"I think you should take off your clothes now," you tell me.
It isn't a request.
I'm already barefoot. My hands go to the buttons of my floral top-the first two are already strategically undone, a hint of cleavage for you.
I wish I'd worn something nicer, even if it was just going to come off within minutes.
But, between taking care of things at home and coming to meet you, I just didn't have time.
So you get me in my civilian clothes.
I undo the buttons, one by one. My breasts are big and heavy, veined and pleated with stretch marks. They're encased in a sheer purple balconette that scarcely holds them, and hides nothing underneath.
Okay, so I did wear some nice things.
I just had to put them on hours in advance.
(I visited the bathroom on more than one occasion, to tuck my tits back into place. Big bodies and small lingerie make a hazard out of sneezing, laughing, bumping into things...)
I undo the fly of my high-waisted jeans. My pale skin is red where the waistband dug a furrow into the fat of my hips and my belly. I shimmy them down, then straighten out my sheer purple boyshort panties.
"No, no," you say. "Take those off too."
I do as I'm told. I wriggle out of the panties and kick them away with my jeans.
I've got a few days of pubic hair growth-I did my best to tidy it up for you this morning. Its natural lay flows outwards from my hidden clitoral hood, like an abstract drawing of a tree or an explosion.
I stand at attention in just my bra, awaiting your next command. I feel nervous-I rarely present so much bare skin for someone's approval.
But we rarely see each other, and my heart is pounding with excitement.
"Lie down," you tell me.
I turn towards the king size bed, but you stop me.
"No," you say. "On the floor. Put a towel down."
Okay, I think to myself. I'd almost forgotten.
I take one of the big towels from the luggage rack near the bed. Gingerly, I crouch down and lay myself out on the towel, like a body in a tomb.
For such a nice hotel, the towel is awfully rough, especially against my ass and the backs of my soft legs.
I watch you expectantly, wondering how you'll possibly crouch down in that pencil skirt, which looks vacuum-sealed to your big hips and generous thighs.
"Wait here," you say, and vanish into the bathroom.
You're in there for a few minutes. My imagination and my expectations are firing in all different directions at once.
Oh god.
This is torture.
I'm so freaking wet.
You emerge in your sheer thigh high stockings and a short terrycloth robe with nothing on underneath it-I know this because you haven't bothered to cinch it.
It barely covers your modest breasts. It bares your plush tummy roll, which is lined with a red waistband mark similar to my own. It frames the wispy trail that leads down to your dense thicket of pubic hair.
Breasts aside, our bodies are very alike. On the handful of occasions we've been out together, we've been mistaken for sisters more than once.
Falling in love with your body has gone along way towards helping me love my own.
I watch you over the hills of my breasts and my belly as you stride over to me. Your robe flows in the air, revealing a little more of you as you walk.
You stand over me. You plant your feet on the towel to either side of my waist. I look up at you; you tower over me. I see you from the same angle that tourists see Michelangelo's Statue of David.
With your thighs spread apart, I can see just a hint of your vulva, the color of a fresh bruise, through pubic hair you've so proudly let grow unhindered in defiance of people's expectations of you.
"Are you mine?" you say.
I nod.
"I can't hear your head rattle."
"I'm yours," I say.
"You belong to me."
"Yes."
"Say it."
"I belong to you."
"You're an object in my possession. To do with as I please."
"I'm an object in your possession. You can do anything to me that you please."
"I didn't ask for permission."
To this, I say nothing.
"I'm going to mark you as mine," you say.
I say nothing.
"Tell me you want me to mark you as mine," you say.
"I want you to mark me as yours," I say, truthfully.
You crouch, just a little, and you part your pubic hair and your outer labia with both hands. I can see your prominent clitoral hood.
The first squirt of urine lurches out, hitting the towel next to my head and splashing the side of my face. A little of it gets into my short hair. It's odorless, nearly clear.
Then your pee stream evens itself out. Some of it runs down your inner thighs and pools on the towel at your stocking feet. Much of it dribbles down onto my belly and my bra.
It's a strange sensation-the splatter of sudden wetness, the warmth, then the rapid cooling. The cold makes my big nipples hard and prominent like fingertips under the damp fabric of the balconette.
One of the earliest times you did this, some of it got into my mouth. That was unpleasant-a part of the act I'd rather not repeat.
But, as I learned from you, such little accidents are no big deal in the grand scheme of play.