I was over at my best friend's house the night after Halloween. Both being broke, we decided to have a late party, just the two of us. Vanessa was sitting on her couch, watching some drab comedy on the television while I mixed us up another round of pineapple juice and vodkas, our fourth round already.
"So, where's Paul at tonight?" I called to her from the kitchen, referring to her husband.
"He's out with his friends, again." She muttered, obviously displeased with the fact.
I sat down next to her, handing her glass over, already half finished with my own. I could feel the alcohol in my system, a little worried about doing something I'd regret.
Vanessa downed her drink in two gulps and set her glass on the floor. "Sometimes I just don't know about him." She sighed.
Nodding in agreement, I stared at her back, her long brown hair swaying across it. I finished off my drink and took our glasses to the kitchen. She was starting to feel a little more than buzzed, too, I could hear it in her voice. Gulping down my nerves, I glance over at her on the couch again.
"Come on, let's go for a walk, it's so nice out."
Shrugging, she started to stand but fell back down. Giggling, she tried again, successful this time. I opened door and we both stepped out into the crisp evening air. It was just dusk, and the neighborhood was barren. The only noise was the leaves scuttling across the ground with the light breeze.
We walked about her apartment complex, down the narrow tree studded trails, never seeing another soul. As far as we were concerned, there was no one else on earth. We spoke of our relationships, movies, music, all the mundane things in the world. She knew I was having trouble with my new sexuality, but she didn't know how much. I had told her that I was more interested in girls than I was in boys, but I couldn't find anyone to help me make sure it was what I wanted.
"I'm never going to get laid again." I told her with in an exasperated voice.
"Yes, you are. You just haven't been looking in the right places." She assured me with a friendly smile. "You won't have a problem getting a girl at all."
Staring down at the green grass, I merely nodded. What she didn't understand was that I didn't want just anyone. Since we had started going to clubs together in my search for sex, I'd noticed her more and more. She was prettier than I'd ever noticed before. She was nothing what I was looking for, a complete opposite of what I'd thought attractive: a tall 5'7", long brown hair, with almond shaped eyes and, of course, married.
I stared at the path ahead, and kept walking. Usually, I was able to keep my desires to a minimum, but on nights we were drinking, it was much harder. I glanced over at her again, feeling something inside me beginning to stir.
The sun had set by now, a full moon rising high above. Full moons always made me feel much more sexual. A milky light gave the landscape a soft glow, as if part of a dream. I realized then that we had wandered far from her apartment, into a much less developed part of the complex. It was almost certain that no one was around now. My mind playing over a scenario, I smiled coyly as I felt a warmness between my thighs.
Inhaling sharply, I thought, screw it. I'd decided to go for the gold.
"Vanessa, can I ask you something? It's important." I said softly.