Entry 37
Paris, Day 3.
'Paris is everything and more.
I've always known this because of the postcards I've gotten from friends and family, as well as the pictures I've seen online and in movies.
The sights, the food, the energy, the men! Everything is great.
I've only been here for a couple of days, and I'm already wondering how I'll ever leave.
Yesterday was insane, and I mean insane in the best, most wildly unexpected way possible. I've been having an absolute blast with my friends. Paris really brings out the best (and most scandalous) in all of us.
We visited the Eiffel Tower, ate too many croissants (no regrets), and took in every bit of magic the city has to offer. We laughed, we drank, we made a scene at some little café where the waiter flirted with all three of us--classic Paris.
But the real adventure started last night.'
My fingers hovered over the keyboard as I typed. Did I really want to reveal what happened the night before? It was the wildest and most risqué thing I'd ever done, and I didn't know if it would be right to put it out there.
I sipped my coffee and looked at the bustling street of Paris below me. I was sitting by the balcony and writing the entry, and yet I was asked the question: to reveal or not to reveal?
The entire point of my blog was how honest it was and how I got to connect to my subscribers, but was there ever such a thing as too much?
Shaking off the thoughts that seemed to cloud my head, I continued.
First off, your recommendations have been guiding us through Parisian life, and this one? It really took the cake. After reading all your messages, my friends and I couldn't resist checking out that underground Debauch Party you all mentioned --the one with the blindfolds and a lot of people and... well, you can imagine the rest.
This was a next-level Parisian adventure--a blindfold orgy. I've never been to an orgy, and the entire point of my blog is to try as many things as I possibly can. I told my friends about it, and they were down for the adventure.
It was everything I expected it to be and more.
I'd held a pretty biased view about orgy and how nasty it could get, but that view was debased completely.
It was completely hot and wild. Very liberating. There was something hot about not knowing who was touching you, not seeing any faces but just feeling. The anonymity was freeing in a way I hadn't expected. No judgments, no preconceived notions. Just raw, human connection.
Imagine being blindfolded and surrounded by multiple bodies who were kissing, sucking, teasing and fucking you. There was something so wild about not knowing whose hands were where, whose lips were kissing me, whose body was moving with mine.
If you know me, you'll know that I have always loved a good tease, but this was something else entirely. Hands were everywhere, mouths, cocks, and vibrators on every inch of my skin, and the sheer intensity of it had me losing track of time. Multiple partners, each one taking me in ways that left me breathless and aching for more. No names. No faces. Just bodies, heat, and pure desire.
I might have fucked my friends multiple times, and I wouldn't have known. That was how anonymous it was. The experience left me a bit... sore, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
And you might be wondering what we're doing today. Well, today is going to be a solo adventure for me. It's a special day in a much different way.
Quite a number of you recommended a nude gallery in the city, and honestly? I can't wait. I know you are all recommending things you're too chicken to do, but that's why this blog exists.
Being in my mid-30s, I've spent years battling with my body image--some days, I love what I see in the mirror. Other days, not so much. But after last night? I feel more alive, more powerful than ever before.
So, going to a gallery exhibition that celebrates the human body in all its raw, unapologetic glory feels like what I need today.
Maybe there might be another adventure in store for me. We'll just have to see.
Until then, à tout à l'heure!'
It was hard wearing heels on cobblestone streets, was what I said to myself as I walked through the streets of Paris. But there was no way I was going to let all the shoes I bought collect dust because the streets didn't agree with them.
I raised my phone and looked at the screen where the map app was open. I was trying to locate the Nude Gallery, which my subscribers recommended, and right now, it is proving hard to locate.
Parisians walked everywhere, so I didn't see the need to grab a taxi, and now I've been walking for the past twenty minutes.
I squinted at my phone screen, which was telling me to take a left into a dark alley,
Did the map want to get me killed?
I'd already sent an email asking for a more specific address and route, but my email hasn't been answered. The gallery exhibition was very exclusive, and I didn't have a phone number to call.
I huffed and followed the directions on the map, but not before sharing my live location with Sophie and Leah. I would want them to be the first to find me if I were beheaded in the streets of Paris.
I walked down the staircase leading into the alley, putting one foot in front of each other tentatively. My hand reached for the pepper spray in my bag, which I'd carried for situations like this.
