Call me Vanessa. Some years ago, never mind how long precisely -- having little or no money in my purse, and nothing particular to interest me as far as going to college, I thought I would see what the seeder side of the world was like.
I remembered watching an interview with the exotic dancer Katie Morgan. The interviewer asked her, "but isn't the exploitation degrading?"
Katie answered, "I own a beach-front mansion in Malibu. I drive a Jaguar. I work maybe four or five days a month. I am 22 years old and my net worth is nearly 6 million dollars. What makes you so sure that I'm not the one exploiting you?"
So, as soon as I turned 18, I turned my talents to exotic dancing.
I am just a touch on the tall side. Many people think I am tall, but its an illusion. I am slim and long-legged, with a long throat. Those things and my body language seem to delude people into thinking I am tall. But, I'm about average height for a girl.
I am very fair-skinned; I like to think, porcelain. My natural hair color is soft sandy reddish. I often streak with a darker red, or highlight with blond to a very nice strawberry. I have nice wide hips and a slender little waist, which I work hard to maintain. I am fit, but still girl soft. I have big, loving, grayish blue, doe-like eyes.
I keep my hair long so that I can curl, wave, kink, bun, tiara, beehive, whatever I want with it. I am lucky that my hair is much more agreeable to styling and training into different sets than most girls'. A simple change in hair style can really change my look; an asset in my chosen profession.
My best physical asset is probably my natural body language; men love to watch me move. I am an excellent dancer.
My breasts are smallish, but are perfect for my frame and complexion. My aureoles are dark and wide against my small pure white breasts, with pretty conical nipples, lighter in color, more pink than my aureole. My flower petals are thick and flared out, well, like a flower, and my clitoris is quite large. When dancing, I keep myself completely shaved.
I was hired before I got more than 2 steps through the door. Not actually, but figuratively.
Because I was young and with my very fair white complexion, I felt I was better suited to lingerie than bikinis. So, I usually danced in lingerie types of costumes with lots of jewelry and platform heels (dominas, also known as screamers). You have to be thin, accustomed to walking and dancing in heels, and coordinated to dance sensually in those. Most ordinary women buy those shoes simply to wear during sex. The other girls were impressed by the way I could dance in them.
I usually chose romantic cool jazz and jazzy remixes to dance to. The bikini dancers do more of the rap or heavy metal. The cheerleaders do the 50s songs, the costume people have their things. Since I was the lingerie angel of the bedroom type, I was all softness, lace, fragility, my music was usually slower. On occasion I would do metal songs, or Goth music, or try different outfits. Generally though, I was the soft, loving bedroom fantasy.
It worked for me. Quite often I was the featured dancer, the girl on the marquee. I could make $400 to $1000 in one 3-4 hour shift. All I did was love myself to music, bask in adoration, and have money (literally) thrown at my feet. Of course I was usually dancing for drooling baboons and drunken softball teams.
I stayed away from drugs, alcohol, even tobacco. I planned to get out, before the drugs, goofiness, and other crap could ruin me. I made tons of cash very very fast and socked it away with a professional investment firm. If a dancer doesn't waste her money on deadbeat boyfriends, drugs, or other nonsense, it's really easy to save and invest a lot of cash, very fast. Their is no "down season" for 50 year old white men wanting to spend all their cash making giggling teenage girls smile and squirm. Men are such fools.
I had very little sexual experience before I started dancing. The two boys I had been with in high school were, for the most part, disappointing. They claimed that my vagina was too tight and hot, which made them cum so quickly.
And after I started dancing I went out with middle-aged white guys. The other girls made fun of me, but after all, that's where the money is. I was a very practical girl, all about being financial successful.
One fateful day that all changed. Looking back, I now know I was nothing more than a naive naked teenager selling herself onstage.
That day, as I finished my stage set, the Den Mother approached me saying, "An important customer has asked you to dance for him."
With that she led me to a booth where there were three black men each wearing tons of bling.
The tallest, and obviously the most important of the trio, already had two other girls lap dancing and cuddling him. By that time, I had been around long enough to recognize a drug lord when I saw one.
