When you come from a small town like I do, and everyone knows your name, you cannot act on impulse. Every move must be calculated because if it's not, your secrets will not stay secret.
My secret, as the youngest of eight children, in a religious, prestigious family, is that I am very attracted to women. If I lived in a big city, if my dad wasn't a preacher, and if I didn't live in my perfect older sibling's shadows, this wouldn't matter. But to maintain our family's reputation, to win titles like 'homecoming queen', and to convince my parents to send me away to college. I had to expertly hide that small little detail.
It wasn't hard to keep hidden, I stand tall-ish at 5'3", I have sun kissed skin, long blonde hair, hazel eyes, an hourglass figure that was only emphasized by my cheer uniform all of High School, so you could say I was practically prey for High School boys.
I painted the picture well for my parents, went to prom with a boy I had known since kindergarten, went on dates to please them so they wouldn't suspect me, and finally the time had come for me to fly 3,000 miles away for college.
The day I walked onto campus my new life had begun. I decided I wasn't going to broadcast my sexuality, but I certainly wasn't going to bury it under the surface anymore. I traded in my knee length skirts for fashion that I actually liked, I put on makeup, and I finally started to feel like the Mia I wanted to be and not the Mia they forced me into being.
I struggled to figure out where I fit in at this school at first. Until I walked greek row. Don't get me wrong, just because i'm a lesbian doesn't mean I don't love girly things, I absolutely without a doubt am a girly girl.
Walking Greek Row was the first sense of freedom I felt. I was handed pamphlets, introduced to Sorority after Sorority, toured houses, and by the time the sun started to go down I was signed up for recruitment and smiling like a little kid in a candy shop.
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After two weeks of recruitment I had signed my bid to Alpha Phi. I was excited to join my sisterhood, and I had finally unpacked my belongings and officially was moved into the house with eighty six other girls. My roommates were my pledge sisters Stella and Olivia.
"Did you hear that we have to go through initiation tonight?" Stella said excited as she painted her nails. Olivia looked at her with a knowing smile and I looked at them confused.
"Why are you guys smiling, isn't initiation like...torture?" I ask them thinking back to every movie i've ever seen. Stella's green eyes light up as she turns her attention to me.
"Mia! You don't know this particular sororities background do you..." She said as Olivia sat next to her. I watched Olivia start to draw shapes on Stella's bare thigh right under the hem of her dress as Stella started to explain further.
"They can smell lesbian or bi girls from a mile away which makes sense as to why you were bid on." Olivia cut her off and my eyes widen. Was I that obvious.
"Initiation in our sorority isn't like the others. We love our sisters....sometimes a little too much. I don't wanna ruin the surprise, but i'll give you a piece of advice. Freshen up, shave, and wear your sexiest underwear." My eyes widen at her explanation and they both start giggling.
After a long hot shower, shaving every inch of my body (just in case), blowing out my hair, and putting on makeup, I got dressed in my favorite little black dress I bought just for tonight after signing my bid. It's off the shoulders and the hem stops mid thigh, hugging my curves perfectly. It had padding in the top so I wore it would a bra and anxiously selected my favorite lace white panties. I slipped on my black heels and finally made my way downstairs with Olivia and Stella to meet the Leaders of our Chapter: the President, The Vice President, and our New Member Educator.
"Ladies, we take initiation very seriously. Each one of you will be paired with one us so we can induct you..properly." Our President Hailee explained.
"Each one of you will pick a name from the pin box and thats the leader you will be paired up with." Megan the New Member Educator explained standing in front of Olivia with the pink box propped open.
"Wait for everyone to pick before you open the folded name slip." Cassie, the Vice President, instructed,
After we each took a slip we all opened it at the same time. I got Hailee, Olivia got Cassie, and Stella got Megan.
Hailee came up to me and whispered in my ear "I was hoping i'd get you." I blushed a bright pink color and let her take my hand as she led me back upstairs. The President gets the privacy of her own room, just like Megan and Cassie. When I walked in behind her I looked around at her satin pink sheets on her perfectly made bed. She had candles lighting up the room and soft music playing from her surround sound.
"So I don't know what you heard about initiation, but we feel very strongly about making sure our sisters know how much love we have for one another." She started to explain. I turn towards her and take in her appearance. She's wearing a white dress, skin tight, with pink heels. Her light brown hair is curled and her blue eyes are lined with eyeliner to make them pop even more than normal. She looked breath taking.
My words were caught in my throat and I was so nervous, I had my own assumptions about what happened tonight but the idea of it made me really nervous.
"What exactly does that mean?" I ask shyly.
Hailee sat me on the edge of her bed and sat next to me squeezing my hand softly.
"It can mean whatever you want silly girl. We'll move at your pace! How about we calm your nerves hmm?" She asked and stood up grabbing a robe she had hanging on her desk chair.
"You go in the bathroom and put this on, I used to work at a spa, let me massage you. Please I insist." She said with a warm smile. Her aura was so light, and she already made me feel very comforted. So I was determined to not be the shy girl everyone seemed to think I was. This was a new start for me, right?
I took the robe and went into the bathroom, sure to leave the door open a crack knowing she'd be able to see me in the mirror. I put on a show of slowly sliding my zipper down my spine, my braless back facing her while my 34 C cups were on full display to the mirror. I slid the black fabric down letting it pool at my feet and left my panties on deciding they wouldn't be in the way for the massage. I pulled the pink satin robe on and tied it loosely walked back out to see Hailee now in a matching robe, to my surprise.
"Here, may I?" She asked standing behind me and placing her hands on the belt keeping it fastened.
"Yes." I insisted almost too eagerly. She untied it, only my back side exposed to her.
"Lay down on your stomach." She said softly as she picked up a bottle of oil on her night stand. I nodded and laid down my soft skin connecting to the satin fabric, the friction making my pink nipples instantly harden. I blush, my face looking away from her trying to mask it.
"Tell me how this feels okay?" She says, her oil clad finger tips slowly meeting my shoulders as she rubs them softly. An involuntary moan escapes my mouth, mostly from the movements of her fingers, but partly at the thought of me practically naked in her bed.
"That good, huh?" She laughed quietly. Her hands worked my upper back for a bit and then the middle, until eventually she was rubbing my lower back. Her hands were slippery and soft. My eyes had fluttered shut and I was so relaxed but so elevated at the same time. Every part of me was hyper aware of this beautiful girls hands on me. Her finger tips edged the fabric of my white lace thong and surprise ran through me as her hands slid right under the band and she started to massage my ass.
"This part always has the most tension." She says in a low tone as her thumbs move up and down my ass cheeks. Another moan leaves my lips but this time it's not involuntary.
