After that evening in the love nest created by Corporal Higgins I was, as you can imagine elated. It was hard to act normal the following morning going about my duties, being of a quiet shy nature helped me hide my feelings and at times like that I was glad. I thought that I'd overcome my attraction to females, and in joining the service made me think I could be more normal away from Emma's influence. I obviously under estimated how living in a word of women in a way would not let me forget the pleasure I'd had with Emma.
I wasn't strong enough to tear myself away from my crush on Darleen; perhaps it was a mutual thing. I wondered how the subconscious mind works to bring people together like that, a sort of ESP attraction between us if you will. I began to wonder what made me have those queer feelings, even as a child I had always felt more comfortable in the company of females. Did Emma sense it too? Is that what made her approach me, not only that, but risking her own career if anyone had found out? How I worried about the small liberties I felt she took in mother's house when she came to dinner etc., was I being too analytical?
It's just what had happened had felt so natural to me, it was after wards that the guilt feelings would surface, at the time our love making felt so good, so natural I just couldn't help myself. I was beginning to accept the fact I was queer, and my concern now was how to keep it hidden from the others girls in my barracks. Other girls had formed friendships and I looked for signs that some of them may also be more than platonic, but so far found nothing obvious.
In Emma's letters to me she was always pestering me for details of my personal life, asking me about the other girls, and had I made any 'special friends,' and to tell her about them. Now I took great pleasure in telling her all about Darleen, how wonderful it had been. For the first time I think, I thanked her for teaching me how to love another woman.
For the first time I didn't go to any dances that weekend, I knew I was going to dump Ray but was scared to do it. Darleen was encouraging me and we went to the pictures together on the Saturday night. She was lucky, being a Corporal she had her own room so could leave her knickers off anytime she wanted as no one would be any of the wiser. Whereas myself, I couldn't risk it in case any of the girls happened to spot my bare arse when getting changed.
We went to the early house and after the picture was over, we went to the ladies room for a pee. As it was a given we would be going parking, I removed my knickers and bra and put them in my handbag. I would have been happier if she had taken us to her love nest in the stores, but Darleen was concerned about others becoming suspicious if we went there too often.
As before she drove down a country road and found a parking spot among some trees, where she parked and switched the lights off. Now in private as we had been intimate a couple of times, I wasn't quite as shy as I normally would be, and was happy to undo her blouse to explore her chest. She had lovely firm tits that was a real pleasure for me to caress and suck, and soon the car windows were steamed up from our lovemaking.
As a Saturday night we were in no hurry, taking out time loving and finger fucking one another quite a few times. Darleen's squeals of delight and the moans escaping our mouths in between kisses grew louder as she got more aggressive with me. The rougher she got the more I loved it, and in turn it turned her on too. It was like we were trying to outdo each other. It was after midnight when we got back to camp and kissed goodnight.
The barracks was empty as the others were not back yet from the town dances or their dates, so I quickly stripped off and went and took a bath. The water was piping hot so I added some bubbly and soaked, letting my mind and fingers wander as I recalled my love affair. I decided I would write and tell Emma all about it as she had been pestering me in her letters about the other girls, as if she thought they were all queers too.
The next afternoon Darleen took me for another driving lesson, and as before we stopped and had a couple of drinks and got back to camp in time for supper there. As we chatted we planned to get away the following weekend and spend the night in a hotel. As a result we didn't date during the week, I wrote home and in particular a long letter to Emma giving her the details about my affair, thinking this might cool her enthusiasm for me and get on with her life. On the Friday night I went to the dance in town, there I met Ray and we talked and I told him it was over between us, he wasn't too happy about it but finally walked away to go dance with others.