Worship

WORSHIP

(Part 2)

*****

It's funny how quickly something becomes your new normal.

Only four days ago we were in our chrysalid stage, still awaiting to be born. Only four days ago I felt incomplete, still seeking my purpose. Only four days ago I had never yet even licked my Goddess' cunt!

How quickly we have moved beyond pretence. We just are what we are now.

My Goddess has fully emerged in all her glory and power. And power it is. She exalts in it, enjoys it, revels in it. Revels in her naked open power over me. It is what she deserves. Yes, we are truly past all pretence now. She takes my worship and my service as her natural due, her entitlement owed to her because she is Emily and because I belong to her.

I belong to her now. She states it as a simple fact. I belong to her, she owns me, her will is law. She is not embarrassed at asserting her rightful claim over me, nor am I resentful at hearing it. It feels right. It feels good. It feels natural. Two plus two is four, water is wet, I belong to Emily Lauren Parkinson, my Goddess, my beautiful blonde angel. She is the Goddess. I am hers by divine right.

I am kneeling on the floor, my head resting in her lap. My lips are wet with her cunt juices. She is panting slightly, still recovering from the shuddering orgasm I've just licked her to.

I love our moments together after she has just cum. She is so tender and indulgent with me. She purrs that I've been a good girl and runs her fingers through my hair gently and strokes me like I'm her puppy.

"You're a good girl Monkey, my sweet little monkey."

I always melt when she says this, it makes me giddy. I am! I am her good girl! I am my Goddess' sweet little monkey!

I want to lick her again! I nuzzle her thigh, signalling my interest, and try to lift her skirt again with my lips, she is pantiless beneath. I want to get back to my treat!

She laughs.

"Oh my God! Do you still want more? Are you still hungry Monkey? Am I not feeding you enough?"

Nuzzle, nuzzle.

She murmurs slightly, her interest is rising again.

Nuzzle, nuzzle.

"Oh Jesus. Go on then. Get in there then!"

She lifts her skirt.

I serve her again, face buried in Paradise while she laughs and says I'm worse than a boy.

*****

"Would you say I'm a horny cunt Monkey?"

"I could never call you a cunt Goddess!"

"Horny then?"

I laugh.

"Yes Goddess!"

"Well I am. I am a horny cunt. I'm so horny these days. Having a slave has me in heat all day."

Slave. It's the first time she has used the word. The word sends an electric shock right through my body, my clit pulses.

"I think cumming on demand is addictive. Every Goddess should have tongue on tap."

Tongue on tap. I like that.

And oh how my tongue has been used.

I'm eating a lot of pussy these days. I mean a

lot

.

That dam well and truly broke after our first time and the Goddess was completely unleashed.

I learn. Serve on demand. Serve well. One orgasm is good, but four is better. I learn sometimes a Goddess likes my thumb in her asshole when she cums. I learn that sometimes she will squirt in her excitement.

She is playful my Goddess. Her pussy, my shrine, is our toy. There are many games we play. Games of face sitting. Games of eating. Grapes are even nicer when fetched out of a white pussy, a carrot eaten sticking out from a white cunt is good for a Chinese girl's diet! Honeyed white cunt is sticky but delicious!

Games of begging. She stands, towering above her kneeling monkey, a drop of grool glistening on her perfect cunt lips, only an inch from my outstretched eager tongue. I look at it hanging there, my tongue sticking out tingling in anticipation.

"Do you want it Monkey?"

"Yes Goddess!"

"Do you really want it? Do you really want to lick away that little drop?"

"Yes!!! Yes Goddess! Please let me!"

"What sort of girl wants to lick the juices from another girl's cunt? What does it make you?"

"I'm your little yellow cuntlicker Goddess!"

She laughs. I have learned well.

"Well you need to earn it. My cunt juices aren't for just anybody. They are a privilege."

"Yes Goddess."

"Convince me you are worth them. Use your words Monkey."

Use your words.

It's hard for a Chinese girl to beg. To give up all dignity and humble myself so utterly. To beg on my knees to slurp on a white girl's cunt. The old me back home in Singapore would never have stooped so low.

I beg, I plead. Please Goddess, please let me. I need it, please let me lick your beautiful cunt. Please. Please.

It is not enough. She is exacting and mean. I'm just saying it she says, I don't want you to just say some words to please me, you are thinking, stop thinking and feel it instead. Use your words. Mean it.

