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November 25th 1955
I had just given birth. Hadn't been two weeks and them Caulfield's done called me in; talkin bout they needed me for thanksgiving. My baby was born November 19th 1955. She was early, I knew it wasn't time, cause my stomach wasn't big enough yet. But we ain't the ones 'cidin when they come into the world. God is.
So here she comes, jus a screechin' and goin on and I'm just thankful. Long as she screechin, means them lungs is workin. She got all ten fingers and all ten toes and not a hair on her head. I named her Cora Ann after my mama. My baby girl. I finally got my baby girl. Seven Boys. All of 'em rough and tumble, wearin out they trousers 'fo I can even pass em on to they brother. They run, they jump, they fight like dogs. Beatin' and poundin on each other. They always dirty, hate bathin' like Satan hates holy water.
I tell em, "Gone in that washroom, do battle with the four legged white man!"
Oh lawd, they hate when I say that! They get to runnin, and hidin at any mention of the four legged white man. Like I said, It's like holy water to Satan. Or like that picture, the wizard of oz. you know when that ol witch melts when the water hit her? That's how my boys ack around water.
But now, I got my baby girl. Five pounds and a quarter of a girl. Doctors say I can't have no mo, sum wrong with my insides. That's just fine with me, I got my baby girl. I got all I need. And she gon be my lil princess. Um gon spoil her like she deserves.
Wilbur, that's my husband, said he don't want no more babies. We got eight of em. And I'm the one runnin round here mindin these chillren. I tole em stop puttin babies in my belly. I love him. I do. But married life his hard. Specially when you poor. That's why I hada start workin up in them rich neighbourhoods. Cookin and cleanin fo white folks, like I aint got a home of my own to tend to.
Damn, they chillren is rotten. To the core. Nasty little bastards, with no home trainin cause they mama's is too busy worrin bout the hydrangeas, what ever they are. And they daddy's too drunk to care. All I keep thinking is if me an Wilbur had this kinda money, this kinda house, my babies would be grateful. All of us, we'd be grateful. Not them. They so unhappy in these big houses, cadilac cars and fur coats. That's the problem; they don't appreciate nothin. Everything is given to em, don't know nothing bout hard work.
That's why, a week and five days after I done gave birth to my baby girl, I'm poundin the pavement on my way to the Caulfield estate. The day before thanksgiving. Um bout to cook till I can't cook no mo, food I could never afford to put on the table in front my own chillren. But umma cook it for them ungrateful bastards.
I hate bein out at this hour. When all the hooch hounds are crawlin they sorry asses back home to they wives and families. All the real characters are out this time of night. For them the night is just endin, for me the days jus beginin. Still got a ways to go. Ain't even outta Brixdale yet, still got so many miles to go.
It's bone chillin cold out here. I got Wilbur's big work jacket on and I'm still cold. And even worse it smells like rain. I want to pick up my pace, but I can't. Body's getting to old and tired. And, I just had a baby last week. My lil dumplin' is at home wondering where her mama is. Her mama is out here wonderin why she's runnin the roads at a quarter to five when she had babies at home. But that's why she do it. Cause she got babies at home.
Sky is thunderin over my head and I'm almost to the Woolworths. Once I get to the Woolworths, I know um almost there. Just a few more miles up Charter road and I'll be at the Woolworths.
Funny thing about this long trek is that you get to see the changes. goin from one town to the next, you get to see the way other people live outsidea Brixdale. Find out, most people got hot water in they houses! Hot dog! Ain't gotta heat the water and pour it in the basin, it comes right out the damn faucet! That's white folks fo ya.
In Brixdale, it ain't but two kinds of folk; Poor and poorer. We happen to be better off, cause my husband works like slave to take care of us. That's why I don't much mind working for these rich white folk, cookin and cleanin and 'yas a bossin.' Cause I know Willy works twice as hard down in them factories. They pay him half wages cause he's coloured and that's just the way it is. He works hard, six days a week haulin and luggin and don't ask for much. A hot plate when he get's home, an easy chair to sit in. he's a good man, my husband.
I made it almost half way to the woolworths before it opened up and started rainin on me. Clouds opened up like the red sea, pourin down in sheets. Lawd, just let me make it to Woolworths.
Woolworths is like the bridge that connects this town. On one side you got Brixdale, where all the coloured folk live. Then on the other side you got Edenville, where all the rich people live. Once you cross over into Edenville, you in another world. Grass is as green as green gets. Big cars in the car park, streets is clean, ain't no such thing as a dirt road in Edenville. Streets is paved smooth as silk.
The Woolworths is right up ahead of me and I need to buy an umbrella cause my head is soaked. Gonna make myself sick if I don't. When I walk in the man behind the counter watches me pick one up and bring it to em. Like I might run off with it. I ain't never stole nothing in my life, and I don't reckon I will. I gave him a dollar for the umbrella. Robbery. Pure robbery.
Now that I'm outside again, I can't get my mind off my daughter. My miracle. She cries more'n any of my other chillren ever did. And I don't mind. Sounds like music to my ears when she cries. Wasn't sposed to have no mo babies anyhow, but here she come. I can almost hear her now. Wailin and cryin.
Wait.
There is a baby cryin, but who would have a chile out in all this rain? At this hour in the morning? Sounded like it was comin from the trash bins behind the store.
Oh God.
There's a baby in them trash bins. Jesus, someone left a baby in one of these trash bins. Now I'm tearin through em, rippin em open tryna find the child. My hands is shakin from the cold rain, or maybe it's because I'm terrified. How could you leave a baby in the trash?
I can't find the baby. I'm feeling crazy. Like I'm making it up. I'm about to leave but I hear it again. Just a whimper now. Comin from way off in the corner. I lift off some paper and other trash and there she is. Naked, wrapped in an ol blanket skin white as porclain, and lookin up at me with the bluest eyes I ever seen. My heart is bout ready to rip from my chest.
"Father God!"
I pick her up, careful not to hurt her. She freezing cold, trembling, and I wrap her up in my husbands jacket. Real close to my heart. I even put her inside my clothes so she can steal some heat from me. Now she right up against my skin. Black on white. She lookin up at me, so quiet now, like she know I'm bout to take care of her.
"It's alright chile, mama's here."
I walk out the old alley, put up my umbrella and head back to Brixdale. I ********************