"Tell me why we are here again?" Sahara leans in towards me and asks while grazing my cheek with the lightest kiss.
"Because we really need to get out more baby. Ever since we got really serious, we have kind of isolated ourselves from everyone else and I just thought we needed a change. I thought it would be fun to come here and see some people we haven't seen in awhile, that's all." Sahara had this serious look on her face that was a dead give away that she had something on her mind that she wasn't telling me. The way her liquid blue eyes looked down at the table instead of at me always gave her thoughts away. They say a persons eyes are the windows to their soul, and in Sahara's case it was definitely true.
"Look baby," I say as I reach for her hand and squeeze it, "if you aren't having a good time we can leave as soon as we finish our drinks and go someplace else if you want. Tonight is supposed to be about us and I want you too have a good time too."
"I am, it's not that."
"Then what is it? I know there's something you want to say but aren't." I was still stroking the back of her hand with my thumb, I love the feel of her skin beneath mine. Most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing, it just seems to be a natural way to show my affection and love for her.
"How do you do that?" She half giggled, pushing my hand away playfully. "How do you always know when I'm not telling you something?" Her expression softens and her face brightens momentarily as she questioned me.
"Easy honey... it must be love." I laugh. "Now, tell me what's on your mind."
A few rows of tables up from us was a stage where a band was just now heading up for it's set. It was one of those stages that are only 3 small steps up from the floor, but the live music was the reason I first came to this particular lesbian bar for the first time about 8 months ago. If there is one thing in this world I love as much as women, it's music. It was here where Sahara and I first became friends, then it gradually grew until we became lovers two months later and have been basically inseparable since. 'Joined at the hip' is what our friends like to call us, and for good reason I guess. I watch through the darkened room as the four woman band strut towards the stage when suddenly I realize that this wasn't just any band, this was 'Not 2 Sweet'.
For the life of me I'll never know where they came up with the name for the band because all four girls were in fact very sweet individuals. Sahara and I first met Justice, Rita, Lynn and Annie just after we got together. We had been at the bar one night when they were playing one of their first gigs, and a mutual acquaintance introduced us all. We hadn't stayed in close contact with most of the girls, but were friends all the same. One of the girls, Justice, and I had become very close friends over the past six months. I hadn't realized that they were playing tonight though, and this was a pleasant surprise. Sahara and I raise our hands almost in unison sending frantic waves their direction hoping to catch their attention. Annie was the first to spot us. She smiles and mouths 'hey' as she waves, and soon the other girls follow her lead before turning back to their instruments and preparing for their set.
I turned my attention back to Sahara. "It's great to see them again, isn't it? I had no idea they were going to be playing tonight."
"Yeah, great."
"Okay Sar, what is it? What's wrong?"
"Nothing's really wrong Drew." Her finger aimlessly pushes a small salted pretzel in a figure eight pattern on the table in front of her as she speaks. "It's just that...well, we haven't been out in a while and I just thought we might go someplace a bit more umm...exciting or something. Everything we do is so predictable."
"But we used to come here all the time and you loved it."
"I still do Drew. I love whatever I do with you, you know that. It's just that I wanted tonight to be special... I wanted a night to remember."
The second Sahara said she wanted 'a night to remember', it was like a light bulb lit up in my head. You know, like one of those scenes in a cartoon where the zany character has an idea and BAM!, this light appears over their head letting the audience know they had just come up with some brilliant plan. That's what it feel like. The corner of my mouth turns up in a half grin , I was pleased with the sudden scheme I just thought of. I push my chair back swiftly so I can get up from the table. Too much enthusiasm, I think to myself with a smile still on my lips as the chair topples over backwards and on to the floor causing everyone in the place to look up from their drinks and in our direction.
With a swift turn I leave the chair on the floor where it had landed, and head towards the stage before I give myself a chance to think about what I'm about to do. I wasn't going to allow nervousness to set in. I was really going to do this. No backing down this time.
"Drew!" Sahara calls out as I work my way through the crowd of tables and towards the stage with great determination. "Come back here. What are you doing?" Her voice sounds panicked, like maybe she thinks I've gone crazy. Hell, maybe I have and everyone in the place has just become aware of that fact before I have.
I never slow down my charge to the stage as Sahara looks on in bewilderment. Looking back over my shoulder at her, I flash her my sexiest grin and answer her question, "A night to remember." That's all I say, that was all that needed to be said. She would get what she asked for. I was filled with confidence. It could be the pure adrenaline of what I'm about to do, or it could be the tequila shots, but at this point I didn't really care. I feel alive. My heart has abducted my mind, and I'm just letting it happen... seizing the day, living in the moment.