I beg more. That glistening drop, that little bead I really do want it. I beg. Please Goddess, please, she is still unyielding though. Use your words

properly

Monkey. Now beg

properly

. You don't get my cunt unless you beg

properly

.

I am begging and pleading yet still she is unmoved. Then it happens, I don't know what I am saying any longer, the words just start coming from some different place deep within me in a long babbling stream. They are real now, authentic, shameless, completely full of desperation and humiliation, desire and need. Please, please let me lick it, I need it, please, please, please, please my Goddess, and I wasn't just saying it now, I mean it and I knew it and she knew it too. Proud Annie is gone, the broken pitifully begging eager cuntlicker is here instead, and I'll do anything, say anything just for the chance to bury my face between this white girl's legs and lap away greedily slurping up her cunt juices like it's nectar. My true self.

"Finally! Was that really so hard? Go on then. You may lick my cunt. Begin!"

*****

I am changing. Every day I am changing. She is changing me. I feel it.

I can't say how. I mean I know how, but I certainly can't say it! Not to my parents when we talk on Zoom. Not to my pinay friends from college either, my Asian girl gang. They all sense it, I'm different somehow.

"I'm just happy lately."

She trains me. How to please her, how to pay homage. Kneel before her. Kiss her feet in supplication. I am to use the words she gives me. I am not to say I like kissing her 'down there' anymore, you're not 12 she says, I am to say I like licking her cunt.

The first time she had me strip naked before her I stood there and trembled. Stand still Monkey, arms by your sides, don't try and cover your cunt in front of your Goddess you naughty girl! Arms down by your side! It's quite hairy isn't it, that's coming off, you will be smooth like me from now on. Yes your tits really are tiny aren't they? Kneel now for your collar.

Collar?

I kneel, lower my head as instructed. A tug, a brief pressure on my neck, a slight tightening and it is done. Look in the mirror.

It is not fancy, it is a plain black leather dog collar. It has a tag.

It says Monkey.

This is the only thing you will ever wear again when we are alone, she says.

*****

"Do you really think I've got nothing better to do with my day than to just hold my butt open for you? You should be grateful Monkey. You should be thanking me. There are so many guys that would kill to lick my ass so will you just get on with it already!"

"Yes Goddess."

I can't bring myself to do it though. It's just so wrong. The very idea of it is nasty and dirty and disgusting to me. I don't do that.

I can't just lean in and lick and slobber on her...

asshole

just like it's her pussy. Not that. Not even my perfect Goddess' perfect asshole. I mean, naturally it is as perfect as the rest of her. Of course it is. It's exactly how when we met I would imagine her asshole would look. It's pink and clean and tiny and puckered. Still I mean come on though, even as perfect and cute as it is, and it is, it's still her

asshole

.

I'm kneeling on the floor behind her. She is on her bed on her stomach with her butt raised and open, impatient with my reluctance.

Goddess has decided that my Sacred Duties should include regularly eating her ass. Reluctantly I agree. It's not that I don't agree with all her premises. Yes I worship her. Yes I agree I belong to her. Yes I should do it simply because she has told me to. Yes it's my duty to obey. Yes I should eagerly want to do it anyway because it's HER asshole and I should worship all of her. Yes I should just do it naturally without even needing to be told. Yes, it's pretty. All of this is true, all of this I readily agree with. I

should

want to do it.

Even so, face almost wedged between her asscheeks, tongue out and ready, mere inches away, I can't do it. It's so degrading.

My father didn't raise me to lick white girls' assholes! He raised me to be proud!

I mean he probably wouldn't be thrilled about me slobbering happily and eagerly on a white girl's cunt with a dog collar around my neck either but this is different. It's an escalation.

It's an asshole.

"It's not going to lick itself Monkey."

I try again. I can't look at it. I close my eyes. I ease my tongue forward another inch. It must be so close now to that little pink rosebud, her little dimple.

My heart is pounding.

"Chop chop!"

I am so ashamed. I don't want to do it.

Be brave Monkey. Remember how you were afraid to eat pussy too that first time? Maybe it will be like that.

My tongue inches forward again. I dread the first contact! I hear myself making a pathetic eh eh sound and then my tongue is pressed against something. I know what it is, a little choke escapes me. Be brave little Monkey. My tongue is moving. She moans happily.

My cheeks are burning hotly, my heart pounds even faster. Shame is billowing up within me, a surging rush of it.

I'm licking another girl's asshole.

