'You know about my parents and the fact that I was married. I found out later in my married relationship that he liked to spank me. He loves to beat me, but he derives pleasure from punishing him hard till his butt cheeks got deep red with a paddle, flogger, or cat of nine balls whip. He did not care if I said anything vulgar, nasty, or got mean with him. When I spanked or beat him with a flogger, he needed all the titillation pain, but he wanted me to punish him anytime he wanted it done. In time I let loose all my inner thoughts of being a tame person. I needed to spank him as my parents did to me when I was young. For me, it got me all worked up when I am whipping his back constantly with the flogger, and I never left red marks or scared him. We, meaning my husband and me, kept going on, with him getting spanked more than me. My pain came out, and I got so intent by beating his ass hard. I finally got so turned on by using a strap-dildo so I could fuck him in the ass. I became so intense at spanking him that I did not have anyone to beat after he died, and I went maniac inside my mind. Finally, almost going crazy inside me until I finally found a female therapist who can handle S/M and B/D people.'
'She, meaning the Therapist, told me upfront, do not lie about anything or change things to suit her, as she wanted the truth. She wanted to know everything from the start, and she wanted to know how I got involve with Bondage and Discipline, the tools, whips, and even paddles. The Therapist wanted to about how I felt, as did this bondage and discipline. During these therapist meetings, I cried a lot in telling her about all the pain that started when I was six years old. I mention to the Therapist how I went downstairs to get a glass of milk, and I notice the basement doorway was open and walked down the stairways to watch my parents, and I saw they were beating each other with paddles or whips. As I got older, I would go to the stairwell and watch them for hours. When I was sixteen years old, I went downstairs; after figuring how to unlock the doorway so that I could go through different draws in a large cabinet. I saw they had whips, floggers, paddles, dildo, and other things too. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder, turn around to see my father was there, and he was angry with me. He took me upstairs to my mother, told her what I saw, and mention that I was curious. My mother went crazy on me, took me to my room, and lock me in for several hours. Finally, she came back, took me downstairs to my father. They both told me that my parents like it, and they seemed to realize that I like it too. They told me that now it is your turn, so take off all your clothes until you're naked. That is how it started with me being spanked and learning how to spank the other person. I learned how my anger in me came out, and I beat both of them till their bodies were red, as I got very good at making them feel the pain. When I beat them like that, they would take me downstairs as both of them spanked me with everything they had, from dildos to whip, flogger, anal plugs, and used ass beating with a paddle. It became so intense in my life since I was a child.'
'I carried forward into my personal life with my dead husband. It was part of me in my deep personal spirit and became so intense that the Therapist told me if I continue, I would go crazy with bondage/discipline. Instead, she advises me to make changes deep in me and not do bondage/discipline anymore, or at least during these sessions, and connect to my inner spirit. Over a long period, almost five years, I had to relearn how to deal with myself by praying, how I got to like B/D, and how I learned how to control my personal life. I finally learned how to love myself.' after taking a bit of food, as Celeste continued, 'The Therapist also told me that my parents should not have gotten me too involve in B/D at that age, adding they had the problems, not me. Finally, near the end of the Therapist sessions, she knew it, and I did too. She told me that I would fall in love again, either with a woman or man; she found out that I like a woman too. I had not been with another man or woman during these sessions, but I need either man or woman to make love again. After I had many small encounters until I found I was falling deeply in love with the Therapist. I love you, Monica.' Celeste stopped for a moment, stroking Monica's hand, adding, 'I am so sorry for you when I got so worked up to spanked you so hard. I knew I could do anything to you, and you would not stop me." as Celeste finally looked down in a disturbing moment.
Monica looked at Celeste, held her hand in hers, saying, "Oh please, Celeste, you do not have to feel disappointed in what you just told. It just makes me feel more in love with you, Celeste. When you spanked me, I never realized till I kept yelling, moaning out all those vulgar words at you, which made you get so intense with me that you finally made you go maniac with me, and you kept hitting me even harder. I am sorry if I made you go manic on me, but I liked getting spanked a lot by you. It is safe for you. If you ever want to discipline me or make me feel the pain, you know that you came to me. I would enjoy it immensely. Also, it goes the same way with you if I want to spank you." Monica smile with a warmhearted feeling, added, "I should say that I never knew how deep you got into this, but it makes things between us mean more."
"I was talking, sweetheart." as Celeste put a finger to Monica's lips, pausing as Celeste took a sip of coffee, adding, "You see, I never thought I would fall in love with you either. Also, I like being a woman bodybuilder, and I love myself incredibly; it just who I am after doing therapist sessions.'
'Right now, I would like you to touch me all over my muscled body everywhere, like my face, chest, nipples, my pussy, my legs, and an arm, on my back, ass cheeks, in other words, I just want you to touch me even when we sit and laying together. It just turns me on inside me, Monica. I think you know more about me, as I never told another person what took place in my life. I like being in love with you, and it just feels so good. For me, I want you and I to continue spanking each other, is that all right sweetheart?', holding her hands, adding more, 'Monica, I am at times, do not know what to do with myself when I am not with you. I need you to love me, my darling." smiling and kissed Monica's hand as Celeste said it.
"You had a lot to say. Yes, I would like the spanking to continue between us. I enjoy it too. I am sure as we go along, you or I may relate more deeply about our personal life. Oh, Celeste, I do love you deeply and want the same love from you too." as Monica's lamentably bittersweet smile.
"You had a lot to say. Yes, I would like the spanking to continue between us. I enjoy it too. I am sure as we go along, you or I may relate more deeply about our personal life. Oh, Celeste, I do love you deeply and want the same love from you too." as Monica's lamentably bittersweet smile.
"I can see what you are saying and knowing I will do the best for both of us in this relationship. What I want from you is to spank me, but you should see about my personal life too." as Monica said it.
"Tell me what was so painful in you. I will not interrupt you." as Celeste finished saying.
Monica looked at her breakfast for a few moments, looking up and around the restaurant, not sure quite what to say to Celeste, finally saying, "I am going explain how I got into bondage/discipline. It is almost the same as yours, just slightly different than yours. It is my truth to you, sweetheart.'
'When I was a child, probably around ten years old, I found my parents would go downstairs into the basement. Only this time, I found out the basement door is unlocked. As I went downstairs, I heard my father screaming out in a yelling voice tone. I never utter a word but kept quiet down there. I saw my mother was wearing a corset; I found out later on, notice she was beating my naked father. I never saw him naked till that night when a flogger was beating him.' Monica took a sip of coffee, looked at Celeste with a sad smile, adding, 'That was the first time I saw them beating each other. I was stunned, but I got intrigued by it. I found that I like it, and my panties were wet as I went off to bed. I also like the image of my mother, who is a lovely person who is not cruel, but this time she was cruel to my father. After watching them together several more times, I looked up bondage/discipline in the book, etc., to find out more information. It just fascinates me." Monica smiled as she took a portion of food off her fork.
"I am not frightened of what you were telling me. I would like to know how I got so interested in it? How you came to like it? It turns me on just listening about your truth. You know my pussy is wet." as Celeste smiled at Monica after saying it.
"I found out the hard way, although I got excited while I am watching my mother and father doing their bondage/discipline. It was interesting to learn everything they did with each other.'
"I found out the hard way, although I got excited while I am watching my mother and father doing their bondage/discipline. It was interesting to learn everything they did with each other.'
"You do not have to go on with your story." Celeste sadly smiles back.
"No, I need to tell you my story.'
'I have never told anyone, but I needed is to say it to you. My mother then spoke to me, saying that I enjoy spanked. I being punished as a mother like it too, and later I learned how to punish a person. I learned how to use strap-on cock by using it on my mother and father.'
'One night, when my father was gone, my mother took me downstairs, told me to whip her with a riding crop, and I learned how tied her up as she got naked. Boy, I let out all the pain I felt so far, making her skin tingle in agony over her body. I squeeze her breasts and made her scream out loudly. I did this with both my parents while I went to university school. Finally, I finished university.'
'When I left home, we never did it again. I fell in love with a man. When I met him, I never told him about being spanked or like being spanked by another person. After about a year, he asked me to spank him, and that is how he found out. I told him that I know about spanking a person, and I can spank him. It was different when I spanked him, and he likes to enjoy it on his beautiful ass cheeks.', Monica said pitifully, as she took a sip of coffee and took some food off her fork.
'I spanked him over a couple of years, and he did it to me. We both enjoyed it as we spanked each other and felt the pain from spanking. Eventually, the relationship went south, and we got a divorce. It was then that I liked spanking him and could not do it. At the time, I was going nuts, but for sex. I got into it with myself and other men or women. It helped, did not go away, till I met you, Celeste." as Monica finished talking.
