeine high. I wanted to go out for a jog but the idea I might miss her call was frightening. Therefore I remained within my stubborn four walls that seemed to be ever encroaching upon me. I paced relentlessly, wondering if perhaps I had been too eager or not eager enough. It was driving me mad, this waiting.
Oh I know you are thinking please you just met her this morning and called her this afternoon. Give the girl a break! But in this breakneck speed the world seemed to be spinning in, I was unwilling to wait. I wanted our life together (imagine! I was already planning our life together!) to begin immediately. Every moment that we spent apart seemed a complete waste of time.
So what if I was the only one that felt this way? I wanted what I wanted. No one could change that.
I managed to cook something tasteless for my supper and choked it down in front of the television where talking heads were discussing the day's events. I was amazed no one mentioned "This just in: Paige met the girl of her dreams on the morning bus. Details to follow." But I suppose my life being mentioned would be a little nerve rattling. And since I was already a bundle of nerves, it would probably spook me so badly I'd climb into bed and drag the covers over my head.
Eventually time wound down as time does and 11:00 pm rolled around. I gave a sigh and figured she wasn't going to call, at least not tonight. After carefully brushing and flossing my teeth, I climbed into bed expecting sleep.
I didn't expect the phone to ring but it did and I picked it up with a breathless "Hello?"
"Hello, it's Amy," said the voice at the other end and I felt a sudden release of knots that had been binding my body.