A Prologue to Sex
Standing in the cramped store under glaring neon lights in Megabuilding 0007, Fei bit her lips. She had actually done it. She blushed at the thought. Shy and self-conscious, she guided her stray locks back behind her feminine ears.
Was it okay for an ordinary girl like herself to do such a thing?
Her fingers trembled as she tried to put the pictures of Anna Wong back onto the rack. Anna, the girl she admired, was completely out of reach, but at least now she could be a little like her. It was difficult to tear her eyes off the picture. Anna Wong's lustful thighs and bare hips were awfully arousing.
"Anna Wong is very popular," the shop owner told her from a distance.
He knew Fei as she would often visit the store and now nodded towards her, his face smeared with streaks of oil from the device he was taking apart.
"She has many fans," he added.
It was a battered old store, stowed away in a side corridor, hidden under the jungle of neon light, selling many different things besides pornography.
Megabuilding 0007 had many side streets like this. Still, Fei was especially fond of this little backside corridor full of shops selling lesbian photobooks and old-fashioned electronic pornography. Fei wanted to collect everything of Anna, spending the little money she had on her pictures, videos, and interactive features.
Her phone rang, but Fei ignored the vibrations and reached out to pay with her wristband.
"I'll take these," she said, "and I know she's popular. I'm her fan."
The man gave her a knowing smile and let the girl pay.
At least here, she did not have to pretend that she was interested in men, though she knew that not everyone approved of her being a lesbian. The very person whose call she was ignoring was among them. Fei left the store and began to run, rummaging through her bag for her phone.
"Where are you?" Fei heard the familiar voice of Auntie as soon as she answered the phone.
"I thought I had five more minutes..."
"That woman wants to talk to you," she said without giving any more details.
"And I received a complaint from a customer. Come back as soon as possible."
"I'm on my way, Auntie."
"Tell me you were not wasting more money on those picture books."
"I was..."
"Ah, just come back quickly," she said and hung up the phone.
...
Fei soon arrived back on her floor. She spent most of her time on this small stretch of commercial space full of cheap shops, working for one of them and helping the proprietor, an old lady, make deliveries around the building.
Strangely, she liked it there.
Panting, she ran into the shop, but Auntie only nodded towards another store in the aisle. Fei looked in the indicated direction, but she did not see anybody.
"That woman friend of yours. Said she wanted to talk to you."
Fei looked again. For a while, she only saw the merchandise piled up in front of the store until a tall woman appeared from behind a slowly rotating display stand. Her dark eyes scanned the merchandise with measured disdain.
"Just don't make it too long," Auntie said.
The woman looked out of place in her fashionable clothes and tasteful makeup. Fei approached her, bowing slightly, ready to apologize for being late. The woman, however, did not seem to care about wasted time
"Nice to see you Fei," she said.
Fei smiled at her, and a broad smile appeared on her face in return. A smile that felt almost authentic. She was a friend of a distant relative, though Fei did not expect much from the woman, as the only time she saw her was usually when she had a favor to ask.
"Walk with me," she said and moved away from the shop.
Fei tried to keep up with her, but while other passers-by let the woman pass, they did not do the same for the casually dressed Fei, who blended into the background. She had to avoid stocky men, bulky pushcarts, and other obstacles that blocked her way. The woman, barely noticing her struggle, walked briskly and gracefully in her high-heel shoes, letting her footsteps echo on the flooring.
"It's a bit too humid down here," she said, fanning herself with the back of her palm.
They took an elevator to a higher floor where the clientele was less crude. Here, the woman slowed down and began to stroll along a corridor packed with restaurants and cafes. She walked with ease as if she owned the place.
"Fei, don't act like a stranger. We should be friends," the woman said, but her words had the opposite effect.
What was the price of her friendliness? Fei thought.
Despite the nice words, she showed no signs of pleasantness, walking ahead, ignoring her young friend. But then she suddenly looked left and right as if looking for eavesdroppers and then pushed her face close to Fei, smiling.
"I have seen your video," she said, making Fei almost trip and fall over a small package left at the side of the corridor.
"You have seen... what?" Fei mumbled. She could not believe her ears.
"I haven't told you what I'm doing, have I?"
"No. You said you work as an agent of some kind."
"Yes, you see, I don't like to talk about this, but I work in the entertainment business. I think you know what I mean by entertainment."
"I think I do," she said, but she could barely focus on her words as a torrent of shame overpowered her. Was it possible that she saw her video?
"We scout through the platform you've uploaded your videos to, you see."
Fei let out a gasp. She was unable to look up at the woman. Still, how could she find hers among the many millions of videos?
"I can see everything that was uploaded within this area," she explained, making Fei feel humiliated and amateurish.
"I'm in charge of this building, you know."