"Good girl. Was that so hard?"

Yes Goddess I say inwardly, it really was that hard.

My tongue moves, circles, probes. My Goddess moans again.

I am that girl now.

I don't want to be that girl.

I don't want to... lose all my pride...

I don't want to... do this.

I don't want to... admit what I know to be true.

I don't want to... admit how much I crave humiliation.

I don't want to... admit how much I'm... enjoying this.

And I am. I really am. I am licking that pretty little pucker good now and I am so ashamed and my tongue is slithering again and again over her most private part and my cunt is a throbbing wet hot drooling mess, dribbling with how degrading this is to me and how much I crave it.

When Goddess was satisfied at last with my first asslicking she rolled over and had me serve her and I slurped on her cunt like some crazed hungry she-beast.

"See? Easy! What do you say Monkey?"

Oh God.

"Thank you Goddess."

"For?"

"For letting me lick your asshole Goddess."

Oh God.

My name is Annie Chen. I'm going to be a doctor. It's really humiliating licking a white girl's asshole and it makes me giddy how much I love it.

Remember I said honeyed white cunt was delicious earlier? In days to come I will soon find something else that is too.

Whipped cream and white girl asshole. Chinese girls should only eat it in moderation though.

Fattening.

*****

"You need to lose Qian. You will not see him again."

Qian is a boy I have dated a few times. I quite like him.

"Your dating days are over. You belong to me."

"What do I tell him Goddess?"

"Tell him you serve a jealous Goddess and you're not allowed to see boys anymore."

"I can't tell him that!"

"Whatever you like then."

"Will I ever be allowed to see a guy again Goddess?"

"No. That's over."

"Will you date guys Goddess?"

"No. That's over too. I mean I can if I want to, I make the rules. I'm not going to though."

"Why?"

"This. You and I. This suits me."

*****

I am a very pretty girl. I only realised today.

We are in the bathroom in front of the mirror. I am fussing over her, doing her hair and makeup. Like this or like that?

We are chatting idly, comfortably.

"I wish I was beautiful like you, I wish I wasn't ugly."

She snorts.

"Do you seriously think someone who looks like me would let an ugly girl serve me? Don't be ridiculous. Obviously you're very pretty. Look at your eyes and your skin."

She says this in passing without even pausing and has already moved on to a new topic of conversation, chattering away in full Emily mode but I am struck.

I see in the mirror for the first time a pretty asian girl with beautiful sparkling almond eyes looking back at me.

Boys have told me I'm pretty but boys will say anything to get their cocks sucked. My mother says it too but mothers always say things like that. I never believed any of them.

Some things are obviously true though and you immediately know them when you hear them.

Obviously

someone like my Goddess would never lower herself to be served by someone ugly.

Obviously

.

Boys lie and mothers do too but you can always believe the honesty of a white girl's conceit.

She makes me happy in so many ways.

*****

I am kneeling before her, naked and collared as always.

It's my birthday today. I'm a big girl now! I'm now 20 just like the Goddess.

"I got you a present Monkey."

Emily presents me a small gift wrapped box with a pretty pink ribbon.

I am touched. I open it happily, eagerly.

I am embarrassed straight away. After all that has passed I am still embarrassed sometimes. There will be two much more humiliating things in my life in the weeks to come but I don't know that yet. This is bad enough! I feel the heat in my red face.

On a bed of velvet in the box lies a jewelled buttplug.

"I chose it for you Monkey. How pretty is the jewel!"

My cheeks burn.

"On all fours on the bed Monkey. We have to try it now!"

I am crimson.

"Head down. Stick your butt up. Good girl."

"Hold your cheeks apart now Monkey."

I am dying. It's not even that she's not seen that part of me before. Of course she has, I spend our evenings naked. That is incidental and casual though. This.. is... deliberate... my asshole is the star of the show.

It's not easy to open up, not even to the Goddess I adore. It's so humbling. Good Chinese girls don't do this! We don't show our most secret place like this, ass up in the air holding our buttcheeks open to another girl's gaze.

Ugh. How long have I been here like this? Why must she drag it out like she is enjoying tormenting me even though she obviously is?

I flinch! There is a sudden dab of cold

there

. Slippery.

Oh God!

"It's OK Monkey, just lube. Relax, be a good girl for me."

More. More cold. More slippery. She is rubbing it over my anus in a little circular motion.

