If you've just joined the series here, know that it's a slow burn, more Romance than Porn. It's somewhat autobiographical, and I'm trying to keep it fairly realistic, things that *might* have happened to a shy 18yo guy as he matured sexually, but admittedly in a hyper-sexual environment.
Rita let us lay like that for an indeterminable (to me) amount of time. Me on my back, exhausted, spent, drowsy, Nia's right hand still wrapped around my penis through the boxers, her head on my chest, my right arm around her back, hand on her shoulder, left hand gently running fingers through her hair. Her legs intertwined with my right, my left calf sandwiched between her graceful calves.
Perfect bliss. Had we known a meteor was about to strike the hotel we probably wouldn't have moved.
I want to die just like this, with you.
But all good things must come to an end, and Rita cleared her throat, somewhat startling me awake (and I think Nia too) and out of my revery.
"Alright, Romeo & Juliet, rouse yourselves and let's talk about what you just experienced."
Nia moved first of course, letting go of my manhood, wiping her hand on the lower part of my shorts. As she rose she must've noticed a bit of drool on my chest, which she self-consciously wiped away. Once she cleared me I was able to sit up, Rita passing me a hand towel to cover my shorts.
With Nia and I sitting side-by-side on the edge of the bed, legs and torsos touching, holding hands again, Rita asked us to describe in one word how we felt about the orgasms we'd each just had, back and forth:
"Fantastic." "Intense." "Soul-moving." "Bonding." "Connecting." "Explosive." "Caring." "Tender." "Thebestthingever!" The last one was Nia, cheating 4 words into one.
"Excellent! Do either of you feel any shame about what you've done?"
Nia and I looked at each other, and I didn't see any shame or guilt in her eyes or expression, nor did I think there was any in mine. We both turned back toward Rita with shy smiles and timid, "Nopes." We simultaneously squeezed each other's hand.
"Good, and you shouldn't! What I saw was two lovely young people doing what comes naturally, perhaps what God intended them to do with their bodies. But there was an extra intensity, wasn't there?" Nods.
"Mark, I know
you
felt it. Can you describe to Nia what you felt in that moment, and as you lay together afterwards?"
I won't bother you with my dialogue, because much of it was halting, even incoherent, but I tried to describe to her all the feelings I expounded at the end of the last chapter. The doubt in my ability to please a woman (she blushed at 'woman'), some doubt in my ability to perform with one, the relief when it all worked out, the infinite tenderness I felt toward her, the sort of cosmic connection, and the idea that I could've died in her arms like that and been utterly content.
I tried to leave out any notion of 'love' per se, because I knew that was probably just my emotions and hormones running high, and I didn't want to scare her away. Or worse, confess it or something just short of it, only to find that it wasn't reciprocated.
"Very good, I thought you probably felt those things. It's natural and healthy, and really beautiful."
"Nia, how did
you
feel? Both when you were the receiver and the giver. Do you echo many of Mark's feelings, or want to share any different ones of your own?"
Nia agreed with everything I said, and her manner, her tone, her looks at me, led me to believe that she shared some of the depth of feelings I had for her. That if it wasn't truly love, it wasn't just lust either. She compared this experience with those she'd had in the past with boys, those who hadn't really known her much, who weren't interested in giving her pleasure, but were mainly interested in just pawing at her, playing with her like a toy. In short, in getting themselves off without regard for her pleasure or feelings.
"Excellent! I'd hoped one of you would bring that idea up, that comparison. Because right? When you feel a real attraction to someone, to their
mind
, to their desires, to their
needs
, and not just to their private parts, then the lovemaking is infused with so much more
meaning
, isn't it?"
We both agreed, me thinking back to when my foster sister had me pawing at her, trying to satisfy only
her
needs, with no thought to my feelings or desires. Just assuming I was a boy, so of course I'd go along.
But I wasn't wired like that, I couldn't do it like that, anonymous and purely sexual. This though, this connection that Rita had so intricately woven between Nia and I, this is what I needed for it to be meaningful to me.
I told Rita and Nia that in so many words, tearing up as I did. (I've always teared up easily, eyes getting watery, that tickling pain in the bridge of the nose.) Nia reached around with both arms and gave me a strong, long hug, which I returned. And Rita is uncanny in her ability to read people, because when even
I
was thinking,
Okay, we should probably break this off
, she spoke up.
"Lovely, you two are so good together! I'm really enjoying watching you blossom in your confidence and your sexuality. But Mark, off to the shower with you now! Just throw your shorts in the trash, I brought you some new ones. Get yourself nice and clean and smelling good for your lover; there's a toiletries kit for you with some necessities."
I'm surprised by Rita's preparations, but then realized that
she knew all along she was going to bring me back here!
Or had a pretty good idea she was, and the 'interview' was mostly a ruse, maybe just to keep me guessing? Candace probably had a large part to do with that, artfully 'selling' Rita on me, talking up my good points, that she wouldn't be disappointed, etc. That thought made me proud of myself.
But whatever Candace's role, or whatever the reason for Rita's trust in me (was it intuition?), I was glad they'd brought me to this place and time where I was blessed with getting to know Nia like this. Which then had me wondering,
Just how many times has Rita done this? She said she was doing research for her Master's degree, after all. And with interracial couples, no less!
But with a, "Go, go, go," I was shooed off to the shower. Forgetting all those previous thoughts, I kissed Nia on the lips (it seemed like the right thing to do) and headed to the shower.
"No need to close the door," is called after me. And you know what? I'm not even embarrassed by that, though I would've been just the day before. I find the toiletries kit with shampoo and a bar of soap, ditch the boxers, and hop into the shower.
I've cleaned up down there and soaped all over and am shampooing my hair, eyes closed, when I hear the shower door slide open. Peeking with one eye (I hate getting soap in my eyes), I see Nia stepping in, looking bashful yet playful.
In almost a whisper, "Miss Rita said I should come join you, since I need to shower too, and it would be fun for us." Giggles as she closes the glass door behind her.
How exciting, my little Nia joining me in the shower! But then I wondered what we were 'allowed' to do in here alone together, and I must've backed away from Nia when she approached me.
"It's okay, Rita said we could soap each other up and....
touch