I've never understood the fascination men have with lesbianism.
My feelings on lesbianism range from amusement to mild distaste. I know all the boys think its sexy as hell, but I don't see them playing with each other to turn us on.
I'm not exaggerating about men's interest in everything girl/girl. My roommate is a total dyke, and I'm always catching guys giving her the once over. If she weren't lez, none of them would ever give her a second glance.
My boyfriend asked me if I'd ever done anything with her. Can you imagine? What the hell would I be doing with him if I swung that way? I think he was crushed when I made it clear that was a long way out of my interest sphere.
"Who was that?" I asked him one day on the mall.
"Kathy something," he said and kissed me hello.
We went on to something else, but I hadn't seen her around campus before. She was too much of a knockout to have been around without notice.
I didn't see her again until spring break, under much more stressful circumstances.
I came back a day early and should have stopped unlocking the door when I heard the commotion. I walked into my room and saw my roommate trying to hide the strap on dildo around her hips, and that same girl from the mall tied and gagged to her bed.
"It's not what you think," my roommate said.
I tried to back out of the room.
"Wait," my roommate said, blocking my escape, "show her," she said to the girl on the bed.
"We're just playing," the girl said, freeing her arms and taking the gag out, "No need to go running around screaming rape."
I had the bedroom, so I headed in there saying, "Let me drop my stuff and I'll leave you two alone."
It took me a moment to compose myself, and by the time I came out the girl was gone.
"I'm really sorry. I didn't think you'd be back 'till tomorrow," my roommate said. She had thrown a robe on and looked totally humiliated as she sat on the chair with her head down.
"I'm sorry too," I said, "It kind of caught me by surprise. You probably would have been freaked out if Brad and I were doing something and you walked in."
She nodded her head and said, "You'll never know," so softly that I wasn't sure I heard it.
The next time I ran into her was strike three, and the beginning of my weekend in hell.
"Thank god you came in when you did," she said, sliding into the chair next to me, "She let me go after you came in, but god only knows what she would have done to me if you hadn't come."
"I thought you weren't tied," I said.
"She wasn't done. You didn't see that look she gave me. If I hadn't played along, she might have hurt both of us."
I felt a chill, thinking about all the times I'd been scantily clad in her presence. Was I safe rooming with her? Was she dangerous? Could I go thru what this girl had almost gone thru without going mad? The picture of Margaret coming at me with that horrible dildo while I struggled against cruel straps made me shudder.
"Hi Kathy," Brad said, finally getting back from the bar with our drinks, "I didn't know you two knew each other."
"We don't, really," Kathy said, making those uncomfortable motions that said: "Should I go?"
"No, stay," Brad said, "Take my drink, I'll get another."