I started dancing for him too. I was rubbing my butt up against his crotch giving him a good lap dance when I felt the largest cock I had ever encountered. I mean, I'd been with what I thought were big men by that time, but what I was feeling was bigger than anything I could imagine possible.
I looked over my shoulder at him, my eyes wide in disbelief. What I was feeling was just insane.
He was visibly entertained by my reaction.
Turning to his companions he said, "I gotta have this one."
He got up, grabbed my wrist and started leading me out of the club.
I was in shock. Socializing with patrons was strictly against club rules. While it was common for the girls to make discrete "arrangements", that was always done out of sight of club management. The Den Mother just smiled approvingly as he drug me out of the club in my skimpy attire.
Getting into a totally decked out Caddy, complete with driver, we were off and on our way to I had no idea where. I was terrified; had no idea if I would see another day. After all, girls do just disappear from strip clubs.
I felt like a slave, just purchased. All I had was my stage outfit of a white see through lingerie top and equally transparent bikini bottom. It was early spring and there was a definite chill in the air.
Trying to keep the rising fear out of my voice, I asked, "Could I borrow a cell phone to call a friend?"
"You won't need that," he replied abruptly.
He could see I was nervous and scared. "We just goin ta my place for a little private dancin'."
His reassurance didn't make me feel any better. I was sure all murders use reassuring words.
Shortly the driver turned into a crappy place in a run down section of the city. It was a crumby old brick building in a rotten old industrial neighborhood.
My fear increased even more. I visualized my brutalized body being found next to a heap of rubbish.
With foreboding, but having no real alternative, I allowed myself to be led inside. We entered through a rusty steel door.
I wasn't prepared for the inside. It looked like the Ritz. The interior was completely refurbished. It was obvious that money was no obstacle. New hard wood flooring, plush rugs, leather furniture, chrome and marble everywhere. Sure, there were security systems, and all the windows were either glass-blocked or barred, but that was overwhelmed by the opulence of the furnishings.
It was obvious that this man liked his comfort, but didn't want to be noticed.
A man on a mission, he immediately put on some music.
Without saying a word, he motioned me to him. We danced together for a few slow-grooving songs. He held me close to him, pulling my slim white body against his. His size dwarfed me.
I could feel his strength. I could easily feel his muscles through his shirt as we moved in time to the music, so unlike any other man I had ever danced with.
There was something about him. I was terrified by him, but yet, in his arms, I felt protected. I felt so tiny, helpless and vulnerable. I was very much in need of his protection. The fear was still there, deep down I was still wary.....but I was loosening up, despite my concerns.
He looked down upon me as I glanced up at him. He brought his full Negro lips to mine. I responded instinctively. We kissed. His mouth had a different feel from any I had kissed before.
His tongue invaded my mouth. I accepted and responded to his intrusion working my own tongue against his.
I never thought of Negro features being handsome. But I was beginning to associate such features with great strength, and power...and domination.
I could feel his dark, savage lust rising. As he pressed me to him, I again felt the rising bulge at his crotch. I felt that unbelievably large appendage of his beginning to harden from my presence.
In spite of my predicament, I realized a growing feeling of satisfaction that I was pretty and sexy enough to have been selected by this obviously wealthy and powerful man, and that I was the cause of his rising excitement.
He guided our dancing into the master bedroom.
I couldn't believe it, this guy had a stripper pole in his bedroom! Now THAT is a bachelor pad. He also had guns, brass knuckles and all kinds of other unpleasant things there. When he closed the door, I again felt those opposing emotions of security and fear.
I felt a need to know why I was there. I asked him, "Why did you pick me out? Out of all the girls, why have you brought me here?"
He simply replied, "You look real fine, and I like the way you acted when you felt the size of my Niggah dick. You young, and I bet you never been wit a REAL man before. I like to break in little white girls like you."
I asked him, "Why'd the Den Mother let you take me like that? No one is supposed to accompany any of the girls away from the club."