As an American woman flying to Paris, I'd done my research and was well aware of the surge in theft going on in the country. Carrying around a pepper spray was as safe as I could keep myself.
I walked down for what felt like an eternity, the map leading me deeper and deeper into the alley. I was about to turn around and head back to the villa when the automatic voice announced to me that I'd arrived.
I stared at the huge metal door in front of me, not knowing what to do. I knew it was exclusive, but I didn't think it was this level of exclusive.
Sucking in a deep breath, I gave the door a knock. There was a huge pause, and when I was certain that I was at the wrong place, I was about to wrap away when I heard a sharp metallic clang. A slot on the door slid open.
A pair of dark eyes peeked out, surveying me, silently asking if I really belonged there.
"Quel est le mot de passe?" The voice asked in French.
"Pardon," I said to the eyes as they frowned at my English. The French really had a vendetta against Americans. I couldn't blame them, though. Everyone had a vendetta against Americans.
"What's the password?" the voice asked, deep and thick with a French accent.
"Um, yes!"
I quickly opened up the confirmation email I'd been sent and scanned it, looking for what my password was.
"The password is Plaisir," I said confidently, knowing in my heart of hearts that I'd butchered the French.
"It's Plaisir," the eyes corrected. He didn't seem to like me.
Then the slot closed with another sharp clang before y the metal door creaked open, revealing a man behind. He was dressed from head to toe, which I hadn't fully expected.
"Welcome," he said to me, stepping aside.
I walked into the huge and gorgeous building that seemed completely different from the entrance. It truly was an exclusive spot.
"Changing room!" He pointed at a room with dark red velvet curtains, which served as a door.
I nodded and stepped into the room. Clothes were properly folded on top of one another in the room, and some of them were arranged on racks.
This was very different from anything I was used to, but I decided to keep an open mind. There was no artwork in the room, only a single sign that read: Your Body is Art in different languages.
Okay, cool.
I began by taking off my cardigan and then my skirt and shoes. Slowly, I took off my underwear and put on the socks that had been placed there for me. Walking around naked only with socks felt so weird.
I stepped out of the room, my cheeks heating up as I walked into the gallery filled with very naked people. No one seemed to pay any special attention to me as they all admired the artwork.
I walked around slowly, my socked feet pressing on the floor as I looked around at the artwork lining the walls. I paused for a moment, taking some of them in, but there was one theme that all the artworks had.
Nudity.
But it was showing nudity in its most glorious form. It fully resonated with everything I'd experienced these past few weeks, and I loved it.
I slowly wandered into the next room, where a woman stood near a sculpture, gazing at it with a small, curious smile on her lips.
The first thing I noticed was her gorgeous black hair cascading down her back in waves. Her body was curvy but also strong, and she looked extremely confident in her own skin.
God, what I would give to be like this.
She caught my eyes and smiled--a soft, inviting smile that seemed to invite me in.
I stepped closer to her and faced the painting she was looking at. I tilted my head to the side, trying to take in the colors and brush strokes.
"You don't understand it?" she asked, that same smile on her face.
I shook my head.
"What do you see?" She was looking at me now, and I realized just how gorgeous she was. My eyes dropped to her chest before I could stop it as I took in her very perky and pink nipples. "My eyes are up here," she teased, causing my entire face to turn red.
"Uh, I don't really know what I see."
"Look again," she said.
Her French accent was very thick and sexy, and I could barely concentrate because I wanted to know what her nipple would feel like in my mouth.
I shook my head and focused on the painting.
"Uh, it looks violent?" I squinted. "Like the two lovers are fighting."
She giggled.
"They're having rough sex. It can be violent in a sensual way. Like the sex couples have when they are angry with one another."
"Oh," I let out, finally understanding what she meant. "It's very risqué."
She smiled. "You do not look like someone who minded."
"Oh, I don't. I just--"
Before I could finish, she stretched out her hand to me. "I'm Celine."
"Ashley," I responded, taking her hand in mine.
It felt more calloused than I would have thought. Just then, my eyes trailed to the bottom right side of the painting where the artist's name was, and I saw it: Celine Duval.
"By any chance, did you paint this?"