It's the only time she's ever touched me

there

. Well it's the first time anyway. Other than this she doesn't touch my intimate places. I could never do what you do she said once and pulled a face, ewww, especially all that eating butt, so gross.

I am ashamed during my plugging. Ashamed at what she can see. Ashamed to have my ass up in the air, holding my butt open with a white girl rubbing my asshole. Ashamed at how nice it feels.

Oh Goddess! It does! It feels good!

She doesn't rush. Her finger lingers. It's not cold now. Her finger is warm.

I whimper. It's easing inside. Although I touch her like this I'm.. not used.. to being... penetrated

there

myself. I take an intake of breath. Stay still Monkey, keep your butt up and your asscheeks open.

Her finger is working within me. Rolling within me, pressing deeper gently, adding more lube, working it in well. I feel my asshole trying to resist the intrusion, no wait it's trying to suck her finger in, oh it's doing both at the same time! New sensations for a trembling red faced monkey!

Oh Goddess, this feels so dirty, so private and intimate. So nice. I don't want it to stop. I wish it didn't feel so nice, my enjoyment adds to my humbling.

The finger withdraws.

"Stay still little Monkey"

Cold steel is put to my little hole. I whimper again. It looked so tiny in the box but now it feels so big!

Gentle pressure. I want to rise up! Goddess smacks my ass gently to still me. Pressing. Oh God! I can't! It's too big! Too big! My eyes bulge. My asshole is resisting, it doesn't want it! I will tear, I will tear, I swear it will tear me! Another whimper. It will never go in, it can't. I can't! Ahh.. and then my asshole is surrendering and I am opening and it is past something and it is in.

Goddess strokes my asscheeks tenderly.

"Good girl."

That was my first plugging. My birthday treat.

Several times that evening I examined myself in the bathroom, standing before the mirror, bending over and looking through my legs to see my own butthole stuffed with her present. It shines prettily.

It becomes normal after the first few days, a new nightly ritual. She plugs me at the start of each evening and unplugs me before bed.

It's never not humbling but it becomes one of the favourite parts of my day.

I feel open and exposed. Open to my Goddess as I should be. I feel naughty and submissive, yet protected too. Monkey ass up in the air and my Goddess gently rubbing in the lube. I moan sluttily as her finger, sometimes two fingers, works within me. She never hurries, she draws it out, this is our special girl time every day and I clench on her fingers and grunt in pleasure as a little owned pet should.

The other treat I got for my birthday was Goddess had me fuck myself silly on her big toe. No cock has ever pleased me more and after sufficient begging and grovelling she lets me cum and I do gloriously while looking into her eyes as she calls me a dirty, dirty little yellow whore and I cum thrashing about and moaning her name after which I lick her asshole and cunt until she cums three times.

The best birthday ever!

*****

I don't get to cum often of course. Well not compared to the old me anyway, who lived with my fingers on my pussy. That's what made fucking and cumming on her toe on my birthday special. It's an occasional treat.

Goddess cracked down on my masturbation early. She's stopped now that she has my tongue so why should I be allowed to do it she says. I had a final farewell fingering, naked on my bed in front of her, with her spurring me on, calling me dirty names and rubbing her soft feet over my face while I came. She wanted to see how I did it before she had me stop forever. Once this would have been impossible for me, now I wanted to perform for her and I put on a

shameless

show.

I'm not allowed to touch my pussy if I'm alone now except for washing and grooming, never for my pleasure. Goddess says every orgasm I ever have again will be in her presence only and only with her permission. She says all my orgasms belong to her and if I cum by myself I have stolen something that belongs to her. She asks if I am a thief. I am not!

I hunger for relief. My world is full of feminine pleasure, excitement, and orgasmic moans of ecstatic release. Just not mine. I live vicariously through her orgasms. Oh Goddess they sound so good! They taste so good!

Sometimes she lets me rub my pussy while I'm worshipping, if my hand isn't needed to please her at that moment. Sometimes I time it right and she lets me cum while she does, and deep shuddering waves have me rocking in glorious relief while she holds my head to her own spasming cunt and my ears are full of her words. I'm a dirty little yellow cuntlicker she tells me and I'm slurping on her and she is thrashing about and moaning and I am sucking on her clit and rubbing myself furiously and I'm moaning too, moaning into her cunt with my own bliss.

Afterwards I lie there, weak, face still buried in her pussy. She runs her fingers gently through my hair and tells me I'm a good girl, her good girl, her good little monkey and I swear I am in